My.Plain.Life

New year!

2010-01-08T20:06:00.003+08:00

Alright people. Finally i have the time to post what i last left off. Right lets just get started.

Yep 2010, welcome! Ended 2009 in tears Welcomed 2010 in tears as well. Well yeah seriously, 2009 was too much for me to handle. Sigh.

Theres something i wanted to say, but.. after knowing something i guess it doesnt really matters anymore. Guess its better not to say after all this is a 0 viewer blog xP. Haha.

Right dint expect theres fireworks at the park. Kind of surprised. But oh well although it was not as amazing as those out in the town but at least i get to enjoy it, although i had blurry vision due to *crying* lol. but whatever.

Yeah, so if you guys are wondering what i wanna say, try asking me F2F lol. maybe ill say maybe not. Oh well.

I dun know how 2010 will be a good one to me. Or will it be worse? Sigh no one can say for sure. So if you're asking me what about those "waiting for her" you said etc etc. Well i wonder am i still able to wait or not. Sigh.

i really really hate this feeling, the emptiness, shessh... plus somewhat the blood are all gushing up my brain. Im real tired experiencing this feeling.

Somehow for me right now, a hug from the one i love will be the best. Sadly there isnt any one that can do it now.

Right. Thats all folks. I'll find sometime out to sort of my blog/journal. Till then, good luck all. Enjoy. Have fun with your love ones.

bingg

sayonara.

New year eve?

2009-12-30T23:50:00.002+08:00

Its probably because i know that no one will read this blog, which means she doesnt. Therefore i can freely type what i want here. Anyway even if she does visit she cant be bothered anyway so yeah.

its almos just left with 24 hours to 2010. Sigh, what can i say about this? Can i say that I'm happy? Can I say that 'bad' times finally gonna pass? No. Obviously that will be lying to myself no?

Right, i can still recall about last year's Xmas and New year celebration so clearly. Dint expect time to fly pass this time round. Which is a totally different feelings and emotions having to go through. It really sucks to the core please.

And just something to share. I had another dream just now while i was napping from 8-11. Yeah as probably you guys expected i dream of her. Sigh, it felt so real, finally "some sort of reconciliation" or what. I get to hug her OMG. i was like totally OMG and was crying so badly in my dreams, which somehow ended up making me cry while sleeping. That was how i woke up ~_~. Sigh..

Pathetic me? Sad well i guess I'm heavily dependent on people. Nothing much for me to say.

Right so during countdown I'll be heading over to the park there. Maybe some of you know where it is maybe not. Well whatever. If you wanna find me feel free that is if only you can find me. I'll be in one of the three parks. No idea sad enough but true enough i dont really wanna spend it with others rather then her :S. Yeah so.. Wondering where sengkang parks are? ask around :).

Im saying it here because well, even if you guys managed to read this it doesnt make any difference cuz it will be WAY over New year already. so its probably just a "watever la you wanna do this to yourself your prob". Right ?

Alright thats all for today. Probably will update after the countdown or what. Let me hope that there isnt much ppl there tml.

Thats all ppl. Nites!

Holiday~

2009-12-25T03:16:00.003+08:00

~For the one and only gal~

Alright peeps, updating once again. This year is coming to an end soon. TO me this year is kind of difficult, lonely?, dull, full of emotions. sigh.

There's so much so much on my mind. At times i really felt like breaking down? Seriously speaking i dont wanna show this side of me to others, other then the only one ;].

For this holiday, practically considered as not a holiday at all?

Week beginning on 7th of dec, had my mid-sem tests. Totally sucked totally buang. only module im confident in scoring is calculas. apart from that rest is as good as FAIL!

Finally tests were over on friday. So for the days beginning from 11th of dec, im practically packed with projects, projects and more projects.

As some of you knew, i was working on a gift for her. Yeah so practically it was kind of a rushed work. I stayed up nights after nights, folding hearts after hearts till my right thumb hurts from flattening the straws. Due to mornings and afternoons spent in school doing project, i barely had time to make any except in the night. It was really tiring, but i loved it. I actually enjoyed doing it. Probably because it was for her?

One pack of straws i can make about 80+ hearts, which took me like 2-3hours sitting right infront of my computer, listening to the same song folding and folding non-stop. Nights after nights yeah i did the same thing over and over again. From 13th - 17th of dec on average i barely slept 3-4 hours per day. well worth it anyway. *despite knowing the results is still the same*

finally one project was OVER, but i still continued my routine yadayadayada. From point to point i took about 1hr30 mins just to cut out the dangling straws away from my hearts.

i somewhat really lost track of time from staying up so late at night and such.

Originally planned to pass her the gift on 24th of dec, but somehow edmond got to know that shes not free, fine change to 23th *special day* yet not free as well. Thats when i thought i was really running OUT OF TIME. At that point of time it was on a sunday, i barely made 800+ hearts. hearing that shes NOT gonna be at home etc etc... Eventually edmond and me went over on the 22th of dec.

knowing that im running out of time, i rushed from sunday - monday - tuesday morning am+. I chionged i rushed~~~~ Finally am able to finish it just on time. i Took my time to cut, think of the colour arrangement etc etc. finally i double checked to make sure that theres 1314 hearts in it. Well roughly 3-4 times of counting. Its real tiring considering im damn tired.

right so on tuesday aternoon, went shopping to get my wrapping paper. I couldnt find any suitable ones. Saw some nice ones, but its not suitable for our relationship, so ended up i got smiley faces wrapping paper. so yeah i went home it was around like 4 when i reached. slowly slowly, i took my own sweet time to settle some things for 30 mins and spent another 30 mins to wrap it.

*anyway IM SORRY about the wrapping. I know it sucks, the quality of work is not there. I tried but i just cant seem to wrap it up nicely. Pardon me. [that is if you will ever read this lol]*

Yeah supposedly there SHOULD be additional presents inside. but due to certain circumstances. I dint managed to put in. Im really disappointed, i even wanted to cry at that point of time. DAMN seriously damn.

Right so i wrote something, dun know if she got open it up and look. well embarrassing lines. but wadeva. you guys need not know.

so finally i was done with everything wrapping packing etc etc. it was 5pm. i could feel that my body was REAL heavy. so i took a nap till 7. met up with mond-chan at 9 headed over there, walked to her house. as i expected shes not in. Probably working OT at some restaurants or what? judging from the details i read on her FB.

just makes me wonder where issit how late issit how does she go home. sigh. So many questions without answers. Im in no position to ask nor worry. oh well, as usual left it outside and went home.

was really worried that someone might take it away. but lucky no one did. oh well... she sent me a sms. Stating "why are you wasting effort on me?". I dint wanna reply. I dont wanna reply. my mind at that period was blank totally. i dint wanna think of anything.

So i posted on fb and my msn told myself : "Do you need a reason to love someone? Do you need a reason to give it your all and spend your efforts?" sigh. I told her you know it, the answer. I dont have to say it. But if she wans to deny it or etc i can do nothing.

finally the only day i could rest was wednesday, yes FINALLY! but at the same time i felt kind of empty. no idea why. Just to think, *sigh christmas follow by new year cant celebrate with her* somewhere it hurts, so much. Im not strong to withstand all these loneliness. lol.

Oh well then following up thursday, yesterday. headed over to sch for project again...

oh well, after that got myself a sec-1 hairstyle. Please dont laugh if you see me lol.

Im trying to break down certain walls i had put up ard me ever since in primary school. It was really kind of an unpleasant memories. But i cant blame on it, for me being so useless. sigh.

I miss you gal. 1314<3

-BC-

P.S. anyway theres the FINAL product i finished. nice? ugly? pointless? well keep it to yourself. Ill post afew more pictures when i upload them into my comp, how messy my table was. haha.. thats all ppl.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Randomnesssss

2009-11-05T00:14:00.004+08:00

Hmm, alright i may be switching between hisplain-life and bing_bing_bing. So if here theres no update probably theres one over there so yeah..

Alright just some random updates.

Many times, when im traveling. I always sort of long for someone to lean on. sigh.. im weak no? sigh, whats wrong of wanting to lean on someone when traveling, not a crime no? oh well.

Seems like for the past few months whenever i lie down, i always got this feeling that my eye may just overflow. *shakehead* and it takes forever for me to fall asleep. crap. TOTALLY crap.

and this feeling that i always get whenever ... this hollow feeling in my chest

sigh alright nvm.. Lets see my Basic Theory Test is on 11/11/09. Man how i wish i can one-shot pass all. no i dont have a choice, cuz of what jasmine told me. AMK driving center moving to woodland next year. so i dont have a choice but to one shot it. Hope i can ba.

My head been hurting for the past few months already man. i did try to sleep early, i did try to take naps whenever i can. but it doesnt seem to help. my chest is hurting ALL OVER AGAIN.

WTF IS WRONG WITH MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Oh well, i stayed up ytd till 4am watching youtube MVs.Well one of it was FT ISland - Girls Dont know. nice song nice lyrics. go check it out. theres alot more as well. it seems to be that FT Island's songs are mostly emotional type. about relationship etc etc. kind of like them. but however BIG BANG COME FIRST LOL.

alright heres the vid watch it

kaka.. i still cant decide on bangs or fringe. damit. AHHHHHH.. damn, duno wad to go..

RAWR. just paid 100 bucks for study trip next year mid/late march to vietnam. i wonder why i chose to go. fuck. too much too much.

oh well, anyway just something i wanna share with you guys? When theres too much on my mind. i tend to stone, i tend not to pay attention to my surroundings. my mind literally stop functioning at those point of time. So when you talk to me or ask me stuff, if i HUH you or what, PLEASE kindly repeat to me. Thanks. Sometimes its pretty obvious from my eyes no? although most of the times im hiding behind a smile. ah crap. thats all ppl.

Dang Dang Dang.

bing.-

Total randomness

2009-10-29T02:38:00.002+08:00

Hello! once again im here to update some random boring dull lonely days of mine!

alright, let me just get to the main storyyyyyyyy =D Lets just get started with the latest update then.

28th of oct, Alright today, had my CDS lesson PUBLIC SPEAKING. oh great wonderful isnt it? Im ACTUALLY trying to learn to SPEAK WELL. oh well i hope after this sem, i can improve somewhat =/. After that had our communication skills 2 lesson for only like 20 mins? It was my turn to present on the topic : MEMO. Oh well. I did a brief job =/. just get over with it. SORRY GUYS ><

hmm after lesson headed over to bistro park to celebrate angeline's birthday~ till 3pm i left the sch!

Headed over to nyp to meet up with mond-chan and bear-san. Thruout the whole journey i felt like slping. totally it was so damn hard to keep my head from leaning against anything >_>.. i swore i wont lean other then that shoulder ._.

reached nyp walked to the amk driving center to sign up for my BTT! the test date is on 11/11/09. wed yeah! at 3.15pm

well hope i can pass it >< study ="x..

after that headed over to amk hub, from 5pm to 7pm waited for jx to arrive. oh well.. after that headed over to some Ashtro store in some kopitiam beside S-11? had western food. well to me the food was so-so la. the side dishes, abit sucks except for fries and onion rings.

yup after dinner with them. the 4 four us rather the 3 of them were having fun chit-chatting =x after all you guys know me im just someone who listens =x. hehe but sure just by listening i can have the same fun as you guys wohooo. thanks guys you make my day. *5050 lies/truth*

Alright thats all for today~

27th of oct, nothing much happened except i was on the verge of "dying". Vomited lol. why? i dont know. just totally sick @_@. Well in the afternoon headed over to mac with emily weijie and teckkoon. well suddenly i got some info on the promotion that mac is having. amazing. how i wish i can win the iTouch man. but oh well althou i got geylang left Joochiat, but i gave geylang away to weijie. HMm i duno why. somehow i got a feeling that i wont regret. If its mine it will eventually come back no? :)

26th of Oct, Monday the LONGEST day of my timetable. I HATE MONDAY! oh well, nothing much happened. ended sch at 6. waited for jx to go home tgt at 7+. reach home at 8+ slack stone and thats it o-o.

well sorry guys thats ALL i can remember. right now its 3am! or soon to be! well been sleeping real late again. and waking up early. this is crap. no idea why. head hurting again, so is my chest fuck. nvm. at least im just suffering alone. so even if something happens. It shldnt be of much concern to others. so FK HECK CARE ME PPL =D.

Recently got hold of G-dragon from Big Bang Solo Album. well he totally rocks. check out these few songs from his album!:

1)She's Gone

2)Korean Dream

3)Heartbreaker

4)Breathe

5)Hello

6)1 year station

7)Gossip man

the other 3 songs dont really attract me but try listening to them

8)The leaders

9)A boy

10)Butterfly~

Yup thats all ppl! time to rest my head. hurting now x-x

P.S. sigh, i wonder if the sms i sent every night issit pointless? i suppose it is... sigh.. somehow i got a feeling that my eyes are gonna rain one day in the near future. every night it gets harder and harder to hold my "rain" in. i suppose i wont get to hold **** in my arms again. cuz i alrdy lost it? or somewhat. oh well.. nites all =]

FT Island I hope

2009-10-16T01:26:00.001+08:00

Suddenly im so into this song. The band not yet wait till i start to search for their songs first =x.

Also on the other hand i've been so into Big Bang that for the past few months i have been listening to JUST THEIR SONGS. yeah repeating them over and over again. Im just soooo crazy. I duno why =x

Here is the song FT Island - I hope. The lyrics are wad i liked. and its kind of true . but just enjoy it =D

2.2 timetable

2009-10-15T22:58:00.003+08:00

Timetable timetable timetable. Oh great the timetable is out. GUESS WHAT IT TOTALLY SUCKS. MESSED UP TIMETABLE!!!!

Monday 9am-7pm

Tuesday 9am-4pm

Wednesday 9am-3pm

Thursday 11am-5pm

Friday 11am-1pm

As you can see. MONDAY TOTALLY SUCKS! Theres at least 3 hours of break inbetween. Why i say at least, well probably there will be time where i'll skip lectures so YEAH! wtf. How the hell am i suppose to cope this way. Oh great ~_~...

I got Public Speaking as my CDS! Am i suppose to be happy or sad? For you guys who know me, i cant speak well. Guess this is suppose to be a torture for me then. Oh well. Thats all folks. cya!

For the past 1-2 weeks.

2009-10-15T04:44:00.003+08:00

Hello minna-san. Sorry for the long delay once again. Somehow time flies again, i guess i did mentioned about it in my previous post but whatever. Holiday is almost over, this holiday sure is a boring one. Well the main reason is.. alright lets be frank and say it out " I dont have HER by my side".

*Sigh*

Well cant help it, I'm the one who caused all these shits to happen on me. I just got to accept it and try my hardest and best to get her back. Indeed many things may not be the same as the past. Due to painful memories, scars and hurtful words said by either side. Lets say i'm trying to be stubborn here, it's possible to build up the relationship again. Although it's gonna be hell lot more harder now. Considering that she have her own life, people friends she consider as part of her life.

*Sigh*

Oh well, i wonder why am i saying all these here. I wonder why am i repeating myself over and over again throughout my WHOLE blog ever since that day. Well, had this conversation with some close friends over and over again. Even if i can wait 2 years after her A-lvls, after that so? Doesn't mean she will accept me like what i mentioned above. Another 2 years plus cause I'll be in the army? So what? After I'm out so? Lol. Some people told me are you sure you are able to wait for so long? My answer is definitely "YES". Well, they say time will prove it all. Sure I'll let time prove it. Even if in the end I'm still in the same old situation, at least i can say " Even though i Love you, because i love you. I got no complaints and will carry on waiting".

*Sigh*

Life is so UNPREDICTABLE. ----No offence mond---- Just recalling how his grandma passed away so suddenly. I wonder what if one day I'll too just gone like that. Crap.

*Sigh*

Last week, for the first time in my entire life. I cried in my sleep. Yes i cried! I can still remember what i dreamt of. I was crying so damn badly in my dream till it affected me and out of no where my in reality i began crying out. Kind of shocking, i know i'm crying yet i cant wake up. Sigh... what can i say, probably another "breakdown" but within my dreams? sheessh...

7th of Oct, went K-box with Jasmine YanLing JiaXuan Edmond. I suppose that was the first time i went K with my secondary friends. Sigh, somehow i find myself losing my voice bit by bit. You people know me that i speak softly ---i wonder why--- when it comes down to singing of cause it will be softer no? Well i'm real sorry for singing so softly thats just how i am. After K-box, we went over to serangoon chomp chomp and had our dinner.

9th of Oct, was kind of a bad day for me. Everything i did was totally wrong? cant help it. Kept making mistakes during work. My mood was totally off. I even dropped a drink that nearly spilled on the customers. Fuck it. alright nvm. After work, headed home called edmond to see if they were still mahjong-ing. Well they were, but i decided to go for a jog first before joining them. so yeah. Joined them for Mac abit of mahjong and went home at around 5.

20th/21st of Oct, had mahjong session at my house. Woke up at around 11 to "prepare" myself. Ended up, waited till around 3+ before they ( Edmond Rosanne JiaXuan Goldy Jian) came over. Oh well then started playing. Played till erm.. 8pm+ rest awhile for dinner started a new round. Then somehow out of no where someone called for another mahjong session at edmond's house. So, after my session ended at 12am plus, headed over to edmond's house for the NEXT round of mahjong. This time round Jian left Zariel and Bear joined. Oh well, played until 6am alright! headed into the room lied down on the bed, listened to Zariel bear and edmond talk. Gosh its god damn funny and somehow i got dragged into some of the topics. sigh no comments.

Headed home around 8am+. Reached home slacked on my laptop and went to bath. i Literally STONED and FORCED myself to stay awake till 1pm+ Well cause I'm going out with Jasmine JiaXuan and Weibin in the afternoon. It was SERIOUSLY FREAKING tiring to hold out. Finally, somehow i managed to last till 1+ bathed again and headed out. Met The 2 Js and headed over to bugis junction.

Well overall the trip i enjoyed myself. Its been a long time since i last went shopping with friends. For the past few months I've been shopping myself. Even if i wanted to buy some stuff, something just dint feel right. Probably I'm used to buying pairs couple double stuffs. Cant get used to buying single stuffs.

Oh well, shopped around saw quite alot of clothes and Bermudas. Hmm, just did some window shopping first. So headed over to Iluma shopping mall. Its been so long since i last shopped so there's so many many things i don't know. Oh well, sat at the Coffee bean and had a little chit chat session between the 3 of us. About 30-40mins of resting we began continuing our shopping. Well then shortly after 20 mins Weibin joined us. Slowly the 4 of us went around buying stuffs trying out stuffs. And out of nowhere someone suggested to take neoprints. Oh my Holy MaMa PaPa GOD. Alright then. Haha its been so long since i last took neoprint. I can remember the date so clearly. It was on the Valentine Day. Alright i'll stop here ><. Then headed over to NYDC for dinner.

Pretty amazing for the names. Unique should i say? Or am i just too dumb that i've been trapped inside my box for so long? The outside world had changed so much in just these 8 months. Yeah.. 8 months already.. lonely but cant help it. Alright I ordered "Tears Of Heaven" pasta which tasted almost exactly like the "Creamy Chicken" of pasta mania. Oh well, guess im lucky? Well after that shopped again and headed home already.

Overall i got 4 t-shirts, 1 bermuda and 1 slipper for myself. Total spendings near 150. Oh god how the hell i spent so much. Oh well never mind.

Well thats all folks. Im real tired now. its been almost 35 hours since i last slept, probably more i totally lost track of time here.

School starting soon, this is total crap. Timetable coming out in just 4hours and 30 minutes! oh boy. I hope my timetable will be a slack one. Please Just dont let me have any day that end at 6 please.

Alright Signing off people!

-bingღ-

-I.M.Y-

TOTALLY RANDOM

2009-10-06T04:13:00.002+08:00

Hello ppl! Well sorry that its been such a LONG time since i last blogged! Well, since i'm having holiday.. theres pretty much nothing for me to post due to

1) most of the time im at home stoning. sometimes im really just stoning down here!

2) either going to work and going back home from work.

yeah my life is pretty dull, boring, plain. well cant help it. Im the one who caused myself to be in this state. oh well.

Alright let me just post something random. TOTAL randomness!

Hmm alright, its been erm.. 4 months soon to be 5 months since i went botak. Well yeah i did get a haircut a few weeks back cuz its totally out of shape for my head xP. Right now its growing back! Please hair grow fast! well guess some of you know some of you dont... right now im trying to change hairstyle. trying something new for me at least : Bangs? issit the way you ppl spell this? probably~

so yeah im trying out =s but from wad i can imagine, its gonna be a disaster! =x

alright next! finally i got my payroll! woohoo. well althou i barely earned much well its still better then nothing! When receiving, looking at jx's sum.. i was like 0_0.. looking at mine.. the difference.. oh well no hard feelings =x. i chose not to work like her -workaholic- =x haha right now i wondering wad am i saving for.. usually in the past i always save cuz of __. But right now, whats the purpose of me saving? In the past usually i always buy double or twice the shares of something something. Now.. whenever i wanna buy things i feel kinda.. weird.. sigh nvm NEXT!

Hmm lets see... Oh thats right, i found something quite true. Something JX told me. Guess what? I'm Destine to wait. no matter wad im always waiting, and more waiting. At first when she told me this i was kind of denying it. But reflecting, recalling and remembering all the things in the past, present and near future i seems to be always waiting.

*Always waiting, now this leads me to think of the song "Always Online" by JJ. Crap why dont he compose a song "Always waiting" for me =x sorry not trying to be **** *

ok back to topic, finally since last year i watched Detective Conan movie 12. I've been anticipating for the release of movie 13 : The Raven Chaser! Yes its finally out a few days back. Right now im waiting for the sub version to be released! woohoo cant wait for it man! Actually im quite a fan of Detective Conan ever since i was young =x... wahaha.. ok NEXT!

Alright recently im really pissed off by some of them. Whether they know it themselves or not. Im not gonna say it. They should clearly know who they are. Yeah probably we're frens for so long, so you think its okay to be liddat? lol.. pathetic.. probably the one whose pathetic is me. whatever.. ok NEXT

Hmm seems like i've been putting on some EXTRA fats on my tummy. crap FUCK THIS SHIT! MAN.. if this goes on, no one will wan me. T_T.. hey im a boy in his youth peak TT its natural for me to worry about these things man! well, probably its pretty obvious theres only one who i want. sadly no others are in my eyes. Oh well.. seems like i better start going back to my routine jogging at night.

*If im free, SO FREE, i might draw out the route i always jog =x*

OK NEXT

Lets see whats there to NEXT.. oh ok.. seems like for the past 3-4 days i've been having constant stomachachesssss. It feels like my intestines are being pulled or somewhat. There are times its TOTALLLLLY UNBEARRRRRRABLEEEE. Ahhh, and the chest pain is hurting all over again! I went to see doctor with mond a few weeks back.. but the doctor said it was due to the muscle hurting. wtf? i did x-ray too. hmm the doc said my chest was alright nothing's wrong ?!?!?! sigh i cant help it to worry... oh well.. ok NEXT

Hmm i wonder.. when will i be able to complete this work im supposed to complete. Working on it alone is the only way. But it hurts too much to work on it as well. just by typing this paragraph makes me wanna cry. sigh.. but i can say i wont give up making.. it might take some time.. but when i complete it.. ill post a picture of it and show you guys.. sigh.. hope everything will be able to pass to __.. OK NEXT

Actually there's no more next cuz i cant think of any =s... hehe.. alright! Ill keep you guys updated AMAP ASAP!

Anyway guys if you noticed my bing_bing_bing.livejournal please DONT visit it ><.. Im trying to figure livejournal's function ><.. the current 2 posts inside it PLEASE IGNORE IT PLEASE! =x

Thats it peeps! Its 4.38am NOW! I guess i better get some sleep! Nites all!

Gal Good luck!

Kbox, 6f gathering, blablabla

2009-09-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

Hmm, dint managed to blog during sunday cuz gotta work >_>.. oh well.. been real tired for the past few weeks. THe same problem is back again, this time round with new @#(%*@#%. Yeah, haven been able to sleep well again >_>.. finding it hard to sleep, constant headaches from time to time daily. Oh great, whats uppp with me. ARGH.

Alright guess i'll just get started. Hmm, lets see...

8 of sep, tuesday, went kbox with poly grp. oh well, went early to check some stuff. reached orchard around like.. 1250? knowing one couple will always be early so why not head over and look for them first? =x... met them at far east, sat there chit chat awhile then ate kfc and headed over to cine's kbox. oh well, why all my groups of frens have one common $*%&@#)%, which is being late =x. Ah great. i better stop cuz i guess im just one of them >_> probably <_<... hmm sang till.. er.. 6plus? went ion walk walk. after taht headed back home lo. nothing much actually...

10 of sep, thursday, the long awaited 6f gathering. which some of us planned tgt. well its kind of a failure but overall yes i did enjoy myself. Been so long since i last saw some of them, they changed alot yes ALOT.

hmm lets see, as usual headed over to taka early at ard... eh.. 12? me and jiajun met on mrt, haiyo another one who was late =x.. hahaha alright nvm. Went to look for seoul garden at taka, sad to know that we cant book. oh well, then we decided to take our time went down to basement and bought ice cream to eat. sat at the bench outside G2000, took to eat and wait for ppl to come. Hmm first was gektiang follow by yida then jeremy. cool finally miss neo.

Someone REQUESTED to meet up at 1pm, yet guess what? THAT ONE person came at 2pm! cool eh. Oh great. Alright we headed over to seoul garden, but upon hearing missneo said she doesnt want to eat then we all decided to change location! headed over to wisma's sakae, booked and sat at starbuck to chitchat. haha.. as time passes our group got bigger and bigger, later yina janice roy and lian shun came. i wonder how many times did i repeat that 4 names. LOL.. from 2 to 3 the whole lot of us sat there, chit chatting laughing exchanging information =x.

hehe hmm then finally it was time for the buffet! oh great, second time there? this time round of primary mates. when will i be in sakae just with you? oh well..

I guess i sat at the wrong table. Well they were Roy, Jeremy, Yida and Lian Shun. Oh great, they were all pushing the sushi to me. Kept on saying "Dont Worry, we got bing cheng here he can finish them" or something liddat. I was really DOOMED. they really DID push everything to me. LOL... my DIET was delayed! thanks to them >_>.. hmm

well, after sakae, we took our time to slowly walked out of wisma and headed over the entrance of ion and took some pictures. Please refer to my facebook account and view the photos thanks!

after that, our group separated gals went to find dorin the guys went to far east and then back to hougang and played pool lol.

P.S. I wanna Apologise for the LOUSY planning of the outing guys! I'll try to make the next one better. The next one will either be Kbox or Sentosa, depending on the number of people. Further details will be up ASAP.

Hmm 11 of Sep, Friday. Headed over for Sophia's birthday chalet. Hmm many ppl we dont know oh well. nothing much for me to say. ended up we stayed over night. till first bus and headed back home lo...kind of weird for the 5 of us to be there..

Thats all ppl! For people in Poly, ENJOY UR HOLIDAY!. For people in sec/jc jyjy for studies. =D

summary! of first week of september~~~

2009-09-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

Hmm alright people! i guess i'll be doing a weekly posting on every sunday. kind of lazy to post daily etc =x.

Hmm dont worry i should be able to remember QUITE clearly wad happened so lets get started!

31st of Aug - pre-teacher's day.
Planned to meet up with roy, janice, jiajun, jeremy at 1pm outside primary school. But ended up no one reached there =x.
Haha ok, finally after so long of wanting to go back serangoon i finally got the chance to do it... although i had plan to go with her but guess something happened ended up gotta go alone. oh well.. indeed was lonely but cant help it. reached serangoon mrt around 1240. headed over to roy's block first. which was also my block =D 242! << hahah..

there really changed quite alot, but at the same time it feels like it didnt change much at all. there used to be a doudou ban at the voiddeck but its been removed. seems so empty there. and now theres a lift to every floor! SIGH!! oh well.. sad to see, the mama shop been replaced a few times.. =/.. i wonder where did the owners i remember went =/.. oh well.. went to school, with roy. but couldnt enter school till 130 or so. ended up the 2 of us went back to his house lol.

yeah and lian shun came~ then slacked awhile headed back to school. haha. slowly slacked there. walked around. till jia jun and janice came~ as well as yong rong! the few of us went to look for our AH NEO ar. gotta wait till 2 before we can have our chit chat session cuz after that its her free period x=... alright lo waited outside staff room >_>.. then finally she came! shes wearing pink mickey mouse t-shirt =DDD...hahaha

headed over to the "garden" hut and chit chat for like 30mins plus? sure was fun. looking at them chit chatting, hearing how everyone's been. =] shortly after that, went around the school for some "sight seeing" =x then janice yong rong gotta leave first.. oh well.. alright lo.. =x

then helped ah neo with her duty during recess =x.. haha finally jeremy came! his ON THE WAY from serangoon mrt to sch = 1 hour LOL.. haha

*Pictures please view from my Facebook!*

AFter that, we left and headed for PRATA =x. then slacked there chit chat awhile... discussed about the coming gathering. ended up everyone just pushed the job to me *sigh*

hmm then i believe after that we headed back home or wad ba.

1st of Sep - teahcer day
Hmm nothing much i just stayed at home practically the whole day stoning. lol

2nd of Sep - Mahjong day!
Hmm this time round is with poly group of ppl.. lets see.. supposed to meet up at 11am in CP. but ended up every is LATE! wahahaha, as usual =x. hmm dint know there was an Gundam Fiesta there. Damn cool theres a human size gundam-00. i took a picture of it but forgot to upload lol!

then headed over to the foodcourt and had our lunch. well nothing much to eat there so i had the usual prawn porridge we usually have >_>.. sure brings back memories...

alright then after that headed over to cold storage to buy drinks blabla.. and went to emily's house lo.. sure is funny eddy's first time taking lrt was with us! LOL, hes totally like some kid =x.. no nid to explain further am i right? =x..

hmm her house near springfield primary. same lrt stop as edmond sia.. come to think of it.. i got quite a few frens living here.. Theres Edmond, Adrian, Jia Xuan, Emily, Joleyn. all just one road away from each other lol. *grin*

hmm went there play no-money mahjong then slacked play heart attack -__-. then toy with playstation-1. then headed over to future park and play. gosh.. althou its kiddy park but we sure did had alot of fun playing. after that headed back to emily's house for dinner and shortly after that all went back home lol.

3rd of Sep - ????
nothing ba. jjust stayed at home and stoned again..

4th of Sep - First day of work!
yeah im working right now! Working at Tony Roma with Jia xuan! headed over there at 3pm. Had my lesson on the menu and such. then when its time for opening slowly crowds swarm in. indeed it was busy... im totally lost of wad.. i.. sort of sucked, i cant handle things =/ made alot of mistakes here and there... especially theres one manager who just picks on me. >_>.. sigh.. ended work at 10, amazed to find out that i actually got.. 5-7 BUBBLES on my foot LOL...

5th of Sep - Second day of work!
well first met with rosanne to return her harddisk then shopped alone at ION. saw a few things i wanna buy but its impossible. oh well.. then headed over to work. well its MUCH more busier then ytd. i SCREWED up much more this time round.. wrong orders, messing things up. sigh... i duno wad to say.. before work i was at the brim of crying lol.. pretty much i know why.. after work worse.. sigh.. whole way back was... trying to hold back every single drop of tears.. thank god i managed to.. lols.. plus my leg hurting like -_________-... total crap..

Alright ppl! thats pretty much wad happened this week! if theres anything else feel free to ask meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

P.S. The feeling of having someone waiting for you, be it after work, school, party or what sure is great isnt it? even it the person isnt exactly there to accompany you. The feeling sure is comfortable too isnt it.. sigh.. >_>..

After exam!

2009-08-28T11:53:00.000+08:00

well, ITS HOLIDAY PEOPLE!!! WOOHOOO WOWO ARRRR AHHHH ARGHHH WEEEE?!?!?! is this suppose to be the kind of response i have? sadly NO. I wonder why. right at the point of time when i got out of the exam hall, i duno what was this feeling that i got. Something just dont feel right, this kind of experience, this kind of feelings, this kind of emotion... i remember them so well... they're just repeating themselves over again.. let me just say its empty.. sigh.. i totally didnt know what to do.. from time to time nearly T_T again.. sigh...

For ytd's business stats paper, i totally blew it. Great i misplace variable X and Y when its so damn simple. i lost a total of 40 marks already. Great!

For Marketing paper, my ton actually helped! Im able to pass it probably even score abit =D. hehe!

For Organisational Behaviour, i cant make it. Same for stats i lost 40 marks. Great isnt it!

I guess ill have to prepare myself for 2 sup papers. Oh man.. This holiday i guess.. it will probably be the same as my previous holiday.

Hmm.. strange how dumb of me not to notice that even in this situation of mine. This hopeless pathetic one. I failed to realise that you're still close to me. Yeah despite how we are now. You are still so close to me inside my heart :). my my.. so smile smile gal!

From time to time, i may be just smiling, to hide away all my sadness, emotions, tears if it get tough. Well, theres certainly one place where i cant hide all these. Well guess you guys are smart to guess which part it is =].

Alright, i wonder what im supposed to do during this 6 weeks of holiday. Without you, im so lost. oh crap. headache, probably during one of these days ill take a trip down to clinic and see a doctor. for my never ending headache and chest pain lol.

Hmm.. Lets see, i decided to save up for something again, well doubt its for myself anyway. believe it will be rejected again. sigh. lets see... 1834 more to go! time to complete it is try by the end of this holiday.

Haha guys sorry about the randomness of this post =x.. just dint know whats going on in my mind.. so yeah.. alright going for some work interview later. sigh. Good luck to me!

-bing

Strange..

2009-08-26T01:01:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. strange, why do i find myself crying at night. why do i find myself not being able to sleep at night. why do i find myself so vulnerable now. why do i find myself missing you much more then before. why do i find myself wanting to see you so badly. why do i find myself typing so many smses without any recipient. Oh great...

Whats up with me..

Ytd had my OB test. totally flunk it. lost 40marks straight. oh great. how hopeless can i be. how pathetic can i be. right now im studying for marketing. exam in 8hours and 30mins. right now its 1am. lol.. great. headache. how to focus. sigh wadeva la

bb vid

2009-08-25T17:00:00.001+08:00

oh ah oh - big bang

Oh My baby - Big bang

i wonder wtf am i doing, i shld be studying for mkting right now.. yet im watching BB vids OMG.. im so gonna fail

exam start!

2009-08-24T07:38:00.000+08:00

Today is the start of my sem 2.1 main exam. Sigh, i totally couldnt sleep at all. I went to bed ytd at 2am, i rolled and rolled till 7am. Yes a total of 5 hours.. can you imagine? lying there staring anywhere i could. It was a real torture... yeah right now is 740am. x-x, im tired but i cant sleep. right now im going to school without any sleep. wish me luck lol... how am i gonna survive without you =/.

Monday : 230 - 430 Organisational behaviour
Wednesday : 930 - 1130 Principal of Marketing
Thursday : 230 - 430 Business Statistic

Alright time to bath and go to school. Where are you when i needed you the most. This is crap. ARGH

GOOD LUCK ALL!

Green Enterprise HortPark!

2009-08-15T02:20:00.002+08:00

Time for me to do a little updating on my boring plain life!..

alright lets see.. for the past 3 days.. yes i had been cabbing to school.. yeah i duno why im wasting my money when im still in some heavy debts ._... alright.. lets see..

let me start with Wednesday, 12 of aug, i totally overslept till 1110am till my groupmates called me to check on where the fuck i am.. i totally couldnt believe myself that i set the alarm at 910PM <<< YES PM DAMN IT.. woke up.. saw the clock.. i was like OMFG? then asked if i could pon the presentation but they said couldnt so.. i rushed.. finish everything and cab to school reach at like.. 1150am? lol.. hais.. went to school and had my presentation on OTBS woohoo FINALLY... its OVER... =D

alright the next day.. yet ANOTHER presentation.. this time its for the CDS.. formal wear. oh great..how long has it been since i last wore formal.. oh well.. my overall look was baggy but who cares i like it =D... lol.. lesson at 4 -_-... *trying to remember wad happened* hmm.. oh met tk at btl 1.. waiting for him to print and go eat lunch.. althou i ate at home alrdy.. yeah i cab to school lol.. then.. met everyone at library 8th floor.. haha.. slacking there trying to organise our slides and writing out on que card.. well..

headed for presentation..well.. as usual always late due to printing etc etc.. the presentation sucked totally =].. well.. as u guys know i cant speak well so yeah.. i totally ruined it i guess? teacher's comment for me.. "Comb your hair next time for your presentation" wow.. how cam i comb my hair teach me pls -___-.. yeah after that i got the real comment lol... dont be so laidback, it was average.. well then so be it lo.. at least i know how to improve.. and teacher sort of "forced" us to attend the Green Enterprise Compy.. with our sucky presentation LOL... yeah the compy is held the next day so yeah..

The BIG day, Friday 14 of Aug, The day for our presentation at HortPark.. Met tk library at 11. he was actually playing dota =x.. haha.. hmm after awhile started working on to improve our ppt.. hmm.. our presentation skills suck to the core.. thats the comment of the teacher.. we're in DEEP SHIT.. we're FISH.. these comments MOTIVATED us to PROVE that WE ARE capable.. ok nvm..

continue with my story.. then i go eat saw xiufeng chat with him awhile then go check our my coursegrade for marketing.. wow B.. impossible.. oh well.. headed back.. slacked in library till like 1? went to print out our proposal.. then cabbed down to HortPark.. the Whole journey cost $17?!?!?! oh great.. lol...

reached there.. looked around..the place is totally NEW to me.. never been there before.. just like the name mentioned.. its a PARK.. green trees, flowers etc etc everywhere lol.. went to our room and waited.. we're in Room 1 Team 3 to present, we're Team 7 to begin with. Hmm.. same as ytd i sucked.. i couldnt speak fluently.. fuck it.. fuck myself.. god.. hmm then waited and waited.. till the result release.. WOW one by one.. from consolation to top 3.. we're like OMG OMG.. from the 3rd place still not called till second still not called.. we're like.. WOW... we're actually the winner?!?!

We Bullshit Crapped our way through the whole event LOL.. we're actually first... WOOHOO.. well is this suppose to be the normal reaction..? well.. perhaps for others.. not me.. suddenly i duno what happened to me.. i cant be all happy all cheerful at all.. i duno.. probably because i couldnt share this "joy" with someone probably..? sigh.. all the way back school i was like.. emo-ing.. and the weather outside was so damn -___- it made me felt like crying out.. shessh..

alright fort he photo please look at my facebook!

thanks for your time =D

B-B vid

2009-08-07T20:38:00.004+08:00

Ok i want you to take some time off and watch it. you know who you are. if you dont want its fine.

Younha - secret 486 =]

Here another big bang vid- Wonderful

Another vid Big bang - Heaven

Big Bang - Remember Eng Ver

Big Bang - Make Love

Ton in sch for OTBS

2009-08-07T08:16:00.003+08:00

wow.. i cant believe it.. right now im here in school.. Hmm lets see.. its 8.15am right now..

yup i tonned in school to do project-OTBS.. today's the submission.. sheessh...alright let see..

Hmm how should i start.. Alright yesterday, 6th of Aug, went to school 3+.. yeah had my CDS tutorial from 4-6.. a total failure.. god fuck it please.. lol.. after that stayed back to discuss our project for our entre. business plan.. haha.. guess im getting an ungraded pass for this module.. well cant help it nothing i can do... oh well..

then after that went to biz park to have our dinner.. guess i eatne QUITE alot.. lol.. so damn fking full.. haha.. then started doing OTBS from 8pm plus till right now? lol.. ok la.. i dint do much i was slacking most of the time.. >_>.. was at free access lab 3 doing till 10pm where the lab closes and we were being FORCED out =x.. haha..for the past four days we were staying in school, doing all the way till 10pm and getting forced out of the lab =x...

haha..yeah we were searching for a place to settle down.. walked from first floor to the fifth floor, to fourth floor back to second floor -.-... shessh... hahaha... yeah finally found a place outside LT22.. lol.. sat down everyone started working their ass and mind off this sickening project.. yeah as i said im slacking most of the time dint i? lol..

do ar do ar.. till 1+ the 8 of us : Teck Koon/Angeline/Eddy/Koh/Con/Rosanne/JinKang and MEEEE ordered mac lol.. came at 2 plus >_>.. eat until si bei song ar.. lol.. haha.. then we continued with out work.. i was scanning around the area.. looking at some of them makes me wanna cry lol.. i duno why.. hais..

yeah.. do and do.. somehow it seems like today the time really flies.. yes i mean FLIES.. without us knowing its 10pm and withouth us knowing its 2am and again without us knowing its 5am AND without me knowing its 7am and im all alone LOL.. all left and went back home.. hahaha.... yup right now im here blogging =D...

i doubt ill go home ba.. ill stay all the way till i end school today... right now.. im probably counted as no money ba.. wonder how am i gonna survive like this..

seriously suddenly when all left my whole body starts hurting and acting up.. totally sucks.. and chest hurt even more now..fuck.. screw this.. hais..

alright thats all peeps~

vids

2009-08-06T03:06:00.002+08:00

sharing this with you, yeah.. enjoy it.. =]

Next day - Big Bang Seungri

Big Bang - GD Look only at me.

Big Bang - TaeYang Look only at me.

=]..

just a little update for the past 3 days.. been staying in school from morning all the way till 10pm >_>.. yeah.. doing OTBS project due this friday.. seriously... otbs sucks.. totally sucks i hate programming pls.. sigh.. every night i went out to jog.. yeah..well probably just a little too much on my mind.. sometimes i just needed some time alone.. althou i always am.. but somehow ya just here with me i duno why >_>.. hahah foolish me.. shessh..

yup thats all.. =]

sad.

2009-08-03T00:13:00.005+08:00

hmm.. lets see.. just let this post be something totally random.. : )

wonder... since when.. have i been dragging my feet.. my whole body feels so heavy.. sigh.. its somewhat getting harder.. do i have the determination? will i have the confidence to do it? will i be able to follow what my heart? *shakehead* yeah just like wad jx told me.. "What else can you do other than being lanlan".. yeah wad can i do other than being lanlan and watch her from far. hahaha.. pathetic right.. like i said in my msn nick.. when night falls, everything.. every emotions just return back to square one.. haha... whats up with me.. shessh..

well thats all ppl =].. wonder what time will i sleep when its 12.17am now knowing i gotta wake up at 615am later.. hahaha...

damn this headache.. damn this pain im experiencing everyday in my chest....

:)) x3..

found the english version of last farewell~

nice nice sing along session~

Baby Im sorry

just wanna share this vid yeah.. hope you will view it :)

note to myself.

2009-08-01T03:53:00.002+08:00

Probably a Special post from Myself to Myself:

Bing Cheng, you got to STOP crying. No matter how tough it is, no matter how much you have bottled up all these times. You cannot cry. You have to stay strong. Its hard you know it yourself. You cannot allow yourself to cry anymore. You, yourself know this. There will be no one to lend you a shoulder to cry on, like how you experienced it just now. No one will be there for you when you need that someone to be there or any others. You know that you have to endure it no matter how tough the situation is. You may be there for others when they need someone to talk to or etc, but when it comes down to you, you got NO ONE, i repeat NO ONE to rely on. You got to stay strong! You have to pull it off somehow, you got to try your best not to breakdown like you did just now. You got to try or do your best to win her love back. Yes, it may be impossible looking at how the situation is currently right now. The result in the end may not be what you want, but at least tell yourself this " I tried to protect whats important to me, although the end may be the same being alone, at least i tried my best, and i will continue to do so. No matter what it takes, no matter how long it takes, after all thats just how i am".

Alright maybe to some of you this is stupid foolish. some of you might even say why dont you just give up, you're not worthy for her. some of you might even think this is childish or whatsoever. some of you might say you deserve it, its your retribution since you were hurting her so much. Allow me to say this, please keep the comments to yourself please. Please and thanks.

=] eyes pretty sore, real tired continuous of 2-3hrs of sleep a day for 3-4 days in a row >_>...
my throat is in pain right now i duno why.. for some reason when i sing it feels like it gonna cramp, i thought i was gonna cough out or vomit blood while i was singing just now, it was real painful >_>..

Alright let me get started with the post..

Barely had 2 hours of sleep yesterday. woke up at 650 went to bed at 430+.. yeah.. met up with sacchi perry at 745... headed over to school.. later met jx to return her something.. today is the most tiring day and the LONGEST day i ever had in school. i stayed in school for more then 12 hours straight.. was sort of doing OTBS project from 2+ all the way till 10. amazing right? yeah my chest was hurting whole day.. from time to time.. pain piercing me.. sometimes gotta take in deep deep breathes... i really wonder whats up with me.. sigh...

lol...seriously damn OTBS please.. im an IDIOT at programming.. sigh.. after that.. walked to McDonald to have a LITTLE chat with sacchi. then walked to my bus stop.. yeah almost my daily routine walking to bus stop after school.. reached home at 11 or so.. went out straight.. supposely the plan was to slack with edmond and jx.. sigh.. as expected edmond cfm wun go always no mood -__-.. yeah yeah.. then i went over to take harddisk from him.. and i went home.. reached home at like... 1220? went out straight after that to jog.. yeah.. finally i brokedown while jogging.. yeah.. totally unbearable.. its been so long.. i've been holding, surpressing myself.. but yeah.. ultimately i failed and there it goes.. i stood there.. at the same place for 1hr.. lol... ok thats all im gonna say..

this is shit man tml OTBS project again at 11 lol.. give us a break OTBS ya killing me.. although i slack the most.. SRY GROUP!...

<3 you =]

cont of the day after i got FFL

2009-07-31T01:55:00.002+08:00

alright this is a cont. of the pervious post *ignore the vid*...
so as i was saying yeah, i headed over to -times- in tamp-1. its a bookstore so yeah.. found my book and bought it. might be weird and dumb to you guys knowing wad kind of book i got. its Forgive for love? lol.. haha.. yeah FFL.. haha..so after that i went home..

hmm reached home at 10+.. then slacked awhile.. i headed out for a jog.. till 1230 or so?... needed sometime off.. need sometime off for my brain to stop thinking.. lols.. yeah.. needed sometime to release all the stress.. out of nowhere.. i notice i had stiff neck and stiff shoulders.. i cant rmb since when i started to develop them..but..yeah.. i roughly know whats the reason which caused it...

lets see.. on 29th of july, went to watch Harry Potter with the gang at amk-hub... lol.. show ar.. okok ba.. nvr read the book so i duno wads the difference.. yeah.. then reach home 11+? reached home, slacked awhile went out to jog again.. lol.. too much on my mind you see.. yeah.. thats all =x

P.S. hmm... lets see... i guess my health is really going down-hill.. i duno why.. ever since that day.. well.. maybe its time to seek help? maybe im not.. maybe im waiting for something to happen when its too late to seek help.. who knows.. haha.. ;)..

songs

2009-07-30T02:17:00.009+08:00

Two vids i wanna share with you guys.. somehow i just cant stop watching.. nice songs nice lyrics.. hope you get it..

Haru Haru by Big Bang

Last Farewell by Big Bang

a better version =D.. enjoy it peeps =D

1 Minute 1 Second by Epik High

Oh yeah i wanted to thank Rosanne Choo for helping me with the picture above ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ i dint know how to shift all the tables since they were overlapping my picture =/.. thanks to ros she shifted everything =x THANKS!

can anyone guess out the lyrics thats in the picture? lol

in school..

2009-07-28T19:57:00.002+08:00

just some random post.. right now im in school.. totally dont feel like going home.. sheessh i duno why.. just feel that suddenly my house is so empty and quiet lol.. creepy.. =].. hais.. right now its almost 8 or by the time i post this its 8.. i wonder what time should i go back.. sigh.. alright.. lets see let me post wad happened today ba..

had marketing then 3 hours of break. spent 1 hr eating 1 and a half hr slping.. only had 2 hours of sleep ytd.. freaking tired.. my eyes damn dry.. right now duno why feel like crying LOL.. weird.. >_>.. sheessh.. im hungry.. yet i dun wanna waste money... lol... saving up again..yup thats right.. restricting myself..

haha something so funny eh.. my mum ytd asked me how in the world did i managed to wear shorts thats size 32 when i always wear 34 lol... i wonder about it too.. did i really managed to jian fei which i promised to do it? lol... but sure is weird.. but oh well.. seems like im somehow growing fatter each day... crap isnt it..

right now im in the library.. its freaking cold.. real cold.. even with my jacket on >_>...

so yeah.. if you tell me feeling cold is equals to being lonely.. yeah i know... duno since when i afraid of cold.. sigh.. oh well...

lets see.. its almost the end of july.. main exam coming up in just one month's time.. 2 projects finished left 3 i believe.. sigh... right now im feeling damn weak.. ooooh boy kind of dizzy as well.. hahaha...

guess its about time i head over to tampines 1 and slack awhile ba.. right now im feeling as though im controlling myself.. like my spirit is above my body >_>.. hoho... i think its almost time...

well thats all ppl =]...

favour smile?

2009-07-28T02:12:00.002+08:00

Hmm alright just some random post again.. this picture.. probably i like the best among all that were taken.. i duno why..probably cause of the smile i had? promised to show dint i :).

but yeah.. i wonder if ill be able to show this smile like how i did.. it could have been better...but yeah.. =]

Good Luck

2009-07-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

Just wanted to share something with you guys before i sleep
: Good Luck :

First Rule Of Good Luck :
Luck doesnt last long, because it does not depend on you.
Good Luck is created by each of us: that's why it lasts forever.

Second Rule Of Good Luck:
Many are those who want Good Luck, but few are those willing to pursue it.

Third Rule of Good Luck:
If you have no Good Luck now, it might be because you're under the usual conditions.
To have Good Luck, you must create new conditions.

Fourth Rule of Good Luck:
Finding new conditions for Good Luck does not mean looking for our own benefits only.
Creating conditions, helping others, makes Good Luck more likely to appear.

Fifth Rule of Good Luck:
If you postpone the creation of new conditions, Good Luck never arrives.
Creating new conditions is sometimes hardwork, but... do it today!

Sixth Rule of Good Luck:
Sometimes, even under the seemingly right conditions, Good Luck doesnt arrive.
Look for the seemingly unnecesary but indispensable conditions in the small details.

Seventh Rule of Good Luck:
To those who only believe in chance, creating conditions seems absurd.
Those who create conditions are not worried about chance.

Eighth Rule of Good Luck:
Nobody can sell you Good Luck.
Good Luck cannot be sold.
Do not trust those who sell Luck.

Ninth Rule of Good Luck:
After creating all the conditions, be patient, don't quit.
For Good Luck to arrive, have faith.

Tenth Rule Of Good Luck:
Creating Good Luck consists in preparing conditions for opportunity.
But opportunity has nothing to do with luck or chance, it is always there.

Moral:
Creating Good Luck consists only in...creating the conditions.

The New Origin of Gook Luck:
Since creating Good Luck involves creating conditions...
Good Luck depends only on you.
Starting tomorrow, you can also create Good Luck.

The Good Luck Story:
...never comes to you by chance.

yeah..thats all there is to Good Luck.. yeh im applying as much as i can.. although many times i felt discouraged.. i felt like giving up..
but somehow.. inside me theres someone telling me dont give up, have faith.. even if its gonna take another 2 years or even 4 years.. lol.. im gonna be patient.. =]..

P.S. i wonder why, tears just automatically flows out when i was staring at the tag.. sigh.. :)

random~

2009-07-27T00:04:00.002+08:00

i wonder how long has it been..
its not like im used to it or not..
i duno whats up with me..
I am worried, I feel anxiety..
because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you..
If you're happy with how you are right now..
thats probably where you should belong..
you deserve so much more then me..
but no matter..
how hard..
how tiring..
how painful..
this journey may be for me..
even if im getting ignored..
even if im crying alone..
even when i cry out to you..
even when times i feel like dying..
i'll keep going..
for so much effort we been putting in..
for so much we gone through..
for so much we argued..
for so much so much so much..
I'll try to reach you somehow...
Giving up doesnt mean giving up..
Giving up means giving each other another chance.

if you are wondering wads up with the empty space.. thats JUST for show.. *believe me?* =] Before you do anything rash.. think again before you are gonna do something to the empy space..

please dont think that im good. in fact im worse than wad you can think of me thanks =]..

after all.. happy times are meant to share.. while the opposite is meant to be coped alone.. i dun wan to affect you but.. i duno how to say all these out so ill just post them out... =]

forthe past 2-3weeks

2009-07-26T18:26:00.000+08:00

Hmm alright.. yeah after my birthay for the next few weeks i really felt like breaking down or somewhat.. i really.. duno whats up with me.. i lack of confidence, self-esteem, insensitiveness, security, trust in others. im trying to work on it.. i know its not easy.. i know it might not even work out.. but im trying.. im really tired, im really drained out of my life.. but im going on cause i believe this is all worth it..

P.S. wonder issit weird for me to say this but please dont think im good please. whatever happened is cause of my immaturity and stupidness. ok.. Just like my horoscope, cancer, i got a HARD shell surrounding me.. lol but on the inside im all fragile and weak.. just like RL- im "strong" and wall is surrounding me but once you managed to get inside you will know how weak i am. but sadly if you managed to :).. yeah so.. let me start.. i hope you guys dont get wad i mean cause i oso duno what im typing >_>..

Day 23 of july - oh well.. 23.. such nice number.. i wonder.. how is she.. hais.. probably to her this is just a normal meaningless day liao.. sigh.. oh well..

Day 21 of july - had our OB presentation.. hahaha.. to me kind of failure.. shesssh.. im photocopy machine and lab assistance.. lol.. screwed everything up LOL.. Sorry guys!!!! =/

Day 18 of july - lol went out shopping wtih weishen =D.. haha.. sure is weird.. haha but ok la.. met him at bugis.. then went street shop shop.. got myself 3 bemudas.. 1 belt.. then headed over to sim lim to buy his gaming keyboard G15? lol.. rich fellow.. then headed over to somerset to buy my four leave clover charm =].. yeah.. quite ex but its worth it =].. then wee headed over to cine to shop awhile, then to heeren to shop, then walked all the way to far east and buy my shoe. lol.. haha.. then had dinner at Hans... my first time dining there..lol.. then we're off going home lol~... thanks alot weishen =]

ah.. thats all i can rmb.. sorry guys.. =x hehe

that sums it all wad i have been up to for the past few weeks~~

my bdae

2009-07-26T16:31:00.000+08:00

well, yo people. its been quite some time since i last blogged. Well... not that i dont wanna post, or not that i dont have the time for it... probably be because theres too much on my mind that i dont wanna post. i wonder what will happen to me if i finish this whole post. yeah this whole post will be on my birthday chalet.. where there were many times i nearly brokedown.. crap right..? 18 birthday.. liddat.. where it only happen once and thats it..

Alright continuation from the preivous post. Where i stated i was waiting for my mum to come and drive me there~

Hmm, well its kind of irritating you see... she came back at 230+ -_-.. then started preparing stuff again >_>.. god.. waited till 330 or so before we went.. loaded everything onto the car gosh sure was packed.. haha.. went over to fetch my cousins and headed over to chalet.. reached there like 430 or so.. sigh.. then waited for the key while everyone helped to unload the stuff.. oh yeah finally we're in =D.. straight went up to the room and on the aircon lol.. was freaking warm.. alala.. then started you know doing all the normal thing people should do... then went over to rent the bbq pit with my little cousin lol.. alright finally everything settled! sat there.. watching the tv while waiting for people to come over... hmm.. well should i say im tired at the point of time or not? im not sure..

finally ard 520+ first person came~ sacchi! haha he came straight from school how nice =]..then went outside and chat, haha.. sure is sad, the things he asked.. i duno what to say or how to say.. you guys should know what i mean <_<... alright.. waited till 6 or so before we started working on the bbq pit lol =x.. somehow im just fooling around playing with whatever i held.. then next one came rosanne! haha, wanted to gratz me for turning 18 but TOO BAD my hand was dirty =x... kakaka.. of cause she helped out with the bbq pit =x.. 3 of us messing around =x.. after 30mins still nothing IIRC... hehe then third one came!!! weibin!!.. haha, lets see.. while the 3 of us are working on the pit he's up stairs doing RJ =x.. alright.. kaka.. finally after DUNNO how long we got the fire up and burning..

The sky was like ahem...dark? =x.. yeah we started bbq-ing.. while sacchi and weibin were playing with prawns.. seeing who can peel the slowest -_-.. obviously is weibin lol.. hmm finally they stopped! bbq-ing etc etc.. my mum left to pass the car to my uncle and to bring some stuff from home.. then.. not sure.. around 8+, finally their "surprise" is in the motion =x.. hahaha... i was supposed to be blind-folded.. really that sucks.. really couldnt see at all.. they brought me to the park or whatever you call it... left me standing there LOL.. at first i duno why >_>.. alright nvm.. then slowly one by one they went off to help those who are preparing the surprise =x.. yeah even my cousins went too

sigh.. left me alone there.. and i started walking around.. amazing how i nearly knocked into some trees.. sad.. i dun know whats going in my mind at that point.. probably just thinking hmm sad that you're not there to guide me or wad? lol~ hmm then i anyhow wander around the area.. by following the edge of the path.. to make sure that i dun knock or fall.. sure took them long enough.. seriously i was getting dizzy already.. probably im really tired? lets see.. yeah finally they led me to where the surprise was.. at first i thought they were gonna throw stuff at me.. kind of scare you know.. somemore being blind-folded.. hais..

alright finally im released!! opened my eyes and saw wads infront of me.. haha.. sure is nice..beautiful thanks people! of cause something else came across my mind but nvm =].. sang song.. and then made me blow out ALL the candles -_- from some distance.. it was seriously DAMN tiring.. it took me quite some time to finish all.. why? there's a last man standing candle no matter how hard i try it just wont ~____~.. hais.. finally i did it.. out of breathe, sweating, even more dizzy LOL.. oh forgot to introduce those who were there! they were Edmond, Jasmine, Jia Xuan. haha Thanks thanks and many more thanks =x.. sorry for those who got their hand burned or wad :).. hehe took some group photos and headed back to the chalet.. lol.. finally... lucky the fire was still burning.. alright everyone started chit chatting and bbq-ing.. lol.. helping people in whatever i can.. wonder why is birthday boy doing all these? cause i just wanna do it? hehe.. yeah.. then slowly.. finally found a breaktime to sit inside with them and chat abit..

Im telling you guys this okay~
well yeah.. they told me they dint managed to get a present for me cause they dint know what to get.. lol.. then they took out a present out of no where while saying duno what to get for me.. i was ?_?.. they wanted to know what kind of reaction i would have on my face when i received the gift.. looking at the plastic bag, saw young generation -___-.. i wonder what kind of childish gift they got for me.. i seriously duno what issit until i turn over to the other side.. and saw the name.. should i say i already guessed what the present was? no need opening i already knew what it was.. :) thanks.. yeah and so they told me to go up to have some time alone.. alright fine fine looking at their faces.. i went up.. cant expect me to breakdown in front of you guys right?

well on my way up.. i saw some stuff lol.. that made me feeling worse.. sigh.. alright... went up read through it.. looked at the gift.. tried not to take too much time.. well... dont wanna make them worry.. yeah.. went down smiling with the usual smile i have and started chatting or bbqing cant remember.. then yeah yanling and yongquan came! soon after is dickson! haha.. everyone sure is having fun after all hardly we have such gathering.. so i was planning to use my chalet as a chance for all to get together.. hehe.. yeah..

slacked around, tried to hold everything in me as much as possible.. moving up and down.. the more i walk the worse i get.. i mean.. dizzy lol.. yeah tired.. then.. took pictures here and there with each others.. laughing as much as i could.. =]... someone tried to sleep i die die just wont let him do so LOL.. =].. hmm.. yeah.. weishen came too! haha.. forgot when he came in so sorry!

time sure flies.. some gotta go home.. it was quite late at that time already.. jasmine went home~ dickson went to look for his gf~? the rest all stayed behind =x.. then adrian came! haha.. one joker arrived =x.. haha.. looking at how he disturb everyone =x sure bring back memories hehe.. yeah.. sat there looking at one other fooling around xD.. i guess at that point of time im downstairs bbqing.. no im EATING! hahah... then went up awhile lol.. then duno what time it was already.. my parents went back.. left the few of us there haha..

carried the tables which were outside in.. locked the door.. some stuff happened..whatever dont wanna talk about it.. then.. send jx to take taxi and walked back to the chalet.. where everyone bathed and such.. and we started playing with poker.. stupid idiotic game.. damn you yong quan.. seriously DAMN YOU.. i dun wanna talk about it! >:(.. haha.. a game where i tio to do everything twice for such a LONG time lol...then finally we finished that game... hais.. yeah my birthday ended and she never came lol~... wonder what shes doing how she was.. is she enjoying blablabla whatever you can think of

Day 2 of chalet lol
yeah then slowly one by one everyone started to drop.. same goes for me.. in the morning watched one by one woke up and the noise level started to increase lol.. they asked if anyone wana go eat breakfast.. at first i dun wanna go i wanna sleep.. seriously damn tired.. yet another 2hrs plus of sleeep i believe to last me throughout the day.. alright nvm.. in the end i went.. lol.. left edmond wb and rosanne there.. ahaha.. lets see.. bought breakfast back where everyone sat tgt and ate lol..afte that not long my parents came.. the few of us.. infact all la.. were slacking all the way in the room lol then i remembered i need to renew the bbq pit so i went over.. then i guess i went to bath again.. cause my poly frens coming..

yeah they did at 3+ lol.. teckkoon and angeline first came lol~.. how nice only the 3 of us were wearing our BIT shirt TT.. nvm we started playing poker ignoring the rest who were above lol..sian la i always lose =x.. being with that 2 couple almost all the time i really feel like breakingdown lol.. alright.. then ah jian came! lol..emo kia sit outside dun wanna go in -_-.. finally duno what made him change his mind to go up lol.. and then weijie came!!! lol.. yeah and continued with our poker.. haha.. finally also around 6+ we played with the bbq pit again! this time round it was much more tiring..

yeah we really played lol.. ashes EVERYWHERE.. hands damn tired..kept fanning the fire one by one.. serious this is a good training for your hand lol.. and YAH finally got the fire up and burning lol.. our hardwork finally paid off.. PHEW... yeah we started bbqing while the rest continued to stay in the room and slack.. yeah im serving them like woohoo.. like a maid LOL.. haha but ok la i enjoy.. but somehow each time i went up.. my body gets heavier.. i feel as though my soul is leaving my body or wad.. lol.. then koh con and jinkang came.. haha.. another 3 =D.. and they bought cakes.. hahah.. 3 in total LOL.. when i see the fridge.. i was er...nvm..

then started to mix around them haha.. then weibin and adrian came out to talk.. yeah i joined out of no where.. lol.. adrian told me something.. but yeah.. i duno how to reply or answer.. about her.. not coming blabla.. i duno.. i just dont wanna breakdown okie~.. then.. answer back nodnod.. and went back to bbq.. haha.. yeah.. then continued with my serving moving up and down.. then rosanne came! yes another rosanne please.. then led her up to put her bag.. haha.. then went down everyone started chit chatting.. haha.. sad la some couldnt come.. but its okay.. i received your wishes so Thanks people... then it was about time for my second round of celebration.. it was kind of embarasssing.. every where around me is singing while we were preparing.. lol.. and i got 3 cakes infront of me... i was kind of down.. i duno why.. probably cause.. both shes not there lol.. oh well.. cant help it.. gotta hold it no matter wad.. hehe~

finally, done with all preparation.. then everyone gathered.. i still gotta remind those who were up there twice -_-.. i was already pissed off somewhat lol.. then took pictures one by one group by group.. and they sang song again.. hahaha...i made the same wish for both.. =x... it somewhat is coming true lol.. well.. glad it is.. =].. well then blow out all 3 candles at one go again -.-...

yeah cut cake kind of busy you see.. its kind of sad.. to see no one coming up to help me with it you know.. only weibin.. sigh.. i got no comments.. its obvious my attitude towards sec/poly is totally different lol.. ok finally messing around im done with giving the cakes lol.. 3 cakes were JUST NICE for everyone present lol.. hehe.. ^^v

then some asked for second serving xD.. i didnt care how big the second serving was and just gave them =D.. poor poly frens lol.. then right after that i went to sec side.. and here wads the game started...

looking at edmond face i know.. i told him wan play right just play la.. and immediately a cake was smashed on my face LOL... one by one.. haha.. that stupid adrian really went all out lol.. - Please watch the video i uploaded on facebook for a better understanding -
some cake actually got into my nose TT.. hard time cleaning.. everyone laughing lol... then after that poly side leaving.. oh well.. ok ba.. thanks guy =]...

next after cleaning and clearing up the area... im being carried to the next scene... god damit.. why so many people around.. shessh.. ok for more details - Please watch the video i uploaded on facebook for a better understanding -
haha i was thrown into the pool despite the No Entry Sign lol..

alright then im up for the third task which i TOTALLY dun wanna say about it.. =x.. i also dun wanna upload that #%&#)%&# video..

hehe.. then went back i straight away bath lol... then went up and join them.. they said they wanted to go out and walk.. so yeah ok lo.. then... waited.. and waited.. till like... 1230? finally we all started walking out.. lol.. from downtown walked to paris park? cant remember which one.. went over to play at the spider web area.. hais.. it was quite a quiet walk.. my mind.. was all about her lol..

alright then finally we headed back..the door was locked sad.. called my mum to open it.. i went to bath again.. sticky you see.. lol.. then watch edmond play dota.. while the rest were all dying liao.. haha.. and i sneak up to sleep LOL.. hahaha basically thats all.. then goldy and jian left at 6+.. oh well..

Day 3 of chalet lol
everyone cmi.. mum nagging to wake everyone up cause its time to book out.. haha.. sorry guys =x.. hehe well yeah basically thats all guys..

this is wad roughly from what i can recall guys.. sorry for posting after 2-3 weeks..
thanks alot guys.. for everything.. although i was gonna breakdown at certain time.. =].. but overall i did enjoy despite some unpleasant stuff happened.. Thanks guys. =]

P.S. i can tell you when the clock strike 12 you were always on my mind. looking out at every corner visible to me. wondering if i can catch a glimpse of you. yeah.. ended up. no matter what i wont give up. no matter what i'll keep trying. no matter what i'll keep waiting. even if you ignore my sms. even if you reject me countless time. yeah im sad. I dint get to see that smile even for the last time lol. why whenever i think of this i just wanna cry.. shessh.. can see that you're happy right now.. probably thats where you belong ba. haha.. probably you found someone new i duno.. i wanna be honest and say it out lol.. I LOVE YOU =D, Im WAITING =D, sure is painful but im willing to go through all these. I duno what keeping me going but it could only probably be that thing =]..

alright ill start posting on some random stuff that happened for the past few weeks.. so yeah.. gimme some time..

and if you are wondering why you cant enter my blog.. cuz i change the URL lol~ i added one more "e" behind my life(e) see? xD hehe

randomness

2009-07-03T14:15:00.002+08:00

sigh, today is my bdae. yet i duno why im feeling this way.. i feel like crying.. i duno why.. this totally suck.. wads up... sigh... i wonder how will everything turn out later.. good? bad? soso?... sigh...

just let me roughly summarize wad happened the past 2 or 3 days ba..

Day 1 of july, went out to watch Transformer with Jx Mond Rosanne and Wb. lol. met up with mond on bus and headed over to amk hub. hais... the show was at 630pm. watched till 915pm or so? the movie was alright la.. i think there will be a part 3? since that badass is still not dead yet.. haha...after that... everyone went home lol...

Day 2 of july Thursday, hmm yesterday ar... practically stayed at home whole day till 12am where people started sending me happy birthday etc etc. slacked till 130am plus plus.. wanted to go and sleep de.. then edmond-chan called me to ask me out to chit chat.. ok lo.. i couldnt stay being at home alone. sigh.. met him at around 230.. went over to a playground at rivervale plaza and sat there.. chit-chat all the way till like 330 plus? many things were said, and finally said out.. sigh.. this group of frens.. hais.. no comments... =x... haha dint know edmond got that side of him hahaha... no regrets right? =]..then edmond buey dong need go toliet we left there.. went over to his block voiddeck and continued. that was around like 4.10am? lol.. chat and chat.. and he needed to go to toliet again -_-... fine went over to his house.. stayed there chit chat and listened to him sing song there.. lol.. hmm... then... until around 530am.. we started to move again.. haha going home lo.. by the time i reached home it was like 555am? bath and such was alrdy 615am le... went to bed.. fell asleep at 630am?

Day 3 of july friday, woke up at 8.25am.. lol..pathetic 2 hours of sleep.. hahaha... im damn tired right now.. real freaking tired... hais... went to school, felt like crying on the bus omg. lol.. i duno why.. hais..well nothing much happened in the earlier part of the day.. right now im still waiting for my mum to return to drive me to chalet lol..

this is gonna be one of a hell journey for me. =x gonna go chalet with such headache and chest pain... will i survive..? lol

long long post

2009-07-01T15:24:00.002+08:00

This post might be random, i may be not making sense or whatsoever so thats your problem if you get lost somewhere in this post hehehe!

Hello everyone!! Been quite some time since i last blog =x. Sorry about that. Lazy =D. Heehee, alright since now i got some free kill to kill before going out to watch movie, let me try to blog AS MUCH AS i can =]. So at least you know whats happening to me... alright=].

Sigh, my health seems to be in a pretty bad shape. My chest been hurting ever since the start of my second week of holiday till now. And im having constant headaches every day. Why? chest pain couldnt be lack of sleep but probably for headache yes. sigh i really dont know whats happening with me. Gosh.. yeah seems like my eyebag is out. yesterday i stared into the mirror looking at my eyebag LOL.. aww i dun look nice with eyebag =/... that SUCKK

Alright lets start with Yesterday~ 30 of june. Hmm if i dint remember wrongly, barely had 4 hours of sleep for the day.. sigh.. yeah sleepy in the later part of the day. Had marketing first then follow by apel and OB. Sigh, during Apel i asked teacher why am i chosen for the "Mini Open House" business. she die die dun wan reply me. When i told her about there's gonna be a skit. she said good what -___-. she said shes confident in me and what who knows maybe i got some HIDDEN POTIENTAL in acting or what LOL. Then say what cause i've been through one year of BIT i should understand quite alot on the modules of my course, but actually NOT. when i heard that i was totally -____- Yes although i've been through 1 year but so? that doesnt mean im good ma =/... just like one of the pictures she showed us during the lesson.
"Married for so long i should know my husband well. No you dont" this lo hais..

alright nvm then headed and slacked till our OB start.. i was practically sleeping the whole lesson. no choice real tired.. couldnt take it. eyes hurting and damn dry.. sigh.. yeah got back my result for OB mid sem test. WOW cant believe i actually scored 31/40 WOW... amazing for someone like me.. well probably just luck.. oh well...

Day 29 of june, monday~~~ went for Bus stats lecture after that went to eat with the usual bunch of ppl. man i was DAMN DAMN irritated by angeline xP. KEPT asking me wanna go see North-Korean Guy anot. Wa piang ask and ask and ask. Poor teckkoon. Your GF see you until sian liao. want go see other guys liao =x. HOHO... you better take care wor =x. hehehehe..then headed over for business stats tutorial.. yeah got back my result as well. WOW 35/40. another shocking news LOL. slacker like me who dun do tutorial still can pass. probably just luck again. yeah it shld be. guess im running out of luck.. hais..

Day 26 of june, friday~~~ nothing much happened on that day ba.. i forgot which day i got back my OTBS result. but i FAILED FAILED so ************* LOL.. 11.5/50 OMFG... hais... oh well.. nothing to say... programming? i suck in it.. sigh.. forget it dontwanna talk about it!!!!!!!!!!

Day 25 of june, thursday~~~ hmm only had one lesson on EVERY thursday.. stupid CDS 4-6pm.. glad to know that.. for the following two weeks there wont be any lesson WOOHOOOO. why? teacher went for ironmen =D... GOOD LUCK teacher!!! =x

Day 24 of june, wednesday~~~ hmm one lesson as well. 11-1pm lol~ nothing much happened so whatever~~~~~~~

Day 23 of june, tuesday~~~ sigh 23 eh.. oh well... nothing i can do. alright got back my marketing result.. wow amazing i just pass! woohoo... so happy! hehehe... 25/50. hohohoho... xD then nothing much happened that day. just had 3 hours of break gosh.. super boring... xD

Day 22 of june, monday~~~ nothing much as well.. same as 29 of june. lol had our presentation for our project. who was randomly picked out by calling out number =x.. haha heng i nvr tio. looking at everyone's expression.. its god freakingfunny =x...

Alright thats all for what happened from the start of school till now.

Next up probably the holiday?

Day 19 of june, friday~~~ Hmm lets see, went over to marina square for sakae! First time there, my first time was given to teckkoon for his MINI birthday celebration party. hahaha... i was kind of FULL =/. couldnt eat much. yet that couple wanna compete see who can eat the most. wa piang.. of cause i lost. LOL.. im was like wayyy behind them? =x... monster sia... those 2 >_>.. hahaha.. sad the surprise was a failure cause joleyn's voice too loud LOL... alright after that bye bye to them, went home resst awhile and headed over to edmond-chan house for our long awaited mahjong session? aww that totally sucked. i lost $27 LOL.. so sad... totally so sad... hais... oh well nothing i can do about it.. whatever~~~~...

Day 18 of june, thursday~~~ ARGH, went over to do marketing project..? OMG i cant rmb.. SHIT =x... i think so ba.. lol... should be.. then after that went over to tamp-1 to buy my new jacket lol.. yeah.. can anyone guess HOW many jackets do i have now? think carefully wor...

Day 15-17 of june, monday - wednesday~~~ was at Rosanne's chalet. First night dint stay cause was real fucked up, irritated, annoyed. alright dont wanna talk about it. rmb i slept at 5am that day LOL. suppose to meet up at 11am but ended up met up at 3pm or 4pm cant rmb LOL... cause i couldnt wake up..previous few days i barely had one hour of sleep... i duno why.. dont ask me please.. then yeah stayed for the second night.. well.. still able to have fun la.. despite what happened on the first day..

i didnt sleep at all the second night =/... we were taking photos and such. and it kinds of pissed me off. especially bear, wtf? cant u just cooperate and take pictures? with your poly fren u take until so song with us you like some POS? -_- nvm.. played mahjong and such.. then until everyone went to bed =x.. and i became the Daddy for that day!! i did some "spring" cleaning. =x packing stuff this and that... from 5+ till 7 i think.. finally im done LOL... the before and after look is soooo different hahaha.. =].. then i sat at the stairs listening to songs...until 7.41 am goldy came out..cause he said its too cold or wad..? after about an hour he went back in to sleep... yeah i continued with my music =x... all the way non stop.. till 1030 the second one to come out after er.... lets make it 3 hours ba... xDD then something happened =x. hehee.... *grin* then the third one who came out was bear! 1130 LOL... dont ask me how i remember.. thats just how i am D=...

Alright i guess this is pretty much what happened during the holiday~

Hmm lets see.. for the past few weeks, i usually will stare into the sky when im alone, thinking where are you, how are you, are you happy right now, what you doing. lol. yeah pretty much a daily routine ba.. even up till now.. hahaha.. pathetic piecce of shit ass me. =x.. oh well.. somehow even no matter how i try... My feelings with no destination.. where will they end up /=.. im scared.. hahahahahahahahahaha... im not laughing.

Oh well guess im done for today!!! Just a few more days, where ill say..... *to be continued after that day xP*

alright, time to start preparing to go over to amk hub and watch transformer.. so many movies i missed out cause that certain no one to accompany me and watch =/.. sigh.. HAHAHAHA alright thats all BYE

Smile alright :)
bing~

wb birthday to bro graduation from OCS

2009-06-14T02:48:00.003+08:00

Right now im damn pissed off. Thanks to some people -__-. Damn irritating. Damn annoying.

If this is gonna last i wonder wtf will do i in the coming week. Dare me.

Thursday, 11 of june. Happy birthday weibin! Supposed to meet up at 1230. But everyone's gonna be late so whatever. Reached amk-hub at 1pm.. ended up waited for another 30mins for them. Who you ask? rosanne and weibin. Alright alright nvm... doesnt matter too used to waiting for this group of frens. Should i start to change and make them wait for me? Planned to watch movie at first. But due to everyone being late -_-... so headed over for lunch at subway instead. Sigh...

Expensive lunch lol. Alright chit-chat then suddenly a phone call from school -___-. Asking me to take part in some "open-house" performance some sort of event. They need 2 sstudents from my course to take part in it. i dun understand why am i so suay out of the 100+ students and got chosen -__-. its some sort of role play stuff >_>.. happening on 15-17 of july. sigh.. oh well whatever i suppose. no choice for me anyway...

After lunch guess we headed straight for NYP. Hmm wondering why am i always going to NYP. oh well. guess we were by ourselves there cause edmond still having lesson no break. and there that 2 were having a nice session of photo-taking. Gosh -__-. oh well somewhat i kana too LOL... snap here and there. bought drinks from mac. sigh.. till 4 went to their lecture and slack till 6. aww i got caught for sleeping during their lecture -_-.. sheessh.. yeah CRAP... oh well... after lecture Me Bear Rosanne Edmond headed over to Amk-hub again. Sigh gotta walk there cause bear no concession..

That 2 guys were having a mini-kbox session lol singing "Tonight" cant remember. Sigh.. Finally after duno how long we reached NYNY at amk-hub. hais.. had our dinner there =D. I can say its my first time eating there ba. God.. i wonder why issit so freaking cold there. chit-chat, suan-ing of each other there laughing at each other. LOL.. practically thats wad we always do. Then had a small photo session. and after that i guess we're going back home ba. Well though its nothing much but hope wb you enjoyed it!

Friday, slept all the way till 730pm. lol im just way too tired. then slacked... infront of my comp watching anime. been watching Prince of Tennis for the holiday up till now. Currently at episode 70, 100+ more episode to go. Jiayou!!!...

Saturday, 13 of june. Hmm today went to attend my bro's Graduation at OCS. Officer cadet school. lol. amazing at the amount of people there. sigh. pretty cool. How those cadets march in and out lol. and at the end the graduation where they went crazy after throwing their caps. xD haha and everyone started moving up to take pictures etc etc. yeah i became the camera man again. shessh i can be a photograhper sia. hahaha. need someone to teach me more o-o.. lol. after that had dinner and went home.

Anyway Photos please view them at my facebook photos. ill be uploading them there. =D thats all folks. Nites!

suntanning~

2009-06-10T16:49:00.002+08:00

Hello ppl! lets see, just starting with some random stuff. Yeah its Holiday and its damn boring for me. i dont know why. It just feels like it. Probably im still not used to it =/. Alright, probably a new blogskin is coming up! Still searching for it!!! Give me some more time please <:(...

Alright let me just get over with this. Been sun-tanning for these past 3 days. Hmm, let me start with monday~

Woke up at 930, prepared etc etc, went over to meet up with eddy to take the lotion. it was like around 1030 by then. Headed over to the swimming complex at 1045, waited for some idiot for half an hour >_>... and we went in~ Yes yes yes its been so long since i last sun-tan, i guess like 2months and 2 weeks ba.. Dont ask me how i remember, this is how my brain works :).. All the way till 130pm++ before we left the area. Wow, the feeling of exposing yourself sucks =x. Headed over to Subway for our lunch. Walked around Tamp-1, and got myself a pair of Mickey Gloves =D!!! Hehe... the gloves are abit too over sized =x.. haha and went back home after that =D.

Then the next day, i slept all the way till 730pm. -__- i dont know whats wrong with me but yeah.. haha... alright then follow up the next day

Wednesday, today, =D. Went over to tamp's gym. Wow didnt know i sucked. i totally couldnt do some of the exercise >_>.. this is totally crap. i feel so sad inside. i duno why.. alright.. then after that went for swimming straight next.. couldnt tan because the sun was weak >_>.. oh well i can barely swim also.. its been YEARS since i last went swimming.. lol. all the time i was just playing in the water like a baby =D!!! hmm after that went to eat KFC.. lols yeah i know all efforts in vain.. sigh.. then im on my way back home =D... hehe

thats all ppl... =]

no blogskin

2009-06-06T19:55:00.002+08:00

sigh.. cant find any blogskin im interested right now.. probably might take some time.. hmm.. found 2 but... still considering whether to use or not >_> ahh headache... some stuff just occurred and now my head hurts >_>

P.S. forgot to say this, "I want to remember all these saddness, all these pain i gone through for the past 4 months. Indeed its torturing, its worse then whatever i've been through. In order not to repeat this darkest days. I Swear it upon my feelings for her! I'll change. I wont let it happen again. For now i will believe in myself that i can do it. =].

end of exam and her birthday.

2009-06-06T14:13:00.007+08:00

hmm, guess ill just somehow roughly summarize what happened the last 3 days..?

alright let me start with wednesday night. i totally couldnt sleep at all. was rolling on my bed throughout the whole night. total torturing. =/. all the way from 12am till 640am, time passed damn slow. sigh.

guess i got no choice but to wake up and prepare to go school alright then. had marketing paper on the next day thursday. the paper was alright. i SHOULD be able to pass. cause thats just how i am. one who always aim low. haha. then went over and ate with weijie and went back home le.
That was my one and only meal for the day =D! reached home, i was stoning staring at my laptop. visiting same websites over and over again. hoping for something to happen.

haha. all the way till like 4pm, i went over to NYP to meet the gang. attended their lecture haha. Watching that edmond and rosanne lovely dovey ><... aww so sweet. must be nice right =D... *im tired..* Hmm everyone headed over to AMK Hub, they were Edmond, Bear, Rosanne, Li Jian, Wei Bin and MEEEEEEEEE.

haha, met up at nebo. cause weibin said wanted to eat there. too bad ended up majority dont want to cause too expensive. slowly wasted our time, discussed and ended up we went to watch : Blood. which was at 755pm. decided at 710pm. we separated into 2 grps one to look for seats in food court other buy. lol yeah we found the seats. ended not eating at all. why? not enough time. everyone was real hungry hahaha.

then my dinner was the Nachos from the cathay =D.. oh well... After the movie, we went over to S-11 some wanted to eat. Then everyone started chit-chatting and joking around. scolding vulgarity in other languages they learnt... sigh.. at the point of time ever since i sat down at S-11, i got a feeling which i hate. really its kind of killing me. that hollow, emptiness feeling in my chest. oh man, felt like crying. and at that point of time, i was real tired.

sigh. finally the wanted to leave! why? cause its too late -__-. they dint know time flies. it was around 1045pm already.. yeah, finally we're on our way home, THEM but not me. i went to "accompany" rosanne "back" home. accompanied her to woodland only. =] dont worry okay?

then i went over to cck. i was kind of "worried" i wouldnt make it before 12. sigh. cause by the time i reached cck it was like 1135pm.. and i dint plan to take bus anyway. somehow i just dont feel like taking bus at all. so i went over to the toliet first and started walking towards her house... on the way there i was thinking, and thinking. somehow i guess whatever i thought of is right. nvm later. right adjusted my walking speed as i go on. headed over to 7-11 wanted to buy tissues, just in case. but in the end the never sell -__- wtf?

alright nvm. walked and walked.. somehow im feeling worse each step... i duno why. listening to my mp3 and singing out lol. time was running out you believe? some sort of rushing i did =x. haha... it been so long since i last went there. probably like 1month and er..2 weeks? xD dont ask me how i remember. thats just how i am. if i wanna remember something it will always be in my mind and heart lol. um..yeah.. if you asked me why am i going there? whats my purpose? simply because its her birthday. =].

but why dont i go earlier to give her the present? or the next day?
1) to me that wont be called birthday gift right? *although what i thought of came true =/..
2)cause i know somehow no one will be at home the next day so no point...
3)thats just how i am. =] willing to go out all hahaha~ my principal? guess so.
4)i can wait for someone as long as i can if that someone is special to me =D

yeah 1158 i finally reached her house. i was sweating like hell. yeah that emptiness was torturing me still! alright i tried to hang the present on the door, but it wont fit. *sigh* no choice but to put it on the metal gate. and sat on the stairs till 12am and sent her happy birthday =D!

yup friday, at 12am. i sent her the sms. and i sat at the 7.5 stairs =x. waited for her to open the door to take if shes at home. i was sweating all the way for quite long. see now you know why i need tissue =D... alright thats where the possibilities start. After 10 mins i started to think:
-if at home-

1) she dint have her HP with her. *which is kind of impossible knowing ppl will sure send happy birthday smses*
2)she dint bother to read my sms *which is quite possible? probably you will know later on?*
3)she was charging her phone so duno about my sms * which was impossible later~*
4)shes using comp and the HP is left in the living room.

alright nvm.. after 30mins of waiting, somehow that emptiness told me, shes not at home at all. outside clubbing with her bro. alright nvm waited again for awhile to confirm. yeah after 40mins of waiting guess im right.

-if outside-
1)she probably too busy at club till she dint bother to look at her HP *maybe? highly possible*
2)she dint bother with my sms *oh well :)*

then alright.. around 1245 i called her bro. the background was damn noisy. heard gals saying who is that? dont bother just kup or something. heard her bro said hello. wanted to reply but he straight kup. i was like -____-'''. then i cfm shes with him le. alright waited till 1255 i went up one floor.

why? cause i can peek into her house's kitchen =D. hahaha! sounds like im a stalker. oh well.. saw someone went into the kitchen. guess that could only be her mum~. haha after all the other 2 were outside. their father is working oversea. then yeah... at 1am, after 1 hour of waiting i called her home. *wondering how can i wait like this? dont ask me. all i can say as long as it concern her time sure flies =D* haha her mum picked up. the convo was like this?

M: wei?
BC: erm, aunty can come out take something?
M:take wad?
BC: erm present?
M: wad present?
BC: erm... yinyin's birthday present?
M: who are you?!?!?!
BC: oh er...Bing Cheng~
M: HUH? why are you here. What time you came???
BC: er.. *was thinking how to reply, skipped the first question xD*
BC: 12am?
M: where are you right now?
M:outside?
BC: no la i left the present outside
M: you are standing outside right now?
BC: no i left the present outside
M: then where are you right now?
BC: oh im studying *actually im still at the stairs la..*
M: huh? studying? right now? lols M: but yinyin not at home right now lei..
BC: er..yeah.. i know its okay =]
M: orh, okay then hao ba byebye..
BC: oh..byebye.

LOL weird convo...hahahaha after that i dint know what to do.. kind of dumb.. stoned for awhile so i decided to search for toliet =D. slowly walked over to sunshine place/plaza? cant remember ><. across the field. just nice after the climbed the stairs at the other side of the field, i recevied her sms. saying : My mum told me about the present. Thanks. Hmm now you know why i said she dint read my sms etc etc? lol.. sigh.. damn hurt on the inside, that she dun even give a damn to read, but what can i do? cry out?

lol hmm, yeah found the toliet, after that headed over to the fair price at the gas station and got 3 Nescafe Original at $3 =D. woo hehehe.. and i headed back to her voiddeck. cause i planned to study there for duno how long nia... tadaa tried to study, but i cant. i cant concentrate. damn... look at the paper it was too difficult i couldnt understand a single thing. and i gave up...

tadaaa my Nescafe which helped last me my time over there

since i couldnt do anything.. i slacked.. calling ppl to entertain me. then i sat there and slacked. its not working =/.. i was kind of sleepy.. oh well.. then i guess ill take a stroll back to sunshine place xD.. then started packing up my stuff... around 230am, i left the place.. well yeah.. i walked past the voiddeck..

i duno if i saw her or not, i got bad eyesight. probably not? idk.. its not mor then 2 sec that i looked at that direction.. >_>

hmm from then on i was walking all the way..back and forth xD.. hahaha... silly me... alright.. then finally decided to leave and go back home... so.. it was around 315am i left her voiddeck.. it was quiet.. and i was lonely.. well guess this phrase is so.. sigh.. so near yet so far. haha.. since i was bored.. i took some pictures xD somehow the uploading system isnt working -__-.. its kind of pissing me off... been waiting and waiting..

The road is long....
The road is still long............

The road is still LONG, after 10mins the road is STILL LONG, after 20mins finally i saw my destination : Lot 1 =D. so erm..yeah ard 340 i reached lot 1.. when i wanna hire a taxi there isnt one. when im walking theres damn alot!.. -__-..

Oh well finally got on the taxi... the uncle was entertaining me with his stories =D.. first talked about his own daughter.. sigh.. listening to someone is actually quite fun =] guess thats the best thing i can self-proclaim im good at =D!!!

then slowly ask me why you starting out till so late then go home.. i said birthday celebration lo... oh for your gf ar? yeah.. i suppose... haha ic.. well once in a year so its good to spend time with her..i was haha-ing there >_>... xD

then he went on and on about his past, how he worked fo different electronic companies.. the countries he went etcetc.. haha.. how different our generation is.. how the pricing of the stuff of his time and our time is.. wow.. lol....haha finally reached home at 4am! bath etc etc.. on my laptop till my hair dry =x.. hehe!! and im off to sleep.. well i couldnt -_- but at least barely able to sleep for an hour or two.. fuck.. nvm

woke up at 930 or so.. prepared and went to school.. reached school at 11 lol.. headed over to library.. and so started to study.. wow.. then i realised -__- i was looking at the wrong paper when i tried to study over at her voiddeck.. those were EOY papers -.-... wasted.. sigh.. haha. the paper was manageable i know i can pass but not score. i probably lost marks on theories although its open book test lol..

after that went home.. finally i can say HOLIDAY!!!!!!!! hahahaha weeeee sohappy.. im so tired.. but i want to nap.. but somehow i couldnt. so i just went out and run.. lol...yeah.. =D

P.S. At library i read a book When are you feeling Blues/Depression? lol.. hahaha.. quite a book... well.. probably wad im saying makes no sense but wadeva.. I wanna say this out on msn but i cant why? too long LOL, so im changing it fortnightly or something.. if you guys got keep track of my msn nick then good if not this is wad im saying:
"Current me is too filled with thoughts and emotions. These feelings of mine with no destination, where will they end up? Its just too much. But yeah i know one's wound wont heal fast and completely. Sigh, i dont want to stay as who i am currently anymore. Its been too long. If possible i want to let the blood be my tears the pain be my saddness. Once the blood stop flowing,once the pain stop hurting, ill be back up on my feet. But of cause i know its not gonna happen. So i want to let my sweat be my tears. Im giving myself sometime to sort all these emotions and thoughts out. Im wondering sometimes whether will she read my blog or not. I hope she did. Or at least this entry. I've been sort of relying on her for too long. Right now i want to be someone who she can rely on. I believe i can. For all her imperfectness ill cover it up for her :)"

HOHOHOHO Guys sorry. just wanna let it all out... i dun wanna bottled up all these anymore.. its way too much for me to handle all these alone. Well criticise me if you want, no Please say it out. Let me know so from there i can know where to counter my own weakness! i cant be perfect and no one is perfect. sigh...

Thats all folks~ thanks for your attention!

Bing Cheng signing off!

first 2 papers

2009-06-02T11:49:00.002+08:00

monday~
crap..totally crap.. i screwed up my first 2 papers.. first paper OB.. i BARELY had 1 hour of sleep.. i slept at 230am.. yeah i "slept".. i was rolling on my bed.. from 230am to 330am.. then tried to sleep again.. rolled for another 45mins from 330am to 415am.. and i rolled again till 6am.. before i finally entered my half-sleeping half-awake mode... sigh.. rolled until 8 plus... finally woke up.. went to school..reached school at 955am.. wow.. i was god freaking tired...

went to library and studied all the way there till my test start.. of cause.. i did tried to sleep abit.. sigh.. it was unbearable.. oh well...

tuesday *today*
haha..first time reached school so early.. at 810am.. >_>.. seems like im getting abit out of timing..need to start adjusting my timing.. sigh.. the test was CMI.. damn.. PHP sucks.. ahhhhhh thats all ppl! hhehe...

P.S. sigh.. it seems like im always having a "fever", not my head but my body.. i duno why.. crap... rawr when i dun take care of myself i dun feel a thing.. when im starting to take care and all these shit comes..gosh.. hais...
it seems like after all these years.. i start to like waiting.. i duno.. probably due to her? wait and wait.. although time can be real slow when waiting.. at least.. im doing something i like.. although the outcome is sometimes quite clear... haha not just her as well as for frens.. lol xD

why i suddenly feel like crying again... hais.. canon...canon... greatest master piece =D

the last day before mid-sem

2009-05-31T21:15:00.003+08:00

oh great! its just a few hours away from tml.. the mid-sem! and im still not studying!!! holy crap!!! i just cant get myself down to study.. hmm, its not because im confident.. its not because its just 15%.. somewhr inside my mind and heart just wont peace out.. hais... spent the whole afternoon doing nothing watching one episode of drama then i went to nap till 8pm..

hais.. been sleeping right alot.. i wonder why.. in the past i wont take afternoon nap AT ALL unless really buey tahan... hais... lets see my mid-sem schedule:

Monday : OB- 3pm-4pm
Tuesday : OTBS- 9am-10am
Thursday : Marketing- 9am-10am
Friday : Business Stats- 3pm-4pm

oh wow... hahaha...damn weird timing.. oh well.. guess i better start cracking! even if its needed to burn midnight oil.. hais.. im scared.. not failing.. but having eye bags T_T... my eye bags, panda eyes coming out soon T_T.. noooooo that sucksssss pleaseeeeeee dun appear T_T...

ahh, sometimes i sort of "lost" control of my legs when im walking.. gosh.. hahaha.. i wonder whats wrong... hehehe.. alright i promised i'll look after myself so ill do it..cause

If you cant love youself, you're not fit to love someone else right? :)

P.S. oh great news! my hair is starting to grow longer!! woohoo... Great isnt it? hope before that day ill have a longer hair baaaaaa!!!
oh yeah forgot to mention its been so long since i last bought something for myself.. haha yeah.. been so long.. i couldnt rmb wad was the last thing i got for myself.. hahaha...probasbly this will be another "last" thing ill get for myself till months later ba~

hais, burned a big hole in my pocket!

2009-05-31T04:24:00.003+08:00

sigh.. why am i always blogging at such hours..? its 4.25am right now... it seems like its raining outside right now..feels kind of cold.. but its not raining.. sigh.. wonder.. whats wrong with me.. i've been feeling cold and hot way too easily for the past few weeks.. oh great.. something's definitely wrong with me! used to be able to stand cold in the past right now its IMPOSSIBLE.. oh well craps...

let me get things done asap and sleep ba.. guess it shld be yesterday, saturday~ went to CP meet up with jx for awhile..took something from her.. then asked her to accompany me to shop awhile.. oh great.. seems like im addicted to shopping..haahaha... shop awhile and i burned a BIG BIG HOLE in my pocket!!! i bought a * and a water dispenser.. oh great it cost $10!!!

tadaaa cool eh!!!

hahahah cute right!! if u are wondering wads those words its "8 Glasses of water, Your Daily minimum requirement!" wahahaha... since it was on sale at $10 only i bought it out of fun!!! xDDD yeah and it burned a freaking big hole in my pocket =/...

sigh.. another crap stuff...after today tml is the start of my mid-sem.. hais.. after tat..holiday... damn.. what can i say.. am i gonna go thru the same things as my last holiday? i duno.. everything will reveal itself when that day arrive..

oh and it seems like i'll be changing the skin soon ba.. yeah! after that day arrive ill decide~ =D.. hahaha alright its 4.35am right now.. time to slp! Oyasumi~

~watashiwa anatawo aishiteru 私を与えてくださいチャンス~

the last weekend b4 mid-sem

2009-05-29T22:45:00.002+08:00

hais.. gosh.. dint know..time passes so fast.. its alrdy the first half of the sem.. next week having mid-sem..crap totally CRAP!... just got to know something.. which sucks even more.. yet another screwed up crap...

oh well nvm.. barely had enough sleep yesterday... slept at 430 am+, but was rolling here and there on my bed till 630am.. cool huh.. was awake this whole 2 hours.. haha.. finally was able to sleep till 12pm.. gosh.. im real tired..

when to school, usual stuff BOE then OTBS.. after that went over to vivo with sacchi.. yeah shopped all the way from 615pm till 845pm.. haha.. i dint know shopping can be this fun.. xD.. haha guess im getting addicted to stuff pretty easily now.. will smoking be next? i wonder... he was looking for jackets oh great.. haha rich fellow.. dont wanna say much =x..

reach home around 950pm.. straight went out and ran.. haha.. its soooo different, the view of the day time and night time.. haha.. ran till 1035pm.. hmm improvement or not? i dun think so.. hais..

thats all folks! nites!!!

hmm.. tio tempted

2009-05-28T01:23:00.003+08:00

Sigh.. mid-sem test next week.. i still havent study.. for goodness sake.. what am i suppose to do.. too much on my mind.. missing her so damn much.. hais.. crap.. this is totally crap... whats happening to me... probably i fallen too deep.. head hurting real badly this few days.. totally lack of sleep these few days.. probably cause i cant sleep.. the dreams i had seems as though im actually experiencing it real-time.. totally unbearable.. arghhh...

sigh..today ar..wednesday.. dismiss at 1pm.. sigh.. stayed back to do OB quiz..5%.. crap 14/20 with help of friends.. but anyway doesnt matter much to me.. =] thanks ppl who helped me.. after that had lunch with usual people... SERIOUSLY i need to watch what i eat from now.. this whole week up till now been eating chicken chop for goodness sake.. damn.. lol.. gained too much fats le.. my tummy.. no one likes =/.. big fatty roundy tummy.. hais.. kanna abandoned by her liao LOL =D... im exercising to reduce the tummy > : )..

dint felt like running today.. duno why.. probably cause im too tired or what.. oh well.. when i got off the bus.. saw the weather.. omg.. its so damn nice.. sunny! tempting me SO DAMN much to go.. ended up i did >_>.. ran and ran.. on the way back.. i finally decided to check out the SengKang rivervale Park.. hmm nothing there de.. but its quite a pretty nice place.. quiet.. nice scenery sigh.. sat there stoned.. thinking.. and more thinking.. i guess i sat there till like 6pm.. roughly 30mins ba.. hais.. after that jog back home.. suddenly my whole chest started to hurt real badly when im reaching.. felt as though my lungs went numb or what.. it freaking damn painful.. hais.. reach home cont-ed to do some exercise.. etcetc then took a nap..

im pushing my body as hard as i can... to the point i want to even collpase on the ground.. i duno why.. and it seems like i had been forgetting alot alot of things.. crap.. sorry..

P.S.hais.. wo hai xiang ta.. wo zhen de heng xiang ta.. qing gao shu ta.. wo ai ta.. wo xiang ta.. =]

alright people.. nites..

random

2009-05-26T00:49:00.002+08:00

hello there.. been reading my blog? if you did, know how i feel? if you dont, or you feel that my post doesnt make any sense.. thats good.. im trying not to make any sense here you see.. sometimes i even wonder what the hell am i blogging about.. some how i just feel like saying certain things..

oh well.. pretty boring life i have here after i.. *sigh*.. yeah.. everything just dont seems right to me.. the presence of that someone seems to be here but actually not.. sigh... been dreaming.. yeah for the past few months.. without fail, about her.. hais.. those dreams are killing me.. bit by bit.. haha.. yeah bit by bit.. they just somehow seems to be so real.. im actually feeling emotions.. tears and all.. those hollowness.. those pain.. omg.. i wonder.. what will happen..

sigh.. i've been sleeping alot lately.. i duno why.. somehow something's wrong with me.. been taking naps every now and then.. whats happening to me..? oh god.. seriously.. next week im gonna have mid-sem test.. i duno how to concentrate like this.. crap this is crap totally crap... tomorrow having marketing mock test.. i dunno how am i suppose to pass.. haha.. pathetic me...

indeed im the biggest idiot.. letting go, saying stuff i shldnt, regretting and so? hais...

BC hang in there >< you too!

bro birthday!

2009-05-24T20:38:00.002+08:00

Hi ppl! 23rd of may, 23rd.. sigh my bro birthday~ why 23rd.. such number of all. alright.. slept at 5am the previous day and was forced to wake up at at 2pm >_>... hais.. asked to bath etc etc then help to carry things down to the car.

gosh there's sure alot of things man.. the car was so packed! lols..then finally set off at ard 3 ba.. went to pick up my cousins and headed over to East Coast Park's GoldKist... alamak..even my bro frens reached earlier then us lols. alright reached there, started moving things out to the chalet.. hais.. damn heavy damn tiring.. finally finished moving things, i noticed his frens were blowing balloons.. lol.. then i realised.. that place is filled with ppl having birthday celebration.. lols left and right of our units were all having the same occasion.. hais..

finally the keys came! went in headed up to the second floor for the aircon! xDDD... relax in there rest awhile enjoyed the aircon then went down and have a look.. ala..goo timing i have there, my mum was cooking and im hungry =D hehehe... started eating wadeva there is there.. then i realised.. its not a BBQ session but buffet session..alammak.... all along i tot was BBQ sia.. oh well.. slacked and sat at the stairs..watching them prepare.. hanging up the balloons and such.. hais.. damn freaking boring and alone bo bian..

around 6+ my cousins all went for swimming.. and i was alone! hais.. walked around back and forth..nothing to do.. hais.. sat at one place watching frens and relatives coming in.. slowly slowly without me knowing the place was filled with ppl liao.. inside and outside..lols.. hais.. alright then the cake came~ was kept inside the room cuz the fridge was not LONG enough lol... went down had my dinner and such..

this part whr it sucks most... i was asked damn alot of times, why your gf nvr come. damn irritating, damn frustrating, i duno how to freaking answer them.. seems like they all like my gf? worse still i got asked continuously 3 times in a row.. all by my relative one after another.. god Fuck it.. making me cry or wad? god.. it was a real pain in the ass to spend time there... nothing for me to do.. no one for me to hang out with.. no one for me to sms with.. god.. i wonder how i managed to kill off time..

alright its starting soon, i was asked to bringdown the cake oh well.. bring lo.. and there started the photo taking session everyone group by group lols!.. hais.. lots of ppl.. aiyo.. then finally birthday song.. and cakessss too bad not my favourite LOL!.. then slowly, noticed the crowd starting to clear.. group by group going back home.. lols..then around 1230am..

i went out to macdonald.. yeah i walked there.. i was "stucked" inside the resort, cuz i duno where to go out..then i went over to the main entrance and started walking there.. hais.. its so damn dark and lonely.. i kept thinking how long will it take me to reach there..as i walk, it hurts so much.. seeing couples couples, seeing pairs and pairs.. alamak.. that totally sucks.. hais.. oh finally after around 30-40mins of walking? i reached mac! it turned out to be full! ala.. hais.. slowly Q-ed up.. got my stuff headed back..guess its much faster took me 20mins nia..lol wee..

reached le.. saw my cousins all watching tv waiting for my grand return xD.. haha was sweating real badly.. finally got myself settled down... cooled down and started eating =D!!! hoi they were watching horror show RAWR>_>... oh well... nvm... then slacked around till 2+, smsed the usual ppl to call in and conf.. waited till 230am then they called.. i smsed them since 8+ >_>.. hais.. we all talked for like 1hour 30mins.. not WE but them, i merely sat there listened all the way.. hais.. how i wish the one with me on the phone is.......

hais.. all the way listening them talking laughing there.. i can only say im sian sian sian... all the way till 4am.. hais... after they all went to sleep.. i absolutely got nothing to do.. so i started playing my psp.. all the way till 5.. and i buey tahan liao... damn sleepy.. and went up to slp.. i slept all the way till morning when we were gonna book out LOL.. which was at 2pm! hahaha.. and started moving things back onto the car and home sweet home.. hais..

thats all ppl! ill post pic if i feel like it.

Lupin III vs. Detective Conan

2009-05-23T04:52:00.002+08:00

Yo ppl! its soon 5am right now.. yeah.. im tired..but i cant sleep..why? too much on my mind.. wads on my mind? its pretty obvious isnt it? sigh... 5am 5am... sigh.. i duno wad to say.. im both physically and mentally tired.. i wonder how long can i last...

today's my bro birthday.. guess ill be hanging around at his chalet later in the day ba..sigh.. it sucks.. how i wish ya there.. aww.. hahaha... i wonder how am i suppose to kill time when im there... oh well.. ill see how things goes ba.. chalet at goldkist? lols...

oh..if ya wondering wad am i doing for the past 5 hours.. actually.. from 1230 onwards.. i was playing my psp.. and after that.. i stoned and stared at m laptop for an hour +++.. till 3 when i came across Lupin III vs. Detective Conan and watched it all the way till right now..hahah... hais.. guess im finally able to sleep right now..

Nites ppl!...

PHP last day!

2009-05-23T01:20:00.002+08:00

today is just so terrible! gosh.. worried about my ez-link card having not enough money before i left house..and yes it came true... GOD.. wth is wrong sia.. $1.15 not enough? in the past im still able to ge on the bus with this amount of money. now? cant at all wtf? so wad if theres a negative value? totally pissed me off.. thank goodness i got coins with me.. if not ill be cursing and swearing out -_-...

reached tampines got down the bus walked all the way to buy my concession and top up -_-.. starting sweating and worrying i might be late for class... hais.. thank god i wasnt.. kept smsing the Iris.. chking out the bus arrival time >_>..

finally reached school and guess wad i only got $2 for the WHOLE day to spend!! amazing right!.. i didnt eat anything in the morning and afternoon..hungry like fk >_>.. no choice im saving for something.. such crap is NOT GONNA bring me down xD... had BOE and OTBS lesson today.. hais... BOE nothing much handed in my proposal for comments.. okok la... then OTBS.. working on our PHP individual project the whole day... well i slacked most of the time.. reading manga LOL.. i just merely aim for a pass or higher abit.. im not like others who AIM for the sky.. gosh..

finally i had my first meal of the day at 6pm++.. wow.. i was real happy that i got to eat something.. whole day i was just drinking water >_>..to suppress my hunger.. guess thats just how i am.. hehe.. actually planned to go tampines to do a little shopping.. but ended up decided to stay back with frens to do php.. noonoo.. i accompanied them while i played psp and reading manga.. xD... hahaha, i dint wanna go shopping cuz im alone.. and i hate that feeling right now...

i was real lazy to go home myself today.. called my mum to come fetch me lol.. first time sia! well stayed in school till like 830.. handed in my project before i left.. sigh... after that sat thru the whle journey.. when i reached home..my head was hurting >_>..real hurting for hours.. till around like 1215 my bro came back... he was drunk -_-.. he shouted for me a few times i dint hear LOL... SORRY =x... then finally i heard DIIIIIIIII... i went out saw him sitting on the ground at the door... tot he hurt his leg or wad -_-... asked me for HOT water so i gave him REAL HOT water xD... hais.. see him drunk.. make me think.. yeah im not gonna drink ever again.. lol.. i wanna have a clear mind at all times..to prevent me from doing or saying stupid idiotic stuff...

well thats all folks! guess ill continue to stare at my laptop for awhile more ba.. i duno wad to do.. my life is just messed up by myself.. if i could time travel.. i would have stopped myself from falling for her *nodnod*.. why? ask me if u wanna know LOL =D.. Nites people!

Thanks to those who helped me with PHP! without u guys.. i might be still struggling >_>

"outing"

2009-05-19T22:30:00.004+08:00

hmm.. seems like today is quite a disaster.. sigh.. nvm lets start with school!

had marketing first.. sigh.. i seem like an idiot i duno why just think so.. after that had THREE hours of break! went to have lunch with the usual ppl.. then head up to silicon and slacked... i started my RC and went into my lalaland... slept for like an hour plus if im not wrong.. then woke up started moving around the lab looking at fren's php work.. throughout the whole time in silicon lab.. im shivering -_-..its freakking cold inside... i wonder issit me or wad.. hais..

head over for OB after that.. i was totally kind of pissed off with the teacher.. keep dragging time -_-..telling us stories.. sigh.. i better dun comment much.. then benedict came in telling us tml he will be late for lesson due to graduation ceremony.. ok so be it..as long as he dun drag our time can le..

after tat went over to tamp-1 to help jian chk stuff and my own stuff as well.. then "rushed" over to NYP to meet them.. guess i was lucky that the bus came right on time when i reached the interchange =D..hehe.. reached le.. slowly walked to the shopping arcade? nvr hear properly.. then met that 2 idiots outside with their frens.. lol.. intro le we slacked around head over to amk hub to meet the rest.. finally from around 630 or so to 730 finally everyone arrived.. and we took 30 mins to think of a place to eat.. hais.. cmi cmi.. then after that something happened.. i dun wann talk about it..

after that around 9 everyone separated ways.. i listened to some stories.. of my frens.. sigh.. come to think of it.. im actually consider real lucky and happy compared to them.. sad i dint treasure.. kept.. oh well..

ppl! QUIT RUBBING MY HEAD LAAAAA... aiyo wads so nice to rub sia > : )... wanna rub so much go cut botak la =D rub until u song. stop rubbing my head cuz ya rubbing my luck away > : (... so STOPPPPP!!!

somehow theres a fear implanted in me.. whenever i go places where i usually went with her.. im scared wad will happen if i bump into her.. wad will i think wad will i do if i see her.. i may just go into emo-state... sigh.. my heart is always pumping faster whenever im at those places.. crap.. sigh i miss her... im tired of this.. im tired of spending time alone.. AHHHHHHHHHHHH

Tadaa : just finished watching Tsubasa Chronicles: Shunraiki OVA 2 .. finally!! yes! the second episode came out after duno HOW many months of waiting.. indeed tsubasa chronicle is such a tear-jerking anime.. its one of the best anime ever.. am i weird for crying over anime? sigh.. probably somewhere inside me my wire is connected wrongly... same goes for clannad another tear-jerking anime.. check it out guys.. i dun intro sucky animes =/

BS test!

2009-05-18T20:39:00.003+08:00

well another week passed... and no progess at all.. sigh.. sometimes i wonder.. sometimes i feel like asking her..sometimes i wanna ask her how are you hows sch..etc etc.. but i just cant find the courage to do it.. sigh.. hahaa pathetic me right..? wad kind of guy i am.. lols.. sometimes i wonder did she found herself a new guy? if she did means shes real happy being with that guy ba..sigh.. why am i even saying all these on my blog.. knowing she wun even read other then u ppl =D..haha anyway..ty for the invisible support u guys are giving me.. i appreciate it =]... i would really have broken down somewhr during the holiday if it werent for u guys.. u guys know who u are =D... therefore i wun stop i wun give up.. ppl say im dumb..ppl say im stupid..ppl say why am i so stubborn.. but all i can say is.. im loyal =].. hee~

alright ppl get on the main topic! lets see.. today had Business Stats test..5% omfg i cant do at all.. i gotta peek at angeline's work to get some clue xD! SORRY AANGELINE!!! bo bian.. hahaha let see... the test was..er.. gonna be so terrible if i dint study at all...formulas and such.. oh crap..lucky i did a last min revision haha... ty ppl who helped me! u know who u are!! =D... after that..slacked and as usual went and exercise.. sigh..

everyone is bugging to see my botak head >_>.. especially angeline and rosanne.. omg la.. hais.. went over to sports hall at like 430? started my running with eddy and jin kang who ran one round at 4.35 or so? i did it i did it! i ran 6 rounds!!! hahahaha so proud of myself! first 5 rounds without stopping at all! last round sort of sprint with all my remaining energy.. after that straight went to play badminton with those ppl.. hahaa lets see probably im trying to torture myself? my chest seems to be hurting abit while im running.. i guess its common? i duno.. well thank god nothing happened to me?

had dinner at biz park..i didnt really ate anything the whole day.. only drank milo and had one egg sandwich for the whole day.. haha was super hungry xD.. bo bian im trying to save up.. for something... hehe.. and went back home!.. well shld i say im lucky or wad.. bus came straight when i reached the bus stop.. and YEAH finally got to sit on bus27!! so happy..sat down and started staring at my psp >_>.. hahaha... thats all folks cya tml!

botak!!

2009-05-16T14:04:00.004+08:00

weee... haha im botak now guys!! its so cooling right now!!

met up with weishen at 11 in CP.. haha then the 2 of us slacked around CP for about an hour or so..went to buy beanie at 14.90! gosh.. not bad la.. then finally went into EC house and cut botak!!! wow si bei cool sia.. watching my hair kanna ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ off my head xDDD...hahaha now my head is like a brush xD..been such a long time such i last felt this way =D... sad thing my ears are abit way too out T_T..makes me look so ugly hahahaha...

the last photo of my having my hair :

hahaha xDDD well.. took me quite alot of courage to go botak sia.. well hope for a new start with her if possible /=... wweeeeee

=/...

2009-05-15T18:45:00.003+08:00

sigh.. today the weather suits me real well.. felt like crying ever since i started otbs.. man.. its seriously too unbearable for me at that point of time.. sigh.. i duno wad to say.. tried my hardest not to cry but its REAL hard.. the feeling of emptiness inside me is way beyond my control.. sigh.. on the way back home as well... stood on the bus.. thinking and thinking... kept looking up the sky trying to keep the tears from flowing.. damn.. this is a lesson for me, this is the punishment im gettting, this is my retribution. sigh.. i wun give up.. i wun back out.. i wun let it extinguish.. for im a loyal guy =].. its real hard to keep all my tears when im ard my frens.. its even harder to keep a smile up infront of them.. im trying my best here.. hoping that one day.. ill be back by her side.. i wont keep feelings shut inside me.. i will say it OUT LOUD for my feelings to reach out to her... for this is for her.. im gonna become stronger..

now now shocked to hear YL and YQ stead sia.. dint know until ytd adrian told me lol! shocked to hear adrian got himself a gf as well! wow.. hahaha...

if im not wrong..base on my calculation.. i should be able to save up and get wad i wan in 2 weeks time..

i really need a shoulder to cry on... but at least... somehow i know.. ya doing fine =] ya happy thats good..=]..

first POM project.

2009-05-14T19:33:00.002+08:00

Wow, today supposed to start school at 4pm >_>.. cause of project i gotta reach school by 10 =D.. alright then..reached school around 940 to know rosanne overslept *nodnod*..alright its okay.. i dun really mind at least shes making an effort to come despite she not having lesson on thursday. then.. slowly walked towards Biz park, along the way, its filled with posters on election for BSC and TPSU? gosh.. saw some familiar faces on the posters.. lol i took some pictures will upload after this post..

then waited at Biz park for angeline to come >_>.. went over to silicon to start working.. oh man.. somehow we managed to finish quite early.. and i began playing Restaurant City lol.. afk put there and i rest on table.. real tired.. then proceed to BTL lab due to lesson starting in silicon.. there again saw my ex-mates all chionging php... i tried to help but FAILED >_>.. damit.. after that slacked until 2+ went to eat KFC blablabla...came back school around 315..

saw jx.. ggoshh told me dint see me for a long time? oh come on its just like 8 days? ever since from YL bdae.. haha.. between 330-4 im thinking of whether shld i go for my CDS which starts at 4... ended up i went >_>..lol.. i duno why.. seems like wad the teacher is teaching is wads happening to me in the past few months.. hahah... and im on my way home after that!!!

alright thats all ppl! when i feel like it ill post the picssss

PHP individual!

2009-05-13T18:34:00.003+08:00

hmm been like 3 days since i last blogged.. practically nothing much happening these few days.. life is just too strange and weird to me..lol.. oh well..guess i better slowly learn how to live through this period of time.. hoping dreaming praying all i can for ----

alright lets see.. monday as usual went to run at stadium and played badminton straight after that >_>.. gosh dint managed to complete 6 rounds.. why? TK cant make it, and i dun wanna run alone.. oh well wadeva xD..

tuesday dint went school, why? my chest is hurting and im feeling all **** up. something is really wrong with my chest.. been hurting more recently gosh...

wednesday.. today.. hmm went school as usual.. some elective subject we need to select before this friday.. guess ill decide tml ba.. had OTBS lesson.. been doing my PHP individual project..
MANY MANY MANY thanks to those who helped me with my work, without them i guess ill still be stucked there at the same spot. Thanks to : Angeline, Rosanne, Teck Koon, Wei Jie, Jin Kang. Seriously Thanks alot!!! =DDD

after that reach home around 5pm..seems like the weather to me is damn great, so i decided to go RUN x)... hahaha.. yeah seems like im improving little by little, able to run longer right now.. =D guess i better keep training.. right now im damn tired and hungry.. rawr..

random!!!

2009-05-10T03:38:00.004+08:00

10th of may!
wahahahaha!!!! check this picture out! i took it at 9.18am.. WOW right? hahahaha so damn cute =D mond with his cute little "god"-son!! hahahahaha yeah i couldnt slp cuz i cant find a GOOD spot to rest myself.. and its real cold in his room.. tried my hardest to keep myself warm.. sigh..=] the rest were slping =D.. hais.. ahahaha... im tired..but i cant slp.. my eyes are watery.. my nose is getting blocked.. hais.. nice song making me this way ha.ha.ha alright ppl!

9th of may:

Yawn! right now im damn shaggg, at edmond house watching them play mahjong, damn tired now. When will i be able to sleep? sigh.. god GOD GOD damn tired..sigh.. goldy playing my psp, edmond weibin lijian rosanne playing mahjong. left me stoning walking in and out of the room... sigh.. wan someone to sms with but no one available. used to have but not anymore LOL. RAWR... now its 3.40am.. wth am i suppose to do to kill time.. its easy if im doing it for someone but not in this situation ahhh...damn...

sigh my mum gonna know soon. aiya probably she figured it out. shes just pestering me waiting for me to say ya la break liao la. OMG.. hais.. dint know my mum like her so much. owned..hahahha can only laugh at my own stupidness! oh and i took some god damn idiotic photos. lets see let me bluetooth to my laptop first.!

tadaaaa looks weird o-o... seems like im a gay!! OH IS THAT MY FOOT? cool!!!!

tadaaaaa had a hard time trying to take this picture... aiyo... duno why.. MAN sacchi wads up sia. i HATE lectures T_T.. dun lecture me or ill cry. and i mean it if i get EMOTIONAL!

random

2009-05-07T19:32:00.002+08:00

yeh another random post, sigh. it seems like, my appetite is really MESSED up right now =/. i get full easily as well as hungry easily. Just like today's lunch, i think its a packet of fried prawn mee. i BARELY finished half of it im FULL alrdy >_>. This is totally CRAP man. wads up with me! Probably my mood is causing all this CRAP out of me? Most likely. Oh well doesnt really matter. i really need to go on a diet ppl!!! Please Please PLEASE HELP ME CONTROL WAD I EAT PLEASE I WANNA SLIM DOWN! PLEASE REMIND ME OSO!

Alright went to school for a 2 hrs lesson -_-. just did self-intro whole day.. oh well lucky me for being the last second one to intro? hahaha. after i cabbed home. wow it took me only like 15-20mins. and it cost me $11.. suppose to be cheaper but thanks to all the red lights and jams. sigh.

Right now im DAMN hungry, but i know i can barely finish my usual meal >_>.. hahaha...

JASMINE happy? im para-ing all my post from now =D!!!

random

2009-05-06T22:41:00.004+08:00

well just some stuff to update you ppl about me.

sigh..my appetite for the past few months totally AHEM liao.. i can barely finish a $2 chicken rice.. WOW right? with a 70cent milo im TOTALLY full, in the past.. this is NOTHING to me..but now..its probably just too much ba..guess my mood been affecting my appetite.. sigh..

random stuff : look at this big lollipop my bro bought back home from taiwan i guess o-o

its bigger then my fist o-o! lol xDDD yeah im bored, so im doing this randomly, hais..

YL bdae!

2009-05-06T19:06:00.003+08:00

hmm, seems like its been forever since i last blogged.. sigh, oh well.. same state. alright! my bro came back on tuesday morning. wow.. its been like more then one month i dint see him alrdy? hmm dun seems like it to me... oh well.. probably im just deep in my thoughts and world ba. failed to realize stuff.. oh well..

today had a near 4 hours of OTBS lab >_>..gosh can really die.. its kind of boring.. but oh well.. just doing programming and more programming.. hahaha.. well finally its 2.45pm and the class ended.. phew~ no nid to suffer.. alright then went out to tamp mall to meet up with edmond and bear. why? cuz its YL bdae. if not i dun even THINK they're that good and kind enough to come over to TP.. Alright chit chat listen to them crap on the way to the floral shop to buy helium balloon. at first we thought the balloon cost only like $10? so we decide to buy 2, then went in chose the balloon, and i turned around looked at the machine, OMFG it cost $25.90 each -_-, i was like -_________-!!! i wanted to cancel one but then i saw the shop keeper re-entered the price to half of it, then i was HENG ar.. =D..thank god, had enough money to buy..

well.. i can nvr depend on that two to do anything de lo >_>, sometimes i wonder, wads so difficult for them just to do something or even merge with everyone.. my goodness. ended up i took the 2 balloon walking around >_>.. straight away after that wnt to school.

From the moment i stepped OUT of the bus at our school, ppl started to look at me/ my direction >_>..MY GOD..oh MAN.. slowly as i walked up the stairs.. watching the crowd coming out of the school... i was like *Oh no wth so many ppl* each and everyone i passed, they were looking at me O_O! even saw my classmates asking me wads up with the balloons LOL, obviously HAppy birthday =D not to me... then that 2 were trying to get away from me -_- wadeva lo. as i proceed to business school, its worse.. its god damn crowded.. oh well, same thing that happened walked passed everyone with them looking at me.. wahahaha, so embarrassed! oh well, but then after awhile got used to it. wads wrong with me carrrying balloons lol. we're still young =D.. ate lunch at biz park with that two, with the balloons tied to me bag.

hehe finally finished our lunch, head over to mushroom to meet up with jasmine.. along the way even ppl on the third floor were looking down at me according to bear. >_>.. haha, i wonder will there be any other ppl who will do such thing =D. if there is GOOD. reached there, waited and waited more ppl started showing up for YL's big day. lol, it god damn freaking warm. sweating so much.. i became the camera man again =D. how much i love taking photos now. too bad im not in most of the pic after all its not my camera =D... i on with anyone who wanna take picture with me =D. hehehe...

Gosh, a birthday cake without lighted candles? how forgetful can jasmine be to forget to bring the lighter out hahaha...lucky jx smart go security guard house to ask for one hahah..joker sia the ppl inside, say wad borrow the lighter to burn down the audit? gosh >_>.. oh well...slacked and slacked finally shes here! everyone went to sing song, take pics, etcetc... sigh wonder again why wun some just cooperate to take pic. seriously wtf is wrong man? will taking photo kill you? grow up ppl. some 18 some going to be 18. grow up seriously. one thing quit making ppl pissed off. alright?

alright pics up!

there these 2 balloons i been holding all the way since after school >_>... hahahaah cute hor? x)

that 2 is seriously pissing me off -_- hais

aiyo...=D

woah cake cake cake > : )

a random shot i took, im that bored u see...

the group that chiong down from nyp lol

aiyo, jas since when u became so tannnnnnn

see the diff?

poor thing always tio snap =D

and finally a picture of me with the balloon! see a prove!!! hais, dun i look silly? hahaha with the balloons floating behind me xD

Phone and began exercising

2009-05-04T21:33:00.003+08:00

Sunday 3rd of may, time sure flies dun you think..? its alrdy may.. i wonder how long has it been since we last "talked" or have our Q&A session. Sigh nvm, dun wish to say anymore.

Alright ! sunday as usual, boring, stayed at home staring at my laptop.. totally nothing to do at all... sigh, mum sold my phone away >_>..got me a new phone o-o! C905 =D. cool.. 8.1MP, i dun need a camera le =D..hahaha... then started exploring and testing out the functions. pretty much the same as other sony phones ba.. sigh, and my day ended just liddat, staring at the laptop whole day..going to the same website listening to the same songs over and over again.. how the hell i managed to do that? i wonder...

Monday! 4th of may! sigh..third week of school? time sure flies again.. well, manged to get up in the morning, despite being unable to slp much the previous night.. oh well.. rained in the morning.. kind of affected my mood.. everyone knows why =D... had usual normal lessons etc etc.. finally after school, went to the stadium and run 6 rounds of outer-lane, took me 35mins just to complete.. o-o kind of long isnt it...hahaha.. after that straight away went to play badminton with frens.. WOW amazing at how sweaty and wet i am. i didnt stop sweating at all. after that had dinner in sch at ard 7pm then went home le!!. =D.. right now im dead beat.. stomach hurting, just recover from fever..omg sigh... lucky me =D.. right now my left hand hurts oso.. just using abit of force on my left hand my muscle hurts >_>.. probably pulled my muscle or wad ba... oh well..guess after two or three days ill be back in tiptop condition =D..

oh yeah been into this song by Wheesung : Insomnia.. i do fit into the lyrics sia.. especially a sentence like this going : the thoughts of you are more real life-like then dreams.. gosh.. haha. thats all mates... night!!

i got scolded by jasmine! asking me to paragraph all my post ill edit them soon..

How long will this go on i wonder.. i can take it, i may complain sometimes but bear with me! :)

Right now im editting this post and its 1230am right now. im damn tired damn exhausted.. im crying... im laughing at the same time.. ironic eh.. hahaa.. gotta wake up at 6+ later..how am i gonna survive the whole day like this.. sigh.. the more i type, tears are gonna start flowing again.. alright... ima finish up my milk first hahaha..tml is gonna be a long long long long day for me.. im pulling myself tgt.. i might or alrdy have lost those bits and pieces of puzzle to my life.. but i believe, i believe.. :) all i can do now is, one step at a time.. no point rushing right =].. ppl kept saying im a fool im an idiot asking me to give up blabla, erm...shhh alright =D everything is a process of learning for me. so let me be =]. weeeee... hahahaha... my head is heavy, my eyes are heavy and watery, my mind is full of her. both physically and mentally tired..gosh..

sigh im sad, dint get in archery.. most probably cuz i sucked hard, im real sad, i tot i could at least get a cca, well probably cuz im in year2 thats why? they dun trust me? like i said cuz i sucked? cuz im a left handed? that they dun like left handed ppl in cuz we're troublesome? oh well... another dagger stabbed into my heart lol!

Archery Trial!

2009-05-02T14:50:00.003+08:00

ZzZzZ... im real tired right now.. woke up at 1040am to prepare for archery trial. woah.. etc etc finally on my way there.. sigh..i took a big DETOUR again to reach the field..well cant blame me cause i dint explore the school fully xD..
well theres quite a number of ppl who showed up. i didnt know THAT many ppl signed up for archery.. well kind of sad to know that my timeslot was at 1230pm..hais... oh well..had some briefing about the cca, that u gotta buy your own arrows cause its personal stuff.. and bow costing up to 900 plus plus for second hand -_-..gosh.. upon hearing this, one HERO left straight lol.. oh well cant blame him.. sigh.. shortly after the briefing, we went for a short warm up, ran abt 200m then warm up blablabla and finally began shooting. sigh..theres no left-hand bow there T_T..i gotta use my right hand..rawr that suck totally ok.. oh well first 3 shots was TOTALLY CMI, i shot the border LOL =D the black area and one out of the target O_O!!! second 3 shots alright im better this time =D, nearer to the bull eyes =D...and i hurt myself! man it was real painful when the bow-string hit u, the mark is damn obvious one patch there.. oh gosh.. but its worth it.. such pain, wow enjoyable! well, and after that we're dismissed! >_>..fast right? only 30mins for the whole stuff.. well results of in-take to be known on monday/tuesday.. hope i get in ba..

thats all guys, im damn hungry now. x-x nothing to eat sigh..
glad to see that you're doing fine continue that smile dun let it die : )

OTBS first lesson!

2009-04-29T22:44:00.002+08:00

Alright finally had our first OTBS lesson! oh well... was damn pissed off when the teacher said gonna have a 4 hours of lesson today -_-..kao..thank god it was shifted to next wed..oh well.. after that went over to nyp, wow! tried taking bus this time round and it was around 40mins!!! well shld be the same as me taking the MRT..cuz i didnt have to wait for the bus xD...oh well..head hurting the whole journey there.. x-x.. finally! reached nyp, slowly slacked there met up with mond and bear had japanese lunch o-o! i ordered Tori Kon-- something something.. well known as deep fried chicken o-o!..hahaha..after that met up with jian and rosanne..and went to the stadium to run..hais.. damn sad and pissed off...those two TALK ONLY hor..say so much ended up nothing done -_-..oh well, so i went only managed to run 5 rounds of outer lane and rested twice... NOOO im too weak..need to train more...anyone up with me running on monday ? PLEASE SOMEONE T_T... then went over to causeway point..met up with bin, bought movie tix for Taken, hmm quite nice.. =D, then slowly after movie rushed for the toliet! hahaha usual stuff =D... then went home le lo =D

Oh no..tml school start at 4...end at 6...hais...abit regret sia..shld have changed CDS to make my thurs FREE...nvm..=D.. time for dinner! im god damn tired now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lala.

2009-04-28T23:14:00.003+08:00

Oh boy oh boy..i tot of going to school abit later then usual. ended up i reached sch the same time as always -_-... oh well..as usual all alone in da morning, sat outside the class and waited for teacher to come... sigh..well actually nothing much to talk about.. since like all the POM lesson for today everyone was laughing at me o-o? hahaha go ask those having POM lesson today =]. OB was damn boring..the tutor kept telling stories for each question..yet..he still managed to dismiss us early..OMG.. good good... then dismiss from school le! slowly took my time walked to 27 busstop.. sigh.. reached home and slept all the way till 10...head/chest hurting while slping omg.. sigh.. im slping quite early these few days..i duno..maybe trying not to think so much..giving myself a break or wad ba.. haha nites all time to slp!

P.S. HEY YOU read my blog dun wanna tag ar! u know who u are, and i know who u are! =D

o-o..

2009-04-27T22:13:00.003+08:00

Officially start of the school term.. sigh.. same as usual.. nothing much just had business Stat Tut and Lect. sigh..after school waited for the rest and went off to play b-ball.. slacked in school till 530.. dint feel like reaching home at all.. why? obviously.. hais.. then began my walk to tampines mall...finally i got the courage to go there!!! why? not to see galgal of cuz LOL.. went to to shop shop..yeah alone hais.. went tampines 1..wow.. quite nice.. basically same shop as other shopping malls..just more discount due to opening? sigh..so many things i need opinion on yet shes not there LOL.. oh well... suddenly got all emotional while shopping halfway..probably due to all double double im seeing sigh... weee thats all =D nites! im real tired.. chest is hurting with each breathe i take in... my days are numbered! come attend my funeral okay!!!

P.S. oh yeah ppl! i may A.O. sometimes on msn. so if you need anything just talk to me. sometimes i may forget to change back to online! if i dun reply sms me!!!!!!!!!!!!

movie17again

2009-04-26T18:54:00.003+08:00

Im totally not feeling well right now..sigh..my head have been hurting ever since school started..i duno wads the cause..sometimes its quite unbearable..wad is actually happening to me..? right now I'm done hungry..real hungry..I'm back to square one..? been thinking all about her again..gosh.. right now my whole body is acting up..especially my chest..the pain is back again..hais...i miss her.. oh well..

Saturday, 25Th of april, went out with the usual peeps to watch 17again..well met up with Edmond at 1..went over to NYP with him cause he got some group discussion crap..then met up with bear Rosanne later on..waited until around 5 and we set off without Edmond why? cause hes taking too much time to finish -_-..hmm the movie was overall quite nice and interesting..somehow brings emotion to one person as well..especially at the court scene..lol..oh well.. after that..slacked around... searched for place to eat..finally settled down blablabla..hmm Im done =D! nothing much to say..right now too much stuffs on my mind..gotta take quite some time to sort things out..sigh..

P.S. I wonder, who will be there to catch/support me when i fall. I wonder, who will be there to cheer me up when I'm down/upset. I wonder, who will be there to lend me a shoulder to lean on when I'm tired or exhausted. I wonder, who will give me the support i need in different situation.
I wonder, who will be there to wipe off the tears that i shed. I wonder, who will be there to take care of me when im sick. Sigh.. =]... slowly ba.. trying to retrieve back all the lost pieces of my life ever since that day.. i got a feeling it will take longer then i anticipated...

sigh..i wonder..how long has it been since i last watched tv..ever since after that day..i dint sit infront of the tv for more then 10mins..sigh.. yeah..hahaha..=]..its been like...2months 9days? counting down more.. lol right now im watching Star award.. well probably the only show ill be watching.. haha.. loneliness..just sucks..ppl!

Hmm CDS!

2009-04-23T23:43:00.003+08:00

Lets see..i haven eaten anything ever since i woke up at 11am.. 23rd or april.. sigh.. wad a day.. such a meaningful day to me..yet..oh well..yeah woke up..on my comp to start organising my stuff..been messing with my comp lately.. sigh.. lets see..i was trying to convert movie from avi to mp4 format..god damn..its taking me forever..sigh..no choice but to leave it on and go for sch.. oh well.. left home around 255.. reached sch ard 330.. sigh..finally its 4 and our cds started!..oh well..quite interesting u know..haha..i got a new nickname MR-UNpopular.. lol..oh well..wadeva..so be it.. then after lesson ended at 610...slacked around in sch till 625..and im PREPARED to go home..
like how u asked? i took a BIG BIG BIG detour home..i travelled from east to west..got to the place i need..walked for 1hour10mins non-stop climbed stairs back down again..then walked back to the mrt station..sigh..im sick..my whole body feeling weird... sigh.. nearly fell down a few times while walking..energy seems to be drained away from my legs...sigh..and i finally reached home at 10! and i still haven eaten anything right now..sigh... ^_^...im tired..
sigh... nites all...

lets see..just a nice picture i took today... =] its special..

such things always comes in pair.. do u know..? lol

Random

2009-04-23T22:50:00.005+08:00

Hmm lets see... random post first.. been into 2 songs lately..hmm how about 3..?

王力宏-心跳

想跟我吵架我没那么无聊
不懂得道歉我没那么聪明
好想要回到我们的原点
你又在哭泣我给不了安慰
我又在摇头有那么点后悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
但身不由己出现在胸口
两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起那悬在记忆中的美好

周杰伦-说好的幸福呢

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢

Vanessa Hudgens - Vulnerable

When I think about you and me
I get a little weak in the knees
I feel the flutter of a butterfly in
Sometimes I can hardly breathe
So baby... (Baby)
Hold me now (Hold me, Hold me now)
I can't tell if I am lost or found
('Cause I'm living in a dream and I don't want to wake up, wake up)
And I don't know how to let you in (Don't know, Don't know)
Or let you go, I'm so vulnerable
Hold me now (Hold me)
Please baby don't let me down ('Cause I'm living in a dream and I don't want to wake up)
I know for sure that you're the cure (Coming down with a case of 'I love you more', I don't want to be vulnerable)
When it comes to this book of us
I think it's time now to turn the page
And I don't want to say I love you first
But my heart it can't hardly wait
So baby... (Baby)
Hold me now (Hold me, Hold me now)
I can't tell if I am lost or found ('Cause I'm living in a dream and I don't want to wake up, wake up)
And I don't know how to let you in (Don't know, Don't know)
Or let you go, I'm so vulnerable
Hold me now (Hold me)
Please baby don't let me down ('Cause I'm living in a dream and I don't want to wake up)
I know for sure that you're the cure (Coming down with a case of 'I love you more', I don't want to be vulnerable)
I don't want to see you hurt
Don't you worry baby girl
Take my hand, understand I'm afraid
To tell you the very worst that you want to hear me say (Wake up)
When you say it here tonight
Will you mean it for life
Will you tell me everything that your heart is really feeling for me?
So I, (So I) Won't be... (Vulnerable) ('Cause I'm living in a dream and I don't want to wake up, wake up)
And I don't know how to let you in (Don't know, Don't know)
Or let you go, I'm so vulnerable
Hold me now (Hold me)
Please baby don't let me go ('Cause I'm living in a dream and I don't want to wake up)
I know for sure that you're the cure (Coming down with a case of 'I love you more', I don't want to be vulnerable)

My my..if theres a chance ill sing it out for her =]..thats is if... alright ill post something later =]!

CCA day~

2009-04-22T23:58:00.003+08:00

Oh..what do i have for you guys today..i wonder..right now.. im totally not feeling..my head is hurting..my body is feeling weird..my heavy head is causing me lots of problem right now...sigh..my timetable kind of messed up.. lets see...

Monday: Start 9am End 4pm
Tuesday: Stat 9am End 4/6pm
Wednesday: Start 11 End 1pm *-_-*
Thursday: Start 4pm End 6pm *-______-*
Friday: Start 10 End 5pm

Wow.. seems like i have alot of free time right now..no wait..i got lots of free time ever since that day..sigh..suddenly..i feel so empty..many big pieces of puzzle seems to have gone missing in my life..suddenly feel so lost...duno wad to do.. hais.. blank mind..wad shld i post..wad am i even doing here in the first place...

Oh ok..i.rmb..Lets see..22ofapril, CCA day/oritentation? cant rmb..too tired..LOS-ing..
LOS = lack of sleep peeps..
alright..went over to school just to accompany frens to join cca..well guessed i signed up for archery and tpsu..which i highly doubt ill get in any one of it..haha..well..suddenly gotten so much free time..im lost..haha..slacked around..until 12 or so..i went over to NYP to look for onee-chan and bear..sigh..another 20mins bus trip, another 1hour mrt trip.. man..i couldnt lean my head against anything..why..? cause i just cant..lol.. sigh..stoning the whole way there..gosh..>_>.. finally i reached there..searched for block-J lecture rooms..couldnt find it anywhere until i explored the back of block-J..lol..sat outside waited for that 2 to finish lecture..aiyo..finally i get the chance to see onee-chan's class..aww..onee-chan is so hooked up to a gal..name *****...hahaha..onee-chan becoming a les? NOOOO..alright..chat with bear bear while waiting for that guy to finish his stuff with his group..then walked around nyp for nothing..met up with jian..went over to nyp cca CRAWL..nicename.. lol crowded sia.. so many ppl.. aww..i actually planned to join a CCA there de lo...that 2 *** dun wanna join -_- nb waste my time go over there...then around 4+ went outside mond wanna learn how to play wei-qi..so we ended up staying at the booth watching the guy teach us...and wow they signed up..LOL..unique cca none of us had join before...haha..and we began playing the board games there..eng/chin chess la and wei-qi..hahah..poor bear bear..play eng chess for solong..due to his opponent..think so long -_-...wa kao..me and mond played 3 games he still haven finish -_-...gosh..haha..finally after that we're on our way home! alright pictures! if not some ppl will complain my post being too long -__-

First day of Year2...

2009-04-21T23:02:00.002+08:00

First day of school 20th of april!
Gosh..woke up at 6am to send one sms.. even though i slept at 1am on the same day..where i only slept for like 2-3hours the day before.. i couldnt force myself back to bed.. and i was stoning there.. kept checking my clock..in the dark.. practically nothing was on my mind.. so just basically started doing stunts on my bed xD until my alarm went off at 6.40..wow..as usual la..bath..packed my file..waited till around 7.25 before i left my house to meet up with sacchi and went to sch tgt xD..hahaha... man i sure miss my old Blue Clip file..hope its doing fine over there..Please dont collect dust =/... sigh..first day of school...nothing much happened i guess... entrance filled with first years..lol..sure do remind me of the first day i went TP..blur like sotong..hahaha lucky i had frens there with me so i just have to blindly follow them =D!!! haha i reached pretty early like at around 820? slacked and sat at the table outside the LT.. nothing much to do..just listened to my MP3 and smsed some peeps.. at first i tot i was at the wrong place..cuz i dont see any familiar faces..well guess i better be self-confident then..finally after 20mins or so i saw some familiar faces!... guess my mind was at peace then..and exactly at 8.55..roy called me.. well a first year student, fren of mine in primary sch, lived in the same block =D..hehe..told me hes lost LOL..oh well guess i gotta rush over there and bring him to his tut-room then.. haha.well afterthat..finally slowly strolled back to the LT..yes saw my classmates! lol so happy..dun have to sit there alone..i HATE LONELINESS! i HATE BEING ALONE right now! haha chatted with them..finally our lecture started.. nothing much for the first lecture..ended at around 1030..then we proceed to the next lecture straight after this.. lol another boring lecture..Business Statistic.. lol like math..oh well..hope im not all rusty for math.. i was slping during the lecture..was way too tired..cant help it.. finally its over!!! lecture ended and i was on my way to NYP to meet up with edmond and bear for lunch..wow the whole journey took me like...1hour 20mins.. man..damn tiring..the only thing to keep me entertained was my MP3..sigh..bored..couldnt lean my head on anything..or rather i swore not to lean against anything ever since that day. xD..ok finally reached YCK mrt station..went over to NYP had mac there..wow..why TP dun have mac =/...SUCKSSSS...then started roaming around NYP with edmond and bear.. sure is dumb of us.. edmond was trying to get CPF form..duno whr to take..been jumping from offices to offices..lol..finally we ended up at the correct place.. the Admission Office? god..we queued up for nothing..the CPF form was on the shelf.. LOL..how malu of us.. oh well..after that that 2 went to buy their stuff..queued up again..sigh..im like a lost kid there..xDDD...oh well finally we're done! and we're on our way to amk hub.. sigh..nostalgic place.. i guess ill be going to amk quite often this sem.. =].. hope nothing happens to me..
sigh..reached there gotta wait for rosanne and weibin to come..so we slacked at mac.. hahaha...finally rosanne came!..and we had one mini lesson on : 7 steps to wash your hand from bear. oh man..it was damn funny..haha..went to play pool after that..waited and waited for wb to arrive.. just nice when we're about to take the lift down, he came up xD..nice nice..and we had dinner at the food court of AMKhub.. sigh..same thing happened during the stay at edmond house..im forbidden to say.. haha..nothing much afterward..im dead tired... separated from them and took 86 back home with edmond..hais..alright... reached home..slacked bath stoned..watch movie online..then started blogging..the 2 posts below this xD..haha.. guess thats all for today!...nites all..

im worried..im real worried about you..ala.. scared..im scared..im real scared of myself..ala..hmm wad am i talking about..? no clue.. time for dinner! and bath!

Mahjong-Ton-Chat-Slacking

2009-04-21T01:22:00.003+08:00

Saturday, 18th of April, was slacking whole morning and afternoon at home.. well...i was sleeping in the morning hehehe!!! if im not wrong.. actually planned to go out and shop with edmond..but that **** dun wan to..why? cause theres only me and him.. why? cause he's scared ill rape him! LOL...wtf sia.. wanted to buy wallet..which i shld have gotten..ahem ahem... alright! lets see.. my mood was spoilt by this ********..as usual..on my computer..and started loading my 5hours worth of anime.. which i missed out during the trip to korea..my my..sure is tiring.. if it was me in the past i could sit for days..guess im growing..guess im getting old..haha..alright..then around evening at 6pm i started preparing to go over to edmond's house! waited and waited till around 7pm before my mum finished cooking dinner...sigh...finished my dinner, packed my laptop into my bag..till 730pm or so before i left my house....haha.. you might be wondering why im bringing my laptop..well i wanted to complete my post on Korea..yeah so.. i just brought it along with me.. well.. phone call came ringing..asking me to buy drinks before going his house..alright lo..always the case..then received another phone call from edmond..asked where i am..lols.. told him still walking towards cheers.. then he explained that he's going down to fetch edwin from school... lols...alright..reached cheers his brother haven reach..went in got two different green tea..for $4! aiyo...expensive.. then went back to the school..aiyo...waited and waited...sweated and sweated..finally his bro appeared!!! woo...and there the bullying started..its funny how edmond bully his brother..man.. this just shows how much edmond love his brother edwin..lol...keep threatening him.. sigh.. =]... alright slowly slowly we finally reached edmond's house! woohoo.. i can finally put my bag down and relax..it was heavy =/... lets see..after that..went into his room, rosanne was watching Bai Wan Da Ge Xing..lol..funny show..damn damn funny...watched about 15mins of the show and lijian arrived! our leader! =D...so handsome and smart.. such a humour person..so humble..such joker..hard to find.. hmm jian pulling stunts..keep going to the living room while we're in the room... and edmond's grandmama had to keep coming in and scold edmond for leaving jian outside la etc etc...lol... =D.. then after 30mins of the show..i took my lappy out..tried to connect to the internet but failed over and over again... pity connection he have there...lols...nvm..then goldy arrived!..and we finally started THEIR mahjong game.. while i shifted my laptop out to the living room and started blogging! FINALLY YES i connected to the Internet..i think i kept blogging from 10pm on..till 3-4am.. well rested for only a few mins in between before i continue everytime..lets see...was damn pissed off when im blogging why? i gotta keep doing backspacing in between all my pictures..i spent most of the time backspacing all the time.. im DAMN DAMN DAMN pissed off...well now u guys know why i took such a long time to complete my post right? hahahaha...Sorry guys! im dumb..i duno how to use the functions well =/.. hmm so..around 1am jx came over..haha..me and edmond went over to pick her up...well cause edmond was worried for jx..while im worried for edmond..so we went =D... *crap im feeling dizzy right now..everything seems weird to me...* hahaha...chatted and joked on the way there...then came back...everyone was slacking..using my laptop viewing a Britain got Talent show on youtube..lol..alright..then i guess they slacked until 130am or so before continuing their game.. while i continued to post...hahaha..some funny stuff happened along the way and im not allowed to say it.. so sad ppl.. ask edmond for more details..in case he duno wad issit about just hint him with *observing blablabla* =D...alright.. around 230am-3am jx gtg..cause she got work another day -_-...always the case.. fine everyone was slacking anyway..we all went over to accompany her home other then goldy..who stayed behind to play -_-...lmao..then... on the way back..had little chats with jx here and there.. well..secrets secrets.. =]..ok back to edmond house after sending =D ting ting ting..everyone stopped playing and counted their money...
aww..something happened xD...i duno the details seems like someone did some AHEM AHEM to someone's winning LOL.. hahaha..ask weibin for more details!.. after that half of them gathered in the room to enjoy the AIRCON OMG OMGOMG AIRCON!...lol...after that edmond saw goldy using my comp to play he ran into his room and joined him -.-.... kao nb i wanna blog use my lappy to play games...ccb....knn..before that when jx was still here they were playing audition *****again! LOL... then i became the messenger stood at the door passing message to the living.. hais.. then after one hour or so from living room we moved our laptop into room...bullshit..its so cramp inside..both his brother slping and we dint give a damn about it..talking loud and laughing away... -_-..lets see.. watch rosanne learning how to play from goldy and lijian si bei funny.. keep "daydreaming" =D.. lol than around 5am or so.. wb rosanne slept on edmond's bed.. jian and goldy slping in living room...me and edmond? playing tgt lo... PLEASE NO DIRTY STUFF =D... hmm played an hour or so..we stopped and i began packing my laptop..why? cause i tot we were going home soon!...who knows... waited until 7? no one is awake -_-...lol fine we shall slp over LOL..me and edmond..slacked around going around trying to make fun of them..of cuz didnt la..i was searching for my psp..duno where goldy put..oh well..gotta wait till he gets up and ask lo..meanwhile mond told me that his grandmama is going back to malaysia..then orh ok..then next moment he stood up, and said lai help carry things down -_-...wow thats fast..i tot he would at least say help me carry things down..but didnt!...ok lo he win.. i dun mind actually xD..
while waiting for his auntie to arrive, his grandmama was talking to me.. i catch NO BALL wad shes talking about..-_-.. until edmond explain to me LOL..i was ok lo.. xD... duno how to react..so wadeva.. NO OFFENCE MOND! peaceeee no war please!... went back up..slacked and slacked..until 740am plus plus? we began lying down on the floor... lol... it was FREAKING cold..there isnt any blanket for the two of us AT ALL..well why was it cold? cuz i lowered the temp to 22 degree around 5am =D...we were "freezing" there.. and around 8am bear called..asking wad we were doing.. hahaha i was di-siaoing beside..hehe..damn funny la..after that mond kept telling me to slp to slp..dun wan was my answer..sigh..ok lo..until 830 jian came in..complaining how warm it is in the living room -_- that the sun was shining on him..LOL..poor thing..then we joined us lying down on the floor =D... we chat and joke out LOUD i guess..haha for an hour or so..? its damn funny..that these 2 gays..omg..no comments..hahaha...for about an hour or so finally someone woke up.. edmond's brother eddie.. LOL..poor thing.. woke up by us? aww..he passed us his blanket and jump down from his bed..he NEARLY LANDED on my legs! it was just SO DAMN CLOSE..otherwise i would have LOST MY foot!.. the impact..from the landing...i felt it...omg..im sure my foot will break into 2 if he landed on them...HENG AR!... hahahaha
after that i guess we started slping! trying SO HARD to slp but couldnt cause it was freaking cold.. i got no covering T_T..i sacrificed my pillow to give jian to hug...i crawl into edwin's bed in hid inside on corner LOL..just laid there and stone..tried my best not to sleep...after awhile.. edwin woke up! lolssss jian was slping on eddie's bed xD...this big bully edmond started gay-ing with edwin LOL... omg..it was NOOOOO....the movement they made..WOW. LIVE SHOW!...hahaha.. verygood they stopped i occupy the whole bed myself LOL.. one by one started waking up.. am i right? i duno cant rmb much was kind of slpy.. then i was half-awake by then... i tried not to slp..i was listening to every single sentence they were having.. i guess i did fell asleep at one point cuz i dint know goldy was inside... LOL... like i said was listening.. until someone mentioned my name i rise my hand and wave! =D..hahaha.. then i was fully awake from then now..=D... my my..it was real funny..listening to them joke around.. soon started making joke.. cant say much about this...im forbidden to do so.. well ill just say a LITTLE bit.. i started gaying with edmond and edwin for no good reason while im lying down.. -_- the 2 of them just came squeezing in -_- and started doing... LOL ok enough..after that a GREEN BABY was born!!!!! by who:!?!?!?! guess it yourself.. =D!!! ahahaha everyone was laughing and making the two of them..its funny how they react to us...saying wad impotent la.. spoilt *** la...hahahaha thats why they have a green baby with a LONG AHEM... sigh.. all those who were on bed were "sort" of snatching for pillows...aww so sad.. thank god my own bed got 3! pillows and 3 baobao =D 2 blankets as well...wow..fully equipped sia! =D.. ok back to topic..
everyone was joking around laughing.. doing singing stupid songs...especially edmond and edwin -_-...keep gaying.. aiyo... *im tired dint slp much.. and im still online blogging..ahhh shld i just stop and roughly summarize everything?* seriously cant take it watching them...and jian was slping "peacefully" lol. the 6 of us including 3 eddie edwin and ivan-his cousin- literally stayed in the room joking and having fun laughing away.. hahaha..until 12 where goldy went home -_- saying he got tuition la blablabla...oh well.. then in the afternoon watch rosanne and edmond cooked..gosh..totall no comment.. hais.. while the other 2 was slping more lol... yea yea lunch ready!..and they were AHEM AHEM-ing rosanne's cooking..hais..actually it was okay la.. especially jian..wa kao.. totally rejected her cooking and dint eat at all...sigh.. then blablabla...around 2+ some bath some waited and we went to compass to walk awhile..otherwise we will die in edmond's house LOL... around 330 we slacked at the 161busstop opposite CP.. lol another thing im forbidden to say..oh well... laughing away there looking at how they were teasing rosanne LOL..poor rosanne...then bus came she went up and we're off going home! hahaha.. alright guys!
oh yeah... i didnt sleep straight after i reached home..i set up my laptop and such, went to take a bath to refresh myself..and continued my blogging..i guess..it was around 430 when i reached home..? well.. then i started around 5.15 or so... haha..if i dint remember wrongly i finished my post near 7...sigh..im real tired..but i cant sleep yet..i force to stay awake.. by watching anime..doing meaningless stuff.. chatting on msn..comparing timetable and such...sigh..it was a disaster! oh well..guess i probably stayed awake till around 1 before i slept.. gosh..

its 2.30am now..im slpy..im tired.. im sad..im drained both physically and mentally.. my brain is dead for now.. cant think much..gotta wake up early tml and go over to nyp to visit edmond LOL.. =] well then..nites all! hehehe ill post again later! on my first day of school

mahjong once again~

2009-04-21T00:29:00.003+08:00

ala.. continue reading..dun give up!

Sigh.. Second day after coming back from korea..i was stoning at home.. nothing much to do at home.. in fact i dint wanna stay at home... i dun wanna return home or rather.. my room filled with so much much much memories... each and every single moment.. im sort of experiencing it LIVE.. sigh.. getting all emotion again... sheessh... how long has it been..? lets see..its been ********...wow...im alright..im still okay..im fine..im..im.. actually what else can i say...? for those of you who are reading this.. i duno what to say..or how to say.. just.. zhen xi =]..ha.ha.ha.ha. foolish me wah.aha.aha.aha... daijiobu, ogenki desu ka..? im not avoiding, im not running away, im not gonna breakdown, im learning.. im learning from all these... im learning from all these wounds and scars which are there to remind me..so that i dont repeat the same stuff.. well.. ppl says time heals... one week? one month? one year? or maybe even ten years..? who knows.. i may have been a dunno,anything,whatever person.. but theres one thing i know, for sure, and its me.. for my case time will nvr heal... hmm...well some told me i cant be too sure.. well some told me to go and die why so stubborn and not giving myself so time off... well some told me im an idiot.. haha..whatever the case may be.. first will always be the first and the last for me... hmm... if you ppl who are reading this, you might find me making no sense in wadeva i talk.. yeah thats my purpose.. im trying not to make sense here.. haha.. indeed..everything is coming back.. all emotions all feelings back to where it started...all over again.. been repeating the same 2 songs over and over again... aiyaya..that's just me right...hahaha...every feelings and emotion im having now..they feel so fresh..and heavy... my eyes..are damn heavy...any stuff may just trigger the tap... got it? =]... been texting to a number with a empty user... well...probably the user gone on a holiday..? probably the user off the phone..? who knows... who knows...? sigh... im trying..to stop saying dunno, anything.. i wonder..how long will it take for things to get back on track with.., moving onwards with.., together...i wonder..probably nvr..? probably...alrdy went on ahead to a place i may nvr reach..? sigh.. if that's the case.. even if its gonna take another month..? another year? i wont mind.. ^-^v...yeah i'll make it..for everything we hold... i know this is gonna be a long process.. to regain back, to once again possess.. it may take a long time.. so long till i may forgotten something impt.. maybe there no longer exist this path for me to take to regain to possess once again... well.. if that's the case.. i wont wanna think about it happening.. if feelings can be lost so easily.. if feelings can be dead in matters of days.. if feelings are so easily cut.. why am i going through same things over and over again..? hahaha... im afraid.. im ad raid of myself.. those days that i go through before i met... haha...its so scary..wow... wad have i been saying..omg..i better stop.. this is going no where.. haha... for this..believe it or not.. you. yes you. if you are reading this.. this determination.. of mine.. will nvr die..for this burning love of mine.. will nvr extinguish.. moving on is both impt to us.. but that doesnt mean im giving up..like i said im learning.. yeah i rmb wad you said.. at that stairs.. in that phone.. its just like a video tap..repeating itself over and over again.. for those tears that both ran down those cheeks.. everything's my fault.. yeah.. i have to be responsible for wad i've done and said.. =]..
quoted this from somewhere.."but tears can oni be shed for the ones u love ♥ ".. if thats the case.. then a special smile after all the unhappiness can only be shown to the ones u love... =]
im thankful for those who were supporting me.. =] thanks. =] and special items and memories im getting my support from.. ill keep them deep somewhere till they have the right to re-surface once again.. =]
So..smile guys.. smile..=]..
by BC. bing (^-^)-♥-(._.) ****.*** weeeeeeeeeeee sry im not a gay using heart shape symbols okay =].

wads with this empty post i did... i wonder...check carefully =D and shhhh alright =] guess many of you shld know without me telling..

The day after korea

2009-04-19T19:57:00.001+08:00

Hmm 16th of april, went out with edmond to cut my hair! hahaha...met up around 230 at CP..started walking around slacking like nobody business.. haha..went around to check the prices of the salons. hahah...all so expensive..sigh.. then went to accompany edmond to make his poly ez-link..dots..he prepared a mindset of coming out w/o having to spend any $$..too bad for him..wahahaha...his only $10 in his wallet GONE just like that =D...poor thing.. oh well..finally decided to cut at jean yip..sian..oh well..$25 gone for me LOL...sigh..cut over 40mins or so.. poor edmond gotta go library to slack! hahaha alright let see...after searching HIGH and LOW for him we went to buy walker cup =D...sat outside the stairs beside the shop and started chatting.. until we finished our cupcup and move on to our next location and continue chatting!...hehehe... lets see..was at the playground chatting..then he said he wanted a better view -_- fine we changed to a place nearer to my house hahaha..i sure do miss such chats with frens..i wonder how long have it been since i last chatted with them liddat...haha..sigh..guess thats all for that day then alright nitez ppl!

*P.S. man theres thunderstorm infront of me right now! im so scare..help me please HELPP..hais..too fast for me to take a picture of it..oh well...*

Main korea!

2009-04-18T15:57:00.000+08:00

Alright People!! yeah after that Hotel Post im finally startin with the main trip! hehe. Guess it was the right choice to post about the hotel first, well at least there's lesser pictures for me to upload =D hehehe. alright then. My group can be counted as the noisy and craziest one out of the 7 groups =D. Alright lets not delay and get started!

Day 1, 9th of april:

Well well, lets see. Was slacking at home in front of my comp until 7pm or so before i was nagged to go and take a bath =[. Sheessh, finally waited till around 7.40pm before we left out house. Sigh. First gotta go pick up my uncle >_>, then moving on to airport terminal 2!

Well there guess there's just only about 100 people there or so. Gotta Q-up for our luggage etcetc. Nothing much to talk about the airport. Finally went in, slack and slack. Got to wait for about 1hr 30mins before we can board the plane. Our plane was schedule to fly at 1035pm. Alright thats nothing compared to the 6hours trip to korea (-_-)... finally its 1035! got on plane, damit gotta wait till 11 before we TOOK OFF~ Alright, guess wad i did? i had a mini movie marathon haha. i watched Connected and Yes Man. Shheessh 6 hours, practically just sat there watch and watch and watch =x. without me knowing, we're about to land! yeh-yeh! finally! finally landed and it was around 6am there, makes it 5am in singapore. yes one hour difference. Well some pictures i took over there xD.

Day 2, 10th of april:

Well alright finally~ korea here i come! Gathered around the entrance for some briefing and was told to gather back one hour later. Woo guess wad i had for breakfast? KFC. WOO haha. sadly their chicken tasted kind of different from ours. Sigh nvm better then nothing. dint go to mac cuz it was flooded with ppl lol. Well we're close to gathering time. My dad ask me go out of the airport to see if it was cold sure why not xD. before i even reach outside i could felt the coldness omg. so damn nice. how i wished singapore could oso have such weather where you can breathe out smoke o-o? hahaha. Interesting phone i saw at the airport
cool isnt it? just like a computer =D. i dint bother to try it out cause it was all in korean language >_>....sigh wadeva... Finally our bus came! dragged our luggage out placed them up the bus etcetc. On bus we were introduced to our:

Tour Guide: Novel, Xu ming Qiang
Tour guide helper: Ah Jun
Tour Leader: Peggy Ng

Alright, our tour guide was supposed to be the most handsome guy among all, age 36. at first i wonder issit self-proclaim or real. later on i found out its true wow. Hahaha. A real joker he is. Alright then our first destination was to EverLand Themepark. The journey took like 1hr30mins.. on my way there...i actually saw alot of BOTAK trees xD..and i managed to catch a glimpse of some sakura trees.. The tour guide said Korea's sakura are white while Japan's sakura were pink wow thats so so so cool. Wow theme park at first i tot i could get to play some games. By the time we reached there, it was crowded with ppl. yeah CROWDED. It was filled with tourists and STUDENTS. my my, i noticed something, different age group have their own kind of hair style. All the gals and guys of different levels have their own kind of hairstyle. my.my.. hahaha, well let me post some photos of everland first =D?

haha, the first place we went was Cable ride. cool amazing.
Check this Sakura Tree thats just beside me..its just so beautiful...

Finally, we reached the other side of the themepark. My god, its freaking huge, the place. Man, if only Singapore was bigger...oh well on second thought.. better don't, travelling sucks! hehe. Guess our second attraction we took was? 3D show: ZooToPio..3D OMFG..nvm.. the characters are so cute LOL:

Hahaha, and i found something so cute right beside this attraction!
HAHAHA a yellow pig out of NO WHERE! sitting on a tree hahaha. cute isnt it!!! OMG i sound like a gal. SHIT =x. Had our lunch straight after that ZOOTOPIO! i didnt have much appetite that time. Probably mood affecting me..? had chicken cutlet xD. After that was Free time for all. My parents asked if i wanna play any.. well.. i dun wan to, cuz... i dun wanna play alone.. yeah i dun wanna play alone.. alright there were 2 ways for us to go. 1) more games and rides 2) flower site xD. Guess we just chose to go flower site.hehe.. really quite an amazing place.. Pictures up!

anyway theres over 300 pictures i took during the whole trip.. so forgive me ill let pictures do the talking

Actually that themepark is kind of boring, nothing much to do. Go such places best is with someone you AHEM. Alright finally almost time for us to leave. Slacked around, slowly walked towards our bus and i found this!
Check it out, the 2 bus driver sleeping! hahaha. i was LMAO away =x. Hahaha alright waited and waited on bus for everyone to arrive. and our next destination was strawberry field. Haha another 1-2 hours of trip. Man.. i was just staring out of the glass looking at the scenery. I was actually EMO-ing -_-. alright nvm...

Finally after so long we reached!!!! the place was kind of like kampong type. we still gotta walk for like 5-10mins before we reach the "greenhouse" i guess. we were told to only pick 5 strawberries OUT. but they dint say u cannot EAT inside =x. so yeah many ppl ate and ate, for example my mum -_- she just keep putting straw berries in her mouth. -_-. Gosh, the path inside was REAL narrow. its damn freaking hard to walk. And it was kind of stuffy inside, quite warm too, probably cuz im wearing my mickey? Went out and my mum start going over to the small little shop and buying strawberries -_-. shes just so damn into strawberries. currently inside my fridge theres 2 boxes of strawberry -_-. sigh..females ARE females -_-...males like me gotta stand there and wait like -_- -_- -_-... alright pictures!

Phew...its been like more then an hour since i started blogging..and im still at day 2 =D weee how slow of me =D. Alright after strawberry adventure! we're on our way for dinner!!! yes thats another about 2 hrs of trip -_-...and yet again i was emo-ing -_-..sigh...alright nvm..
And yes we finally reached! tadaa the shop

Yummy yummy!!! anyway i was having a hard time eating this -_- their chopstick was god damn dificult to use. it really is.. its flat. damn difficult to hold and use. sigh nvm, i really wonder why my family was always one of the last to finish the food -_-..ALWAYS...went down the shop, and my mum was BUYING STRAWBERRY again -_-. FK it la..keep buying..wads wrong with her.. nvm.. and we're finally on our way to our hotel which took about 30mins or so. Many 6-star hotel!?!?! so cool, the room was big! so big! 3 beds lOl. toliet was OMFG..LOL wads up with me? xD i got one whole bed to myself T_T..so lonely..yea..lonely..alright then...its time for BED! before that i was addicted to the TV. some MV show. saw Wang li hong's Xin Tiao and Jay Chou's 说好的幸福呢..yeah im OUTdated i know. but nice songs are meant to listen over and over again no matter how old they get. alright time for bed! nitez all! *its 5.52pm now o_O!?!?!*

Day 3, 11th of april:

Woke up at 630am..which is suppose to be 530am in singapore...i dont feel tired at all actually..hahaha..alright then slowly slowly get ready until 730 meeting time. Went to have our breakfast.. the place was actually like for holding wedding cememories? its quite nice and beautiful, my my how i wish i could walk down that red carpet with her LOL thinking too much sia me. Sigh the breakfast..was plain..the food..was totally NOT for me..its soooo plain..no taste at all..so all i ate was buns buns and more buns xD... Pictures pictures!

Hehe...This is gonna be such an long long long long long long long post! Alright! next Destination was to visit a place which was a memorium of a korean hero who assassniated the japanese chief during world war 2, if not wad we're studying now could still be japanese. alright that place was filled with sakuras as well.. when the pedals falls, its just like snowing..it actually made me emo.. LOL yes emo again... oh well.. alright Pictures UP!

CHECK THIS OUT! this was wad i found in the toliet!!! a CONDOM machine! OMFG theres 2 type of condom one which is plain the other was with dots i shall assume it as vibrator? LOL i wanted to buy one and see but i dun have coins so...wadeva =D
Hehe, the only thing that interest me there at korea was sakura.. =]..hahaha alright then next destination was DOOTA tower!
A place for you just to SHOP! wow. the things inside are kind of expensive! theres a floor just for men..omg..so many things i wanna buy..but i couldnt..sigh..cuz i duno wad to buy..it suck to go shopping alone..yea..alone..my god..i really hate being alone after i know wads AHEM LOL. sigh. i was really feeling sick the whole time ever since i started day 2 >_>........... i wonder why.. probably mood again? lol!!

Alright then after that we went to watch a korean drama... Hmm... quite intereseting sadly cannot take picture or video of the whole show. Well if i recall correctly the show about a couple in love. aww... guess wad i was slping at the starting of the show. the show last about 1hr. i slept for about 20mins-30mins of the show. hahahaha. i only like the part that they started to drum. Well after that we had a photo taking session with them all. while they're at it i was searching for toliet xD. gosh. hehe..well after that we went to have dinner at some chinese restaurant. Hmm even though its a chinese restaurant, the food tasted abit weird... well i guess i shldnt be picky about my food when i've telling ppl not to be =x. Hmm after that walked around that street outside. Thats where i bought the nail cutter guys xD cute right? its useful alright! from the looks of you guys u guys seems to hate it >_>...man...i tried not to show it on my face > : ( be grateful alright > : ) hehe... check out the street

their street sure is wide... hard to see singapore having such wide road other then expressway i guess...? hehe alright check this auntie out! bought my stuff from her. -P.S. my my its noisy here. currently at edmond house blogging. they playing mahjong LOL xD- hmm alright the auntie sure is a blur sotong. keep changing price. guess shes just too busy with everyone asking her for price and trying to bargain LOL!!!
see the guy in the picture? LOL poor thing he got "scammed" around 5k =x poor thing...hmm lets see... at that point of time.. i suddenly got emotional..why? probably seeing all the couples walking pass me..well wont it be nice to have someone u love to hug and be by you under such weather..? aww sigh..guess i couldnt...nvm..then was going back to hotel and slp...

Day 4, 12th of april:

Hehe lets see, had the same exact breakfast at the same place but different location thats all. after that we went to take the KTR railway, bullet train siol! the train was set to go off at 1030 gotta board the train at 1021 lol!. wonder how the hell i remember the time? beats me... as usual...my mum was squeezing at a mini shop at the entrance of the station... -_- totally no comments...lets see...went around and saw the pancake that DORAEMON like!!!! wahahaha so cute. its around my palm size!!! well it taste abit sweet abit plain xD. weird uh-huh... hehe. then it was finally time to board the train!!! its said to reach our next destination in about 1hr, if on bus it will take around 2-3hrs lol!!! poor thing... alright the train was quite smooth, it doesnt seem to be running at 300km+++...hahaha...i was slping throughout the whole journey... it was real tired that day... alright pictures!

arrived at the next station.. and there was some shops outside the station selling some junk foods. it was kind of warm..the weather was both hot and cold..man...that.sucks.. alright..walked around the place...took some pictures while waiting for the bus to arrive.. here you go!

cute right? this mini water wheel hahaha!!! finally the bus arrived! and we're on our way to a certain mountain..i forgot the name...hahaha..had our lunch over there..steamboat again...aww..their steamboat is limited to only 4 types of veggy... oh well, my favourites anyway so who cares xD... picture up!

Hehe lucky we're sitting on chairs dont need to sit on the floor =D!!! so happy...when i first hear we may need to on the ground i totally T_T.. aiyo..cuz i felt its so troublesome need to take off shoes and such... sigh.. lucky by the time we reached there...the area for sitting is almost full woohoo we dont need to sit on the floor =D!!!... Finished eating le, began walking up the street to take cable car up the mountain! Pictures up!

and yep! after reaching the other station.. it was filled with ppl going down the mountain..haha we begun climbing the mountain! Journey to conquest the **** mountain xDDD... my goodness it was real tiring to climb the mountain...the stairs that were built were as good as 70 degree upwards...my god! the mountain path was filled with unstable rocks. i nearly fell down once. thank goodness one of my leg was on a stable ground. at the starting, there was a monk trying to get some donation i guess...at there my mum gave up pass me the camera and asked me to continue up myself.. my god. alright lo i continue myself.. up and up, higher and higher i went..took pictures as i went up. then "half" way up my destination there was a rest area. a Mini coffee shop hahaha. hehe sat there with my group.. sat until my dad came up LOL!! power la. =D from there on the four of us continued the journey up... steeper path ahead of us.. finally we reached our destination... to our surprise...its not the top...theres more to go..but we couldnt move on why? all tired plus time limit.. oh well...at our "top" we took some pictures and such..and started to Xia Sun to continue our mediation xD...hahaha... alright pictures up!

hahaha...it was so damn chaotic when we're trying to take the cable car down.. Man there was filled with ppl.. i think we waited for around 30mins b4 we can board the car..its funny how everyone is cutting queue xD...while waiting my leg was shaking badly.. my muscles were aching.. its been so long since i last exercise my legs i guess...i can barely stand still...i gotta lean on wadeva i could..haha..how i wish i got someone to support me there.. oh well.. and halfway waiting the korean began complaining swearing in their language which i dun understand at all...i was laughing away =x hahahahaha. xD finally got on bus and was on our way to next hotel. hehe... had dinner there..it was the same exact stuff i had for lunch just that theres pork included this time lol..oh well..after that went up placed our luggage and went down to mini mart. before that we went out to the beach to have a stroll.. OMG it was FREAKING COLD REAL COLD...went to the beach..saw ppl playing with mini fire works..hahahaha...it was pretty expensive...3 for 10k.. around 10+ sing dollar..lol..haha..the sand was cold...and we went back to the minimart xD... guess wad i had for my supper? xDDD Here you go!

There heineken and Ice cream!!!! wahahaha, actually practically i had ice cream everyday after this day xD... And One thing for sure, i wont drink anymore. No more drinks i swear. why? hmm for her? LOL! i wanna be healthy.. yeah.. when staring out the window i was thinking again..thinking about wad..? quite obvious dont you think..? hahaha... nvm alright nite hehehe!!!

Day 5, 13th of april:

hehe had breakfast in the hotel, breakfast was pretty tasty!! =D yum yum!!! sweeeee la. and i found this picture nice so i snap a picture of it.. i duno why..but i just find it nice..and pretty..hehe..

Next destination was to Dam * contribution from Jian, Rosanne, goldy* im so dumb i duno its a Dam DAMN...hais.. hahaha pretty cool..watching the water gushing out from one side..i wonder..wad if i jump down...survival rate = 0% isnt it..haha...alright lazy to post pictures on the dam. cuz nothing much for me to post.. but the weather there is nice..it felt like a mirage to me...
Next stop was to another MOUNTAIN..know as MA ER SAN..yeah and mountain climbing to do.. hehe..except this place was blooming with sakura trees...its really beautiful..i wished i could share this with her but sadly cant..hahaha.. The trip over there was around 1hr plus plus ba. alright then lets check it out!

Best picture! Noble Award to me =D wahahahaha

hehe... more beautiful pictures up ahead soon!!! gimme a few seconds to say wad i wanna say hehe...well then had lunch up hill of the car park..my god..guess wad its STEAMBOAT AGAIN! hehe check it out urself! sadly i had to sit on the floor this time DAMIT...oh well..as usual one of the last to go finish..my parents just ate and ate and ate..hungry ghost? i wonder... hehe

Cute cup right!!! Mashi MARO!!!! wahahaha surrounded by wad..? STRAWBERRIES -____-''...
hehe...and we began to start climbing up the mountain..as usual..my mum passed me the camera and my adventure begin...hehe..the scene is pretty over there.. this time the route up was much better.. SO MUCH better but oso damn tiring...most probably due to the previous day i climb like -_-..i nearly lost my feeling on my legs LOL..halfway up there was a temple.. it seems like its a buddhist temple...haha...there was this BIG BIG DRUM infront of the temple..aww i wanted to hit it but i dunno how to..maybe need donations first? but i dun have any small notes on me so i gave up the tots..beside the drum theres this big big tree..its real pretty.. =D right then there was this small little sweet stall... bought an ice cream with the help of a korean..haha..i feel so dumb..oh well..nvm right beside the stall theres a 800m stairs for me to climb...omfg..i duno how the heck i managed to climb up..my mind was just all about her.. LOL..without me knowing i was up there.. sweating.. so i sat down finished my ice cream and waited for myself to cooldown... hmm theres quite alot of elderly up there.. and i stare down the stairs..my mind was blank..how the heck i climbed up..i wonder...haha...alright then it was near time and i began my XIA SAN journey... xDDD hehe..it felt like forever went im going down..probably cause my mind was blank..not thinking abt her? LOL..dumbass me..alright..then my dad was waiting for me down there..haha..i feel abit guilty sia..making him wait there..without knowing when ill be down... hehe.. alright pictures up!

woo a cotton candy stall out of NO WHERE... hahaha cute right? having that heart infront hahahaha!

see that 2 "hill" thats how the mountain is known as MA ER SAN.

Lets see..the whole time that im in korea..i've been trying to catch a falling pedal..and there i finally got hold of one.. =]...the moment i got hold of it..i feel real relax..it felt as though all my emotions at that time came to an end..haha..

The view from the top...800m down..wow..

There the view from the middle of the stairs.. X_X up and down haha...

this is wads on top LOL...boring... =]
Alright then, finally we're going back to our hotel =D...super duper happy...hahah.. went Beache Palace... nice name xD...hahaha... all hotels have ocean related names.. lets see..upon reaching there..the whole lot 7 groups around 200+ ppl went over to the beach to take a whole tour photo, its hanging outside my room now..so if u guys come to my house you guys can check it out =]... maybe ill scan...maybe ill take a photo of it..well..wadeva =].. after that we went out and to have our dinner..OMFG.. it was kind of freezing out there..and we were eating out in empty area..eating wad u asked? seafood..wow..expensive stuff... pictures will be up shortly!!! alright thank goodness..we're BBQ them..hahahaha... thanks to the heat we dint feel so cold...but right after cooking OMG there comes the coldness..cold freezing wind blowing right at our face..hahah..but it didnt felt that cold after eating hehe..then it was free time walked around the area..shop filled with ppl..cant move at all..ahhaha.. guess wad i found there?!?!?! ITS MY SHOP! B.C something something HAHHAHAHA woo...my shop siol! went inside bought a pack of maggie mee and some drinks and 2 cookies and cream ice cream =D..hahahaha..toldya im into ice cream hehehe... alright then we're back on our bus back to hotel..well pictures first shall we..? =]
Here this is the picture that i mentioned ^^^^
right after we all ate and finished our free time... i became a "mini" star there with the mickey jacket..everyone who was there started taking picture with my zipped up mickey...man i couldnt see at all..so i could only stand there like an idiot while waiting for everyone to finish up...man.. i helped mickey advertised xDDD woohooo...hehehe...then everyone from that point onwards knew me =x...hais...

Check this out! i found my shop! B.C something =D!!! wahahaha be sure to look out for my shop when u go to korea =D!!! if you ever did 50% discount to all ppl i know =D..

Anything please call this number hahahaha
here you go original picture xD
Hmm, on this night there's a special event you see..during low tide, a seaway will be opened! so you will be able to cross over to the island opposite of the hotel on foot! hmm lets see the picture is up there ^^^^..hmm you must be wondering how the heck are we gonna see right? the hotel provided Spot Lights!!! YEAH SPOT LIGHTS CHECK IT OUT YOURSELF!

Colourful spot lights which didnt help at all -_-...useless man..well sad case that it happened in the night..well i did try to walk..but i get disgusted halfway and i u-turned xD...hehe..and there i was standing from the dry sands watching ppl lighting fireworks and walking towards into the darkness xD..and i was thinking yet again wun it be nice if shes there with me haha...it was like freezing cold there...i was wearing short anbd slipper with my mickey jacket.. i was shivering from head to toes..sigh..oh well..nvm..then slowly as the crowd starts to clear, we began walking back.. washed our feet and something happened LOL.. lets see..how shld i say..the area for washing leg began sprouting water like a fountain hahahah...who was the one responsible for it? our tour leader Peggy Ng xDDD...hahahaha...oh well shes all wet aww...pity her.. LOL =D..and that ends our night =]

Day 6, 14th of april:

Tadaa...as usual gotta wake up at 630am..god..damn tired..sigh...around 730 went down to have our breakfast..woo another feast for me LOL..as usual theres bread and butter..weeee my favourite snack =x..? i just simply love bread with butter i wonder why.. right after breakfast there was an activity, ONSEN!!! hot spring haha... well guess wad..? i was too shy to go in total naked.. so i dint go at all i stayed in my room and slept..hahaha...my naked body can only be seen by my love one no one else xP booo...dont get the wrong idea wor! =D...from 9-12pm i slept all the way before moving on to our next destination..hehe... the whole journey took about like 2-3hrs again! MAN..poor me... gotta endure such things...ohwell...

Our next destination was to a village which existed for over 500 years. yeah amazing isnt it, over 500 years wow how is that possible..well its there right infront of my eyes...cool...alright it was pretty warm there..wonder how the hell i bear the heat and coldness at one go..alright that place was filled with families making MISO sauce...everywhere i went i can see pots and pots of miso lying infront of their house..haha... theres a tree which existed way longer before the village did.. it was a 600years old tree..man..issit even possible for a tree to exist THAT LONG? well i dunno... alright then how about some pictures first =D!

Cute construction sign they have there =D!!!

almost every house have these 2 words paste on their door
House of the poor

House of the rich LOL
Well here some of the flwoers that were blooming in the area =]

And here you go the 600years old tree!

The description of the tree LOL =D all korean!
Alright theres quite alot more pictures...i dont think ill upload..im having a hard time adjusting everything >_> issit just me having this problem or wad.. haha.. alright next destination was to a flower garden or something. but sadly its not open yet.. when we first reached there we're not allowed to go inside..and we were told to get on bus..mircale or something the organisers allowed us to go in to peek peek for awhile...wow..the decorations of the flowers the different types of varieties.. myyyy theres no end to it...sigh... shld i upload pictures? im lazy..been trying to complete this post since ytd at 4pm+.. and its now been a day i have yet to finish...but im coming to an end guys! keep it up guys! =]

Weeee then we were chased out of the place by the guads...hahaha...and we're off to last hotel =D!!! finallly we're coming to an end.. phew.. im tired..so damn tired.. The last dinner we had was a gather session where guides leaders come together and perform some acts singings etc etc.. And we had this mini gambling, where 3 person have to be blind folded.. in order to hit the jackpot the 3 of them had to do the same action. oh well the prize accumlated to 33k o-o! and my mum asked me to play -___-..i kept rejecting she just keeps "forcing" me to..fine i play..and i won that 33k -_-...COOOOOOOL =D..hahahaha...so cool.. haha.. wee am i counted lucky or wad.. and after that..some singing session and we were dismissed! as usual we went to the Family Mart to buy some stuff..lol..and i got my ICE cream once again..hehehe wait did i? cant rmb hahaha.. The next day we gotta wake up at 530am -_- cause we got a 3hours journey to reach Seoul.. this night i dint bath b4 slping..i just washed my face and went to slp..aww..this time was damn lonely for me...im slping all alone in the living room...amazingly..i didnt feel lonely..cuz i wass dreaming of her..sigh..why am i even saying this xD..alright.. Nites!

Day 7, 15th of april:

dint managed to slp well...woke up pretty early..tried to slp back but couldnt..so i just laid there stoning..until my mum asked me to bath lol... alright finished bathing..went out to the and it was cold. real cold.. and i saw our bus driving towards the hotel~

Wad a weird thing to say o-o!

There, we're oso one of the last to get down to put our luggage.. sigh..always the case..and yes same breakfast with my bread and butter =]..then after breakfast we're on our way to seoul airport~..Total 3 hours of journey..man..that suck.. alright first took a break at some resting area for vehicles.. it was freezing cold out there this time cause its gonna rain..i believe that the temp. is as good as near 4-7 degree... hahaha.... the water for washing hand were all ice water..omg..my hand felt numb straight lol xD...then after that we went over to a chinese ginseng shop..omg the prices were all Extreme..1k USD for a 6 years ginseng..wow..so so so ex...gosh... crazy sia.. then after that...went over to a outlet selling purple gold..i guess..prices are still affordable..yeah i bought 2 stuff there..just wondering when will i be able to pass it over...hahaha...yeah wondering.. and when we stepped out of the building it began raining...woooo...so cold..so nice.. hehehe...well.. and we're off to the airport! and then HOME SWEET HOME!.. Anyway sorry guys! last day nothing much for me to post about hahaha...

-P.S. well well well, it seems like im into photo taking...guess its probably thanks to her? well most likely it is..haha...guys beware! i may just randomly snap ur photos out of no whr hehehe!-

Well here video of my crazy group..whole bus got hyper crazy! hahahaha this is on day 5 after having our seafood dinner xD

Korea: Hotels!

2009-04-18T15:21:00.000+08:00

Hi ppl! finally i found the mood to blog about my trip to Korea! Smile ppl im starting with hotels =]. Weird choice for me? i dont think so hehe. The trip to korea was...well abit boring, full of emotions, Da Kai Yan jian =D. hehe lets see. Its real cold in the morning and night, but both hot and cold in the afternoon gosh! alright lets get started ppl!

Day 1: My hotel was on the PLANE!

Day 2 & 3: Inter Continental Hotel

Sheessh sorry only took one photo of it xD

Day 4: I FORGOT =D i think Aqua Hotel? xD PS

Day 5 : Beache Palace

Day 6: Ocean Castle

random post

2009-04-08T21:25:00.000+08:00

Sigh, this holiday is just the worse for me. I had never been this emotional,lonely,sad,heartbroken,etc etc wadeva u can think of. sigh. For the past few years, I've been putting on hold most of my priorities, be it monetary stuff, personal time etc etc. Sigh maybe to some of you you dont see it this way, well that i cant do anything about it. Its really tough to live through by myself. I lost half of myself since the beginning of the holiday. and yeah i dont think ill be able to get it back. sigh. what could possibly be worse..? its real tough to have this resolve and determination to hold on. But i still believe, and ill continue to believe that all the times that we've been through will not be for naught. All the feelings, memories and tears ill never let them disappear. I wont run away, i wont hide my feelings, i wont give up.
Sigh, ill be taking a break from all these. You guys may think I'm contradicting from wad i had said, well thats up2u to think wad you want.
All i can say is 我还想她我还爱她. Yep =]

Movie-12rounds-

2009-04-07T20:52:00.000+08:00

Well,6th of april, a "special" day to me. maybe it doesnt really matters to the outside world. sigh, dammit its so stress on that day. doubt ill say it.
alright, went out with the usual group of peeps. This time something amazing happened! bear was damn early o-o! we dun need to wait for him. haha. went over to PS had our lunch at kfc. so cool, i had stomachache aww gross. xD alright. then slowly make our way to cathay. sigh. consider our lucky or wad? just nice it rained when we reached there. bought 6tixs for timeslot 3.05pm. slacked around cathay, nothing much to do there. finally it was time! lets say the movie overall was quite nice ba.3.5/5 ill give? after that went to play pool. i was playing acarde xD. so sad i couldnt find the game i wanted to play oh well. probably we got no other activites afer pool and it was still early like 7plus? some idiot suggested to play mahjong at mond's house. sigh. fine with me. and we're on our way there.
so nice of mond to cook maggie of us. aww he's growing up into fine gentleman =DDD. well guess we played until around 11.15 or so. and we're on our way back home! sigh, was really emo-ing all the way back, been thinking and thinking. guess it will nvr stop.
Probably the darkest days of my life, which is still increasing...

Guess some random shots i took for you guys:

TiringDay.

2009-04-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

Woah woah... 3Th of April sure was a tiring day for me. First place Hougang swimming complex next East Coast Park last edmond house. Only had two hours of sleep the previous night. Man that really sucks. Alright, then in the morning went to accompany Jian and weibin swimming, one ass PS-ed us obviously who that ass is. Alright i went kind of stoning there at the complex, watching them swim. Staring anywhere i could, thinking about stuff that i just cant get it off my mind. Alright sat for around 30mins i went to suntan a little. Haha, then around 11.30 we left. My my it sure is fun walking with them. Although i dint talk much, just listening to the joker talk sure is good enough. Well, had our lunch at mac. We gotta wait till 12pm before buying well cuz its lunch time =D cheap meals hehe. Man i nearly couldn't finish my McChicken Meal. First time in my life, i actually couldn't finish my mac. Im so disappointed and amazed by myself. Guess I'm starting to change somehow. Listen to them telling story about chicken wings ~_~. some homo story. Planned to wait for goldy then go tgt, but in the end he seems to be dragging, then oh well we just went on ahead. On the bus, jian and bin bet. Jian bet mond will fail his BTT bin bet he will. So lets see later =D

Hmm, the actual meeting time was SUPPOSED to be 130 at Yio chu kang MRT lets see. Alright reached there, saw Rosanne standing there so lonely, well who cares xD went inside cheers and bought my winter melon =D 2 for $2 =D. cheap sia wahahaha. Alright as usual, time's up only the four of us were there.Alright then the rest were either on the way or not ready yet. Sigh. Nvm waited outside the control station. FInally goldy and jx arrived. Then the 6 of us went over to pick Edmond up! walked under the freaking hot sun. Its so tiring, my eyes can barely open. Wow just nice when we reached the entrance, edmond and jasmine were walking out =D. hahah, the jokers began to laugh at him and started saying stuff like knew it, etc etc.Haha, as usual jasmine sure will pass. My my is she smart? i duno. Sigh, finally we're on our way back to the YCK interchange. Phew, jasmine left first cause she had tuition later. Oh well, finally our bus came! Took 76 all the way there. As usual the back of the second deck was ours! The journey was damn long. Took over 1hr plus just to reach there. oh well, then we began random chatting, cursing, swearing, laughing, joking, playing childish lame game, listening to songs/stories. Sure was a pain in the ass throughout the whole journey. Alright, finally reached the bus stop, still got to wait for bear. Well, guess we waited for about 10-15mins? i forgot. Sigh always making us wait for him. will he ever be on time? i wonder. i guess probably not and will probably never! Finally he arrived and we're on our way there! Had subway as lunch for some of them. sigh. oh well, its amazing how Edmond was waiting for his lettuce to drop on the table xD. i forgot to take a picture of it haahaha. Alright then, finally went to rent our bikes! while jx rented skates. haha. well after all the ruckus we're done! Poof! we're on our way to cycle! i had random shots of the places while I'm cycling~ hehe.

First stop was to bebok jetty. I dint know they went all the way to the end of the jetty, at first i thought they were just gonna stay near the entrance, sigh oh well. Im amazed how many people were there fishing. All sorts of ppl. It appears that one side is for fishing small fish while the other side was for big fish. LOL, we saw someone caught a catfish? my my, i wanna try fishing someday too! someone please jio me go =D!!! Well we took quite alot of pictures there ba. Well, you guys will hardly see me in the pictures cause ill be the one to snap everyone =D. Well too bad for those who hate to take pics xP. well just as we're to continue our journey, accident happened!!! Sigh, some idiots wanna sandwich Rosanne from both side. Ended up she ramped into the seat by the side and her leg was swollen. OmG, its so obvious. yet they still can joke about it and we're laughing away with it. xDD Well someone felt GUILTY so i volunteer with that guilty one, dashing all the way back to shop and exchange a double bike. Sigh, it was god damn tiring dashing all the way back. My muscle on the thigh was hurting. sigh. after dashing for about 15mins we finally arrived! Both of us were sweating like -__-! When i got off the bike, my legs can barely support me from standing. Aiyaya. Well changed the bike guess i got to be and have to be the one in front anyway. i doubt that GUILTY one can support my weight anyway =D!! This time i guess its much more harder to cycle back. Why? cause i gotta support double my weight =x. haha. Man that GUILTY one kept saying its so embarrassing for two guys to be riding a double bike -_-. Well, kind of true where ever we cycled ppl was staring at us. Sigh, nvm this time round chionging back was much more tiring. Edmond kept saying leg cramp leg cramp. Man i gotta use twice the energy to cycle when he is not pedalling. All that im afraid of was that ill faint halfway back. Sigh, finally we -so called- caught up with them. Guess what edmond told me? lets act MAN and say its no problem, and fall to the ground when we get off our bike xD. Sure i played along. As soon as i stand my leg cant even hold my weight. my whole body was red! It hurt us so much =/, to hear that Rosanne dun wanna get on the double bike. Aww, nvm and they were discussing who to get on the double bike -_-. sigh, guess me and mond just cant tak it anymore and get on the double bike and cycled away. Blah blah blah, cycled and cycled, changed bike with bin and bear woo finally. That two joker, no Mo qi one xD. hahaha. At certain place, the chain of the double bike came off and was stucked! my my thank goodness bear have tissue, otherwise i wouldn't even help them xD, HAHA joking joking xD. man it was real tight! i still gotta use extra strength to pull the chain out. sigh, im scared that ill cut my hand ><. Oh well, finally one last attempt and it worked! wee. and we're on our way again! Thank goodness we finally reached the end of ECP i guess. Discussed whether to continue cycling or return, its pretty obvious to return =x. man im so lonely at the start of the return journey. im all alone, YES ALONE T_T. i was scared someone might attack me or wadsoeva. T_T i couldnt even see one of them at all.Lols i was kind of emo-ing all the way back. Thinking and thinking, recalling of the past. i nearly cried ?_?. Until JX u-turn to accompany me. oh well, the night scene was so beautiful, i couldnt resist to leave tat place. how i wish i could enjoy it with someone. yeah someone. oh well nvm. i was behind jx all the time. Im impressed at how she could skate all the way. my my she have my respect. i would have gave up half way at the start of the journey. Sometimes i scare she will fall >< her ="x.">_>. Sigh nvm. FINALLY we reached the shop. man they're sitting there laughing and chit chatting all the way. I tot at least one or two will stay and wait for me and jx. but none did -.- kind of pissed off
LOL. we got an extra charge of $20 dollar. sigh as usual. sure have conflict whenever it comes to money ~_~. sigh wadeva me and mond gave $3 first and thats it dun come and disturb us. the rest is their problem. straight after that i walked away =D to mac and wash up. The freaking smell of oil from the chain is unbearable. After some BLAHBLAH, they wanna eat steamboat... sigh gotta withdraw money cuz of that. oh well, was busy eating lazy to cook. ^^v. Hmm, then we're on our way back to edmond house! sigh as usual, that goldy sure PS us and wont go -_-. Reason? im tired dun feel like going. Oh comeon goldy who isnt tired? alright nvm and it was late that night no more last bus for him to come ok im cool with it. sigh. Oh well. finally alighted from the bus and i ran back home. My my, im using extra needless energy on running. Sigh, finally reached home, on my laptop started transferring wad i was asked to do by rosanne. blablabla finally im done with it and im bathing. aww felt like heaven. Man my whole upper body seems to have red patches all over. well didnt give a damn to it. blablabla took my time to do everything. Just nice when i finished bathing mond called me. Wow they just reached his house -.- and asked me to buy drinks over. man i tot why couldnt they buy first... or probably they forgot thats the most possible reason i can think of. Alright thats wad i said.

I had my mini k-box seesion on my way to his house. Amazing siol free one! Emo-ing all the way there. finally reached rivervale mall's cheers. Saw jacob and kenny out there. haha had a small little chat and im off! Sigh reached edmond house still got to wait. Fine lo, i left. And im sitting at the voiddeck. lmao they called i picked up listening to them say hello hello hello xD. so funny i was laughing away. sigh, i blasted my music walking up the stairs. lols and i was squating outside the lift rosanne came out. guess wad i forgot her leg was injured hahahahaha. =x. sigh. i felt so damn warm >< oh well. Share cost with jian. played the from 230 till 530. 3 hours of torturing. haha. i kept shouting for jian to come and play. that asshole keep slping -_-. sigh. when we ended our game i lost $15. sigh. tried my best to cover as much as i could. oh well. When jian finally woke up, he is saying nonsense, simi calling and shouting for ghost liddat. everyone was laughing away hahaha.Well,guess we're finally on our way home. sigh. gotta accompany rosanne to her bus stop. we walked and walked, from dark sky till it became bright. haha. just nice when we reached the bus stop her bus came! YES no nid wait any longer. and im off back home=D.

Well Guess thats all folks. Now time for some Random Pictures that i took =D!!!

Well im lazy to comment on the pictures. Taking me forever just to be dragging them up and down. Feel like killing someone. can anyone enlighten me an easier way to put photos? xD

Woah woah requested by EDMOND to post this on xD see

Well this could be the one i like most ba. Giving a emo feeling.

see that jian? hais

if im standing there...wont it be nice?

Well the best picture. =] agreed by lots!

Quite interesting dun u think?

The 2 of them can never run away from me =D

Tiko face dun u think?

Just some random shots while cycling

The 2 of them..keep giving us problem. Dun wanna cooperate

see this is wad i meant by NOT being COOP -.-

My my nice shot!

Goldy having nice face o-O?

i forgot why are they like this.. probably scare of rosanne or wad? hahaha

OH NO ASKING ME TO TALK TO HIS HAND!!! ARGH

Our leader sia. sitting there shaking his leg while we cook for him hahaha

i think we're stopping here =D

another random shot along the way.

i wonder wad happened to his face. so uncool

My chef! hahahaha

Ending with a NICE pose of bear hahaha
Weird not seeing me in there? nah its not weird =D. well thats all guys enjoy!

Random

2009-04-01T20:04:00.000+08:00

Sigh... seems like my cough worsen. This is the worse, messed up holiday and now this. Whats next.. i wonder.. sigh..this holiday is a real pain in the ass to get over with... sigh... lets see.. i noticed i dun have much cloths to wear out. Its always the same old few that i have been wearing for months o-o... haha kinda bored with them, sometimes i dun even know what i should wear out... sigh...no mood totally no mood...guess thats all for today..

Weekend~

2009-03-30T18:16:00.000+08:00

Rawr!! This is probably the worse holiday i ever had, maybe its gonna be the worse year I'm gonna have... So many thoughts and emotions to handle... Wow its damn tiring, damn torturing. Needless to say no support. Oh well, probably i have to face this alone ba.. Alright time to get the ball rolling...

Hmm Saturday 28th of march, was Goldy's birthday! Haha went over to celebrate his birthday xD. Well IM SORRY to have made my friends waited 30mins for me *read from jas blog =x*. I apologise guys! Alright reached there still have to wait for bear bear to come X_x. Alright i became a messenger for goodness sake thanks to them being so far apart and no place for me to sit T_T... alright then discussed and ordered pizza. Finally bear came, bought some drinks and went up to goldy's house. My my, to confirm that goldy is at home we had to call him, it was a nice little convo between Bear and Goldy while they prepare the cake and such, its something like this:

Bear: Eh goldy wanna play dota anot.
Goldy: Eh dont wan lei i Mapling
Bear: What still mapling?
Goldy: ?!?!?!?!
Bear: aiya forget it la go play your maple LOL.

hmm roughly like this from what i can remember xDD. Haha finally candles up fire burning wax dripping~ we walked over to his house haha. A surprise visit! xD sang song outside and went in lols. Once inside as usual guys take control of his comp xDD. Well then same old thing birthday boy gotta use his mouth to take out all the candles lols. Haha i became the camera man again boy boy. Thats why you guys hardly see me in the pics other then group photos =D! Slacked around and the pizza delivery is here! Goldy mistook him for postman -.-! for real? wadeva. Took some group photos etc etc. Goldy spoilt the mood =/. He gotta go Singapore Flyer for some CIP stuff? i duno. Sigh nvm. Then Jian and bear gotta go Geo's birthday chalet. Oh well, left me edmond jasmine and jiaxuan. Took a cab over to jas's house to play mahjong. Why? cause the weather is simply just OMG cant bear the heat. its TORTURING!!! nvm. Finally reached her house settle everything and game on! Sigh its damn tiring to play two rounds. played until around 6+ Jx went down to fetch rosanne up. haha. and there we continued from where we left off. Sigh seems like we ignored the Earth Hour, or rather probably we forgot? x). Alright finally we ended at around 11.15 or so? phew finally my suffering has ended. Guess im the only won most likely beginner's luck. Alright then packed things up and headed over to edmond's house for second round. Goldy and Jian reached early haha. when we arrived saw the two of them playing with his brother. hehe. Had supper chicken chop x( wow. Goldy was dying while we're having our supper lol. Alright after that we started our game again! Edmond's mum took over goldy's place while he is resting =x. my my seems like everyone is so tense playing with his mum. Jian's hand was shaking. wow. well then around 2.15 i left accompanying JX home since its just one traffic light away lol. and im off on my way home~

Then next day went over to mandai to bai my grandma. The weather is also torturing in the early afternoon. Its been like two and a half year since shes gone. SIgh. nvm. Nothing much to talk about there. Just filled with families all over the place. i was emo-ing at one side. Staring at my surrounding, thinking and thinking nothing but her. lols. Oh well, after that went over to CP with my family to look at HP cause my dad's plan is almost up. Then headed over to my ah ma house for dinner and back home. Well i guess this pretty much sums up my weekend. Guess this is a new suffering week i gotta go through alone, i wonder when will it ever end.

Anyway just felt like saying this. Sometimes it doesnt mean that im happy or wadsoeva when im smiling. Its just that i dont wanna spoil the atmosphere cause of me being emo. Somehow im smiling for the sake of smiling or for camera. >_>..sigh its real tough to keep a smile on with so much thoughts in my mind. I swore my loyalty to you and it will be just you. No other one will be able to do what you did. You're the only one that got hold of my heart
Well thats all folks cya next time =D.

Expo

2009-03-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

Alright lets see, my life hasn't gotten any better yet. So much to think about, so much i want to say, so much i miss i love, so much time i missed out. Sigh will the feelings ever reach the destination..? Alright let me just try to end this asap, too tired to think of anything but ~

Alright today's trip was to EXPO, for some Robinson sale or something. Met up with Edmond on the LRT, then he accompanied me to CP and eat first. Due to Bear and Jian is giving excuses delaying. Had my lunch at burger king. Well the new meal isnt too bad, quite nice and crispy actually. Then was on our way to outram to meet bin. Sigh that 2 slowpoke still dragging staying at serangoon for dunno wad dumb reason ~_~. Alright then the 3 of us went off first. Finally reached EXPO, its so damn dead. There's pretty nothing much for us to shop there. Stuff arent that cheap either. The 3 of us walked back and forth like patrolling the area haha. Finally that 2 slowpokes came. The reason they gave was AHEM ~_~. i got no comments. Alright nvm, slowly slowly see see look look, bought a Bermuda for $23 omg...so expensive =/.. haha...then after that went over to PS with them to walk walk see see look look chat chat stroll stroll. then had dinner at yoshinoya. sigh, as usual all the veggy were dump into my bowl ~_~...when i finally finished ALL the veggy, i was kind of full already &(*@$%#)(@^. Nvm i forced the rest into my stomach. We were laughing and making fun of each other, as well as others who were beside us. Sigh, we're soooo bad. no not me but them xD cause i dint talk much, merely listening =]. Then we're finally on our way home. so..HOME SWEET HOME... i guess...?

Suntannnn

2009-03-25T22:13:00.000+08:00

Phew, finally today's weather was great! Went to do some suntanning in the afternoon. Met up with frens at Tamp Swimming Complex. The sun was really AHEM, kind of torturing and hard for me to breathe. My head hurts so much while i was lying down there "dead", had to shake my head often x-x, which SUCKs.. oh well..guess we were there from 1130am till 1pm ba. Some shocking things happened!!! Yeah i wonder why. When we finished, jk wanted to go swim awhile to refresh himself and eddy stood up, went over to the small little shade while im still sitting, he actually fainted ~_~. i was OMFG in my heart. i called out to him 3-5times before he regain his consciousness. My my he was lying FLAT on the ground. Ok thats not all, then we quickly move to the first floor, acutally only him while i was taking my own sweet time walking down. When i saw him he was leaning against the wall. He kept saying he was alright fine then i asked him to move. I turned around saw no one behind me. i walked back to the staircase and saw him fainted again ~_~. My My he was in a Sleeping Beauty position xD. well. Thats the end for the day ppl! nothing much for me to say. For more details ask EDDY!!

Spoilt

2009-03-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

Its so damn depressing in the morning. Originally planned to go do some sun tanning with friends, and it rained for so damn long > : (. kind of sad yet happy as well cause i get to sleep more. I havent been able to sleep for the past few days... been flipping and rolling too much on my bed, time seems to pass by like snail x-x... oh well, then was awake around 1pm or so. As usual on my lappy and watched anime. Until around 4pm edmond called and asked me if i wanna play mahjong with him. So last minute, i dint actually wanna go. But since i got nothing to do at home so might as well just go. Well, took my lonely walk and reached there around 5.15pm or so, started playing all the way till 8.45pm. sure took us a long time to complete one whole round. As usual i always lose in the first half of the game. i wonder why dun ask me. well, finally ended i won $0!!! hahah so proud of myself. =D Finally im back home right now and thats all i can post about for today.

Summary of the holiday till this point of time?

2009-03-22T20:24:00.000+08:00

Hey all! Well, its been so long since i last did any updating on my blog. Yup, you're right! another new blog of mine. Hehe, let me see... this should be my third blog? Well i DO HOPE i dint give up updating again x(.. Guess I'm still having my long, boring, dull, lonely holiday. Countless things happened, be it happy, be it sad, be it heart breaking... i ha vent been able to sleep good for the past one month.. its real tiring, real saddening, real torturing. I cant find the mood to do anything, neither can i do them right... I'm really down right now theres nothing i can do at home... This is probably the worse holiday i ever had i wonder when will it ever end.. Well some know some dint.. those who dont just shut up and dont ask so much x)...

Lets begin with recent stuff which i can remember alright?

Guess what I'm sick right now! I'm down with flu and I'm real tired, poor me. I finished using 2 boxes of tissue!! im amazed at how fast i spammed the tissues =D! Well if you are wondering why I'm sick? simple. Well it all started yesterday, Saturday 21st of march, i went out to do some "market" research. Went to familiar places where i always go with _, and right now I'm at those places alone. Stood in the MRT from the point where it started raining till the rain stopped. Watching each and every single raindrop falling from the sky, it really made me feel like crying. But part of my eyes were real RED. Most of my time spent on this day was just used on travelling, yes nothing but travelling. the places i went i did not stay for more then 20mins and I'm on way to the next destination. Somehow i find it real hard to walk in those places. Well never mind. Throughout the whole day the only meal i had was my dinner. haha pathetic me right? even though i was hungry i dint have mood to eat anything, another reason could be because im trying to save up for something. Well, later in the day i went over to edmond's house to collect some debt hahaha. Well, its a real pain in the ass to walk there cause it was raining. Yup i was kind of wet when i reached there. Well same thing as i was walking back home from his house. Throughout the whole journey the only thing that's on my mind would probably be....

Hmm, lets see on, Tuesday 17th of march, went out with the same usual group over to causeway point to watch movie "Race to the Witch Mountain". Well as usual, i wonder is something wrong with me or something else, i waited 45mins just for everyone to meet up. well i wasn't angry or whatsoever, I'm just thinking about something else which somehow time files when I'm doing that. On the bus, i enclosed myself into my own world and blast music from my mp3 while staring out at the scenery which i hardly get a chance to. Finally, we reached there. went to walk around the place. emotions started to build up as time passed. Some might have noticed some might not. well who cares anyway. Alright then had "early" dinner i supposed? after dinner slacked around while waiting for time to pass. Edmond and me went to do some lonely shopping x). After some time, went in to watch the movie, after that some hero volunteer and drag everyone to send rosanne home. well im not against it so lets go? well, sure is kind of late when we reached there? went to her house, stay for about half an hour, watching them do stupid stuff saying random stuff. and we're on our way back home. its was pretty late at that time. we dint managed to catch for the last bus at woodland interchange. And we resort to CAB! well guess it was around $6 per person. well that ends our day.

Well, had 2 chalets during this holiday. One was during edmond's birthday, the other was my poly-class chalet. Let's start with our class chalet. As usual im one of those who will reach EARLY for duno what reason. It was raining throughout the whole day until ard 5pm or so before the rain stopped. Did some shopping with friends and its freaking cold in the fair price although im wearing jacket. Then went over to our chalet while im waiting there with another fren as the rest went to collect the key. i was washing my feet while waiting =D? weird? nothing really x). then finally the key is here! Went in and started unpacking stuff. some set up the PS2, some pack stuff into the frigde, some where slacking *im one of them =D*. Then we're all playing after an hour or so. PSP-ed PS2-ed chat etc etc. later in the day finally people began to swarm in. started with the BBQ. until around 10+ and went home. Returned to the chalet the next day in the morning or was it early afternoon? i forgot. When i reached saw people playing mahjong. i was really -_- at the way they play mahjong. nvm then we slacked awhile and all went to lunch together at mac. i guess we did some shopping at ehub cant really remember. after that yeah returned to our "home" and continued to slack further. until around dinner time we went to eat KFC. somehow we watched a midnight movie, if i remember correctly the movie was "Push". then after that, slowly walked back and slacked till morning. and i slept for like 2-3 hours =D? then went home after that.
Next up, edmond's chalet. Volunteer to be one of those who will go there early ?_?. Went over to edmond's house early and to find out that we gotta wait until his mother arrive before we can get going. Well his house sure is noisy.. shouting everywhere we go. for more details please ask Jasmine or Edmond =]. Then finally we're on our way there!. reached there, we started putting things into the fridge etc etc. And we began our cleaning =D! Heros of that day was Edmond and JX. washed the floor so clean =D. No dirt no nothing thats wad i think =D. Then sat down eat my lunch -CHICKEN Rice-. then slacked watched TV while waiting for people to arrive. Then i watched people trying to start fire. well im lazy to cause i duno how and i dun wanna dirty my hand =]. See them fail so many times i got nothing to say. i started being the camera man for that time took pictures of everyone. Until our hero,Tia Li Jian, came and get the ball rolling. He built his EMPIRE with only one try and it lasted for more then 6 hours. haha then we started to BBQ!! well while i was BBQ-ing i sure did missed out on alot of fun. But i finally gave up being the one who BBQ. and went to play with the rest. FInally celebration, sing song for edmond and took pictures before cutting the cake. Poor thing gotta use his mouth to pull out the candles. i hope it dont happen to me =D!! then when it was midnight we started playing games which Jasmine and Edmond had planned!. Well all the games was overall fun and exciting. and around 3am-4am some were tired and went to sleep. And we began playing mahjong. played until morning 730am or so. it was my turn to sleep =D! seems like some of them were having fun while im asleep T_T. so unfair. i shldnt have slept x-x. haha. Packed up and such, bath and waited until we book out. Went over to AMK HUB to watch a movie "Pink Panther 2". Edmond actually fell asleep at the beginning! his snore was loud enough for me to hear. hahah. after that we took a stroll over to Gary house since jasmine need to take something from him. while i part way with them and walked to AJC. pretty obvious? and went home after that. Guess thats all i can recall..

Well throughout the whole holiday, there were alot of things on my mind. I couldnt really enjoy whatever i did. Sometimes i felt like crying but i couldnt. Sometimes i felt real alone and need someone to accompany me, i couldnt find one. I wanted to talk to someone but i couldnt bring myself to. Ended up, i resort to running exercising to tire myself from all this. even so its useless. I dunno what i can say about myself.. sigh.. all i wanna say is sorry? but will you even contact me? haha.. Guess thats all folks. Will update real soon guys!